SPIRIT's Diary

Since long time, I'd forgotten that I'm Conservation Type(Stacking Type) in Dragon Sakura2. In other words, I finish to read the first book before the next book. The specification of this type is, 1. It's important to get own confidence and peace of mind. 2. Their place working and studying should become fixed. 3. They should decide quotas each one day. 4. They should inform own progressing condition of their peers. 5. They shouldn't try the high-level problems. In accordance with third principle, I decided make quotas each one day. My quotas are, 1. In English studying, I should write English in this blog or X(former twitter), or make video of my English speaking for 30 seconds. 2. In work, I should make one goal each one day, and finish it within this day. 3. About alcohol, I should drink nothing or 40g most(5% beer 1000ml). 4. About wasting to eat and drink, I should spend less than 500 yen each one day. With my smartphone, I can't write my blog...

Today, I went to the hospital of alcoholic department, and saw the result of my blood examination. The result was all terms was within normal range. I was happy, but it was the fact that I had sometimes drunk liquor. I told, that the reason I had drunk liquor was I couldn't understand what I was doing. Then, the doctor said, "What is your ideal lifestyle so that you become satisfied?" I've done many things, such as working, investing, and writing English in this blog and X. But I feel it's still insufficient. But as the doctor said, what is my lifestyle so that I become satisfied? Many protagonists in Ushijima the Loan Shark are bad models. But calculating reversely from them, should I think my ideal lifestyle? For my ideal lifestyle, I need all of things, which are working, investing, using English and so on. But it may be also important for me, to "Shou Yoku Chi Soku/Reducing My Greed and Knowing Satisfaction".

Yesterday, I drank the liquor again despite prohibiting it. But, I want to go to Funaoka Castle Park to see blossoms, and it's the critical point whether I drink the liquor in that place. On second thoughts, I have easily agitated and inflammable personality. So, my own pace easily collapses. Anyway, I have to continue to write English diary in this blog, to eventually make Japan an oriented-tourism country. It's my first own pace. As Dragon Sakura 2 pointed out, Person's most suffering time is when the result hasn't become better despite doing their own best. Inversely, this time is the critical point whether we make our own ability increase or not. If we break through, we can rush our goal incredibly. But if we stop, we'll decrease the quality of our goal. I don't care of my weight very much, but I want to stop drinking the liquor. And before it, I want to make this blog for foreigners. Thinking about this, I should skip drinking the liquor in seeing blossoms,...

One quote of Mita Norifusa's comics is "Do it like brushing your teeth. If you don't do it, feel too uncomfortable to sleep." Particularly, in Dragon Sakura series, they said, "Study like brushing your teeth. Feel too uncomfortable to sleep if you don't study." But for me, it's difficult to do it like brushing my teeth Of course, "like brushing my teeth", I've used English in this blog and X(former Twitter). And, "like brushing my teeth", I've bought the stocks of Ajinomoto, Kao and so on. But continuing to do it is very difficult. on this Sunday, I drunk the liquor despite skipping the liquor until Sunday. It's said that it's also strong to dependance to liquor. But if continuing to do it, I've thought it's natural to it. Actually, I think it's become natural for me to use English. Because I've continued to use English. I think it's true "Persistence pays off."