SPIRIT's Diary

I spent depressive Golden Weeks. I increased going out time, because I’m not comfortable even if I stay home or accompany my parents. I spent time such as staying Sunpia No Yu/Sunpia Hot Spring, doing window shopping in Yodobashi Camera and so on.  But I wasted money for them and eating out too much. Recently, it hasn’t gone well for me, about my losing weight, my work and so on, So I took alcohol too much and it may make me depressed. I decided to fudge my weight to parents for a while. Like Ushijima the Loan Shark, without taking alcohol, I may need to forgive myself. Anyway, I may want to resolve my loneliness. But it may be good for me because writing English makes me a bit satisfied. I have to increase time to write English rather than going out.

Recently, I'm tired every day. I can't understand about what I'm doing. So, I consulted Chat GPT. Chat GPT's principal message is, "It's important for you to take a short break." So, I've become a bit confortable. I also want to drink liquor again, but I'm likely to return the life drinking liquor almost days, so I'm scared. I've become bored to listen relaxing music. I tried to make this blog for foreigners first, to make Japan the oriented-tourism country. But this ambition may be too big. I can't learn language unless I use it much time in my case. It may be important for me to praise myself. It's even magnificent that I live in today and take my work. Tentative, it's praising for me to have finished the report today, and I should be prepared for presents, including dessert and liquor.