SPIRIT's Diary

 Recently, I can’t sleep very well. Because I may take alcohol too much. Recently, I got a medication for insomnia. When taking the medication, I could sleep for first some hours. But after it, I couldn’t sleep anymore. On second tnought, it seems that alcohol is no good for good sleeping. Cani I have only way that I quit taking alcohol completely? This is the sleeping record on September 1st, without taking alcohol. Is it insufficient? Because I became sleepy about 13:30. Anyway, today is work from home, I was very lucky. Alcohol always makes me relaxed and fun, but make my sleeping worse. At any rate, is there no way except stopping taking alcohol completely, to make sleeping better?

On Saturday, I went to see my psychiatric counselor and talked with them about my excessive spending on PixAI. Then on Sunday, perhaps because it was the end of the month, my regular allotment of PixAI credits came in. By Monday, I had used them all up, but I did not buy any additional credits. The question is whether I can keep this up. One important key to my excessive spending on PixAI is this fact about myself: "I am a devoted hime-danshi - a male fan of yuri - and yuri excites me more than it does most people." When I opened up to my counselor about this, they advised me: "Couldn't you go to a store and buy books like that instead?" I sometimes find digital copies of that kind of doujinshi (the so-called "thin books") online, but they still do not quite satisfy me. Anyway, once my regular credits came in, I resumed generating "a yuri anime featuring Yukime and Ritsuko Takahashi from Hell Teacher Nube," and I also resumed generating ...

“I realized that I'm a hime-danshi—that is, someone whose heart races for yuri more than most people.” Once I realized that, I somehow thought I had found a breakthrough that might keep me from overspending on PixAI. And yet yesterday, I went and overspent on PixAI again. I haven't learned my lesson at all. On top of that, I heard from the travel agency yesterday, and perhaps because of the recent turmoil in the Middle East, I found out that the fuel-related charges and travel costs will be higher than I expected. At this rate, in the worst-case scenario, I might have to sell even more of my stocks. (As for social lending [crowdfunding], I can't liquidate it until a certain period of time has passed.) The AI animation I had PixAI generate after, once again, overspending on it was: “Yuri between Kaoru Kamiya and Megumi Takani from Rurouni Kenshin.” This one, too, was something I came up with “just going with the flow,” and had generated “just going with the flow,” I guess. (...

I got a requested illustration from Mihoniumu-san(@gupmihoniumu, key(gaigaigai123)) This time was, "Itou Makoto and Kay are sleeping in the bed." Kay: Makoto...I love you. Makoto: I love you too. Actually, from this illustration, I made two animations by using PixAI and PowerDirector. However, drawing is very explicit, so I hesitate to publish in this blog. I'm wondering how I use the 2 animations. At any rate, both PixAI and Powerdirector make me surprised. We can many things by using both of them.

Lately, I've really been slacking off at work. The progress on my reports about diseases and new drugs has also been much slower than it used to be. I also want to attract more foreign tourists to our pharmacy, but lately I haven't been writing reports about how to serve them or about English conversation for customer service either. I can't keep going like this. I actually want to attract LGBTQ customers to our pharmacy as well. The problem is that there aren't any LGBTQ people around me, and although I myself have a developmental disability, my sexual orientation is straight. (The term "normal" can be discriminatory.) And as I wrote up to this point, I suddenly remembered something I had completely forgotten: I'm a huge hime-danshi. People who know the term will already be familiar with it,  but a hime-danshi is a man who likes yuri. Here, "yuri" does not mean the lily flower; it refers to imagined romantic or same-sex relationships between wom...

As a hobby and to relieve my stress, I continue to cook. Yesterday's breakfast was "The dipping noodles with tempura flakes and pork saute". Tddaay’s breakfast was "The sausage salad". It wasn't bad the sausage salad. But the dipping noodles with tempura flakes and pork saute was much more delicious than it. Texture of tempura flakes and pork had been mixed very well. And soup of dipping noodle was a bit deep but good. We should have added some water into the soup. I always cook spaghetti-related cuisines. But if so, I'm not very satisfied. Once in a while, I want to increase repertories of cuisine, by making such cuisines.