SPIRIT's Diary

Yesterday, I went to the church, and sing the chorus, and went to Sunpia Onsen/Sunpia Hot Spring. But in the even afternoon, I drunk liquor too much. Recently, my lifestyle has become unhealthy again. At 4:30 P.M. yesterday, I took Sushi and Udon as late lunch in Sunpia Onsen. But in the time, I drunk Japanese Sake too much. I've not forgotten my relaxed feeling when I drink liquor. So, I can't stop drinking alcohol. But it's also called as "small wasting". Can I reduce it? Today, I took cyanamide, the inhibitor of alcohol, and Regtect again. Can I stop drinking liquor by this? My throat has continued to have pain, and hasn't studied G Certificate very well. Can I change this dissolute lifestyle?

Today is also work from home. So, both as breakfast and dinner, I cooked twice. Breakfast was junk. I added salmon and pork. Dinner was carbonala. Cooking makes me happy. But carbonala was spicy.

I rejected Mr. So Kuramoto’s idea of “poverty-happiness” (hinkō), and I also brushed aside Ms. Chizuko Ueno’s notion of “being equally poor.” Sometimes I feel a twinge of guilt about that. Even so, it’s also true that I couldn’t go along with the idea that: “Poverty itself is ‘good’ and ‘beautiful.’” To begin with, as for me: ・I was born right in the middle of the bubble era. ・My father is an investor who’s good at paired trading/hedging with stocks, and I’m a petty-bourgeois type whose living standards are a bit higher than others. ・I grew up in cities—Chiba and Sendai—my whole life. ・And because I have a developmental disorder, I probably can’t control myself as much as I’m “supposed” to. Well, maybe it’s simply the difference between someone who’s lived in the countryside and nature, and someone who’s lived in the city and civilization. Come to think of it, something suddenly came back to me. According to a “behind-the-scenes” setting for Castle in the Sky (Laputa): “Back in the era...

I got up at 4:30 A.M. So I decided to make spaghetti salad again. Spaghetti mayonnaise salad is my favorite cuisine. I want to make it for future. Because I love salt of mayonnaise. Today, one of what I could do was  I could cook. Today, in other, what can I do?

Since I was child, my self-esteem is low. So, to get good pride, I decided to watch this Nakata Atsuhiko's Youtube. This video said, "It's good that you write what you could do in this day." So, I tried to write what I could do in X (former Twitter). Yesterday, what I could do was, 1. I could write English in my blogs. 2. I could study G Certificate. 3. I could walk and exercise. Now that I think about it, I can do it sufficiently. Today's what I could do was, 1. I could buy equity of SoftBank Group and Ajinomoto with each 2000 yen. 2. I could write English in X (former Twitter). What I can do may be more, I think.

For 3 days, I took alcohol too much. Because I may skipped taking Regtect and cyanamide. But, yesterday, I went to Sendai Port and ate butadon. The texture of pork was melting and delicious. And I went to hot spring in Dormy Inn Express Sendai Seaside. It made me refreshed And when I was returning home, the wind blew moderate, and I hadn't become perspiring. It made me very happy..