SPIRIT's Diary

I rejected Mr. So Kuramoto’s idea of “poverty-happiness” (hinkō), and I also brushed aside Ms. Chizuko Ueno’s notion of “being equally poor.” Sometimes I feel a twinge of guilt about that. Even so, it’s also true that I couldn’t go along with the idea that: “Poverty itself is ‘good’ and ‘beautiful.’” To begin with, as for me: ・I was born right in the middle of the bubble era. ・My father is an investor who’s good at paired trading/hedging with stocks, and I’m a petty-bourgeois type whose living standards are a bit higher than others. ・I grew up in cities—Chiba and Sendai—my whole life. ・And because I have a developmental disorder, I probably can’t control myself as much as I’m “supposed” to. Well, maybe it’s simply the difference between someone who’s lived in the countryside and nature, and someone who’s lived in the city and civilization. Come to think of it, something suddenly came back to me. According to a “behind-the-scenes” setting for Castle in the Sky (Laputa): “Back in the era...

I got up at 4:30 A.M. So I decided to make spaghetti salad again. Spaghetti mayonnaise salad is my favorite cuisine. I want to make it for future. Because I love salt of mayonnaise. Today, one of what I could do was  I could cook. Today, in other, what can I do?

Since I was child, my self-esteem is low. So, to get good pride, I decided to watch this Nakata Atsuhiko's Youtube. This video said, "It's good that you write what you could do in this day." So, I tried to write what I could do in X (former Twitter). Yesterday, what I could do was, 1. I could write English in my blogs. 2. I could study G Certificate. 3. I could walk and exercise. Now that I think about it, I can do it sufficiently. Today's what I could do was, 1. I could buy equity of SoftBank Group and Ajinomoto with each 2000 yen. 2. I could write English in X (former Twitter). What I can do may be more, I think.

For 3 days, I took alcohol too much. Because I may skipped taking Regtect and cyanamide. But, yesterday, I went to Sendai Port and ate butadon. The texture of pork was melting and delicious. And I went to hot spring in Dormy Inn Express Sendai Seaside. It made me refreshed And when I was returning home, the wind blew moderate, and I hadn't become perspiring. It made me very happy..

Recently, I can't come up with what I want to write this blog. This blog is alternation of my diary, so it would be good if I can continue to write every day. More thinking, in Gintama, there is a story about Seita's picture diary. It seems, to elementary school students, it's good for them that writing own diary is making good habitancy. In fact, it's said, that writing own diary is good for activating own brain, improving writing ability and so on. But, today, how should I write this blog? Recently, I took GLP-1 agonist, the medication for obesity, so I could reduce my weight from 93.2kg to 92.4kg. It's good for my health. But my habitancy has remained, that I eat and drink liquor too much if I have much stress. I can suppress my crave to liquor, by taking cyanamide and Legtect. What should I do for future?

Today is also work from home. So, I decided to cook again. Today is, "Spaghetti with pork and mayonnaise." The taste of mayonnaise and pork was mixed very much. However, I added the salt and pepper too much. This cuisine made me perspiring. Because it was also warm despite February in Japan. I've skipped alcohol for 3 days. I want to continue to cook without drinking liquor.