SPIRIT's Diary

After I made "10 seconds rule", that I bear for 10 seconds when I have my impulse to eat and drink, I failed in the first day. After working, my craving was terrible, I paid over 3000 yens although I decided my budget to 1000 yens every day. Particularly, I bought 4 non-alcohol beer. Does it mean that my craving is such terrible? Even now, I always want to drink alcohol. I decided my budget for eating and drinking as 30,000 yens, but even it's just barely. After my parents pass away, can I make my own living? I have to reduce my money of investing because my budget for eating and drinking has increased. Even now, I become emotionally unstable easily. So I want to take alcohol. It's anti-effective. Can't I change my personality becoming emotionally unstable easily?

Recently, I've sometimes drunk liquor. As I said before, I can't suspend my strong impulse. For the same reasons, I sometime drink liquor. It's the best for me to drink no liquor. But I can't suspend desire to joy, so I drink liquor. Are Domo AI, PixAI and so on not sufficient methods to relieve my stress completely? For myself, I don't know. I'm easily perspiring, so, for it too, it makes stress. At least, I want hot days to finish earlier.

Today, I went to obesity hospital and take blood test. Recently, my weight has increased again, what will the result become? I thought variously, and conclusively, I had found that it's important for me to maintain my health. I'm always careful for my weight. But, sometimes, I want my favorite food, and go to my favorite ramen shop, McDonalds and so on. So my weight hadn't lost very well. My president said that she wants me to maintain my health to work longer. I shouldn't forget it. I should have various attraction to entertain me, such as Domo AI, PixAI and so on. Can I resolve my stress by only them?