SPIRIT's Diary

When returning from the psychiatry, I went to Funaoka Castle Park again to watch the cherry blossoms. But almost petal of cherry blossoms has scattered. "Hana Ni Arashi（花に嵐）", which means "when flowers blossom, there are many storms, so flowers scatter easily." is true. Relying on my anger without clear purpose, I drunk liquor and ate potatoes. I've become angered and ate potato roughly, understand that the season will change. I failed my quota about alcohol in this day. Even if without it, the quotas about work and drinking alcohol is sometimes accomplished and not accomplished. I can accomplish the quota of studying English easily, but I can't  accomplish the quota about wasting money to drink and eat every day. It took 3 days after I decided various quotas. But I may have to re-think about my present quotas.

Yesterday was initially cloudy, but became increasingly sunny. So, as scheduled, I went to Funaoka Castle Park for cherry blossoms viewing. It's about 40 minutes from JR Sendai Station to JR Funaoka Station. In the train, many foreigners such as French was riding, but in Funaoka Castle Park, foreigners were rare. I think why foreigners don't come to Funaoka Castle Park despite beautiful cherry blossoms in that place. I walked the tough hills to Sannomaru Park of Funaoka Castle Park. But I arrived it, there were many cherry blossoms and imitation booths. Despite stopping drinking liquor, I bought Kasumi, the Japanese sake, and drunk it. I should have watched cherry blossoms carefully, and record it in this blog successfully. So I shouldn't have drunk sake. And, I bought Gyutan from an imitation booth and ate. The Feeling of biting was very crispy, and salt and pepper was good. There is a cable car to go to the top, but yesterday was out of service. I wanted to go to the top ...

Yesterday, I drank the liquor again despite prohibiting it. But, I want to go to Funaoka Castle Park to see blossoms, and it's the critical point whether I drink the liquor in that place. On second thoughts, I have easily agitated and inflammable personality. So, my own pace easily collapses. Anyway, I have to continue to write English diary in this blog, to eventually make Japan an oriented-tourism country. It's my first own pace. As Dragon Sakura 2 pointed out, Person's most suffering time is when the result hasn't become better despite doing their own best. Inversely, this time is the critical point whether we make our own ability increase or not. If we break through, we can rush our goal incredibly. But if we stop, we'll decrease the quality of our goal. I don't care of my weight very much, but I want to stop drinking the liquor. And before it, I want to make this blog for foreigners. Thinking about this, I should skip drinking the liquor in seeing blossoms,...

Recently, I'm irritated every day. One reason may be, that I take sweatdrop more easily because the climate has become warm. I have atopic dermatitis, so my whole body become itchy. And, still, I can't believe myself and what I'm doing, perfectly. I've continued to write English in this blog and X, but it may be insufficient for me. I've begun to skip drinking liquor, and it's taken 3 days. Of course, I have to reflect that I had sometimes drunk liquor. On this weekend, I'll go to Funaoka Castle Park, to take blossom viewing. Whether will I take the liquor or not in the time? When I go to cherry blossoms in Funaoka Castle Park, Can I take good pictures of cherry blossoms and publicize this picture in this blog? It's good for me to be able to feature Funaoka Castle Park, as the wonderful place seeing cherry blossoms.