SPIRIT's Diary

I have a bad habitancy, that I want to use the rest cash to invest equities and social-lending. But I decided to leave 100,000 yens as the cash. Always, I've been worried whether I can pay the paying of credit cards. In other words, I also need some cash. I made the cash by selling the stocks of ANA. But I don't know it goes well or worst. And, I have the thinking,  "Using the cash is the most meaningful. the cash is a voucher to be able to exchange the value and the cash itself has no value." Anyway, I have to collect the money to go to Germany. Anyway, I have to live by my own.

Because of wasting for buying in the convenience stores and so on, my cash is likely to become gone completely soon. Perhaps, I may not be able to pay credit card payment in next month. It seems I've not changed since young age. It's important for me how to use money more than saving money. In this age and times, I've been able to go to many foreign countries, such as Thailand, Singapore and so on. But some people may think about, "It's the short-term luck of the ferocious people who can't control own." Actually, I can't deal with it if I need emergence expense. But, there is the way to resolve it, such as selling my equity. Like Ushijima, it's good if I can say, "I'm giving all with admitting the risk."

"Strong countries rob from weak countries, capitalists rob from laborers, and politicians rob from citizens. The society is robbing each other. It's not different from I rob from debtors although few people notice. If whether robbing or robbed, I choose robbing!" (By Ushijima Kaoru in Ushijima the Loan Shark) I've thought variously about saying by Mr. Jose Mujica, passing away some days ago. But I want to choose robbing if whether robbing or robbed. At first, I deny neither authority power nor financial power. Public image is that poor is good and rich is evil, but I don't think so. As I wrote it previously, Investors not careful of deposit in bank very well is safer than poverty people saying "clear and poor." Rather, rich people don't mistake and can learn more. About studying and learning too, it's out of the question if we have no money, needless to say about private. In Bakumatsu era of Japanese History, people who motivate Japanese history,...

I'm suitable follower rather than leader. I'm specialize in pharmaceutical knowledge and English a little, but my self-control ability and popularity is nothing at all. In other hand, I'm generous to foreigners and I'm OK to voting rights for foreign residents if they want to incorporate opinions of minority. Because I may want to go to see Japan and abroad. As writing previously, what I can do is only logistical support. From this view, I should think about my present doing, such as investing stock, my present work and so on. Usually, I'm privileged. I should take the risk and give someone more aggressively. But today's Sleep Apnea Syndrome outpatient service, I got first hypertension drug. I can't control my emotion and appetite, so my taking medication will increase for future. In short term, I have to use dividend in June for investing stocks. But, I have to leave the cash for the travel of Tateyama and the cataract surgery. Anyway, I've understood I...

"In human like lifestyle", I'm sinking into the garbage. "In human like lifestyle", I'm working like slave by nasty persons about my unwilling work. "In human like lifestyle", I'm masturbating with Ona-Hole by picking up the free porno pictures in the internet. Dammit! (By Itahashi Kiyoshi in Ushijima: The Loan Shark) This is one quote in Ushijima: The Loan shark. About myself, my work isn't my unwilling task, and my president is very kind. But, recently, I've not been able to accomplish my quotas. I've wasted over 1000 yen to eat and drink liquor. And I had drunk chu-hai again. "To increase my productivity and continue to work, I'll lose my weight and skip drinking alcohol." If I think so, I should have made my mind relieve On second thoughts, I'm easily agitated and inflammable. I'm very short-tempered and have few coordination. My personality is like “the savage beast” or “the tamed viper”. In other words, I...

After deciding my quotas each one day, I've been able to understand my ideal lifestyle increasingly. I can't still accomplish my quotas sufficiently. My ideal lifestyle is, "One is, that as a super staff officer, I help my president by informing managemental stratagies and information of disease and medication. Another is, that I often travel in Japan and abroad. The other is, that I inform Japanese culture such as Hakkenden of foreigners by using this blog and X(former Twitter)." For thinking about it, it's important for me to save money more. I have to waste less than 500 yens to eat and drink. Today, after going to the dental clinic, I wasted more 500 yens. I've understood I'm still immature. At first, I have to accomplish my quotas, particularly the quota about saving money. Many protagonists in Ushijima the Loan Shark is loose to spend money. But so am I. I should be careful particularly when I become hungry. I've understood that it's happy to...

Today, I went to the hospital of alcoholic department, and saw the result of my blood examination. The result was all terms was within normal range. I was happy, but it was the fact that I had sometimes drunk liquor. I told, that the reason I had drunk liquor was I couldn't understand what I was doing. Then, the doctor said, "What is your ideal lifestyle so that you become satisfied?" I've done many things, such as working, investing, and writing English in this blog and X. But I feel it's still insufficient. But as the doctor said, what is my lifestyle so that I become satisfied? Many protagonists in Ushijima the Loan Shark are bad models. But calculating reversely from them, should I think my ideal lifestyle? For my ideal lifestyle, I need all of things, which are working, investing, using English and so on. But it may be also important for me, to "Shou Yoku Chi Soku/Reducing My Greed and Knowing Satisfaction".