SPIRIT's Diary

It hasn't gone well for me about "10 second rule", which is that I bear when it occurs my impulse to eat and drink. But For 2 days, I've skipped alcohol. Over and over, I've understood my weakest point is self-control ability. When I think more, my supervisor pointed out me that my self-control ability is weak and I become easily irritated when I was a pharmacist in the pharmacy. I couldn't overcome it, I've become distraught when the pharmacy was crowded, and had to quit from the pharmacy. Until now, this weak point has never changed, or it seems it has become worse. I couldn't be patient to eat and drink. It's that my personality is ferocious, isn't it? From next month, my payroll will raise and I'll get about 190,000 yens every month. But the value in Japan is also raising. Can I bear even if most of my assets are securities and social-lending. I can't control my impulse, like Dr. Jekyll. When my parents passed away, what should I do...

Since long time, I haven't studied Financial Planner 3rd Grade while I'm too busy of doing DomoAI and PixAI. And it hasn't gone well of "my 10 seconds rule" for suspending my impulse to eat and drink liquor. I drunk liquor for 2 days. It's good experience that I learned DomoAI and PixAI. And I learned that we can make fake videos easily now. But I can't take examination of FP 3th Grade in September. More thinking, I found my personality is impulsive and instinctive. I act suddenly and easily. If my personality won't change for future, I may have to give up my dream that I watch various things in Japan and the world. Because I waste money to eat and drink and can't make money for travel. Well, I have impulsive and instinctive personality and it hasn't gone well for saving money. So I've taken most of my assets to securities and social lending, and I intend to earn money effectively. Yesterday, I received my renewal notice about my job earlie...

I talked about it in the conference of developmental disorders, but I can't control my impulse very well. Such as paying for DomoAI, PixAI, and so on, eating and drinking, I can't control my such impulse. In this point, I'm very similar to Dr. Jekyll, which prefers pleasure more than usual while he's a noble doctor in public. I n my case, it's not gone well for me to save money on account of my such impulse, so I concluded, that it's better for me to earn money effectively more than saving money.     I can't suspend them if my voltage of my impulse or anger will increase more than usual. Even now, I'm likely to become mad and assault to my parents when I become angry. It would be OK if I can separate my impulse personality into one person, like Dr. Jekyll, but it's impossible. So, I have no way except earning money effectively such as investing. In this way, I've become taking pride in "the investor".     How w...

In the morning, I've been lost in thought about my future and skipped walking. Nevertheless, I made spaghetti as breakfast.     In previous time, I said supervisors rushing desperately is the past because strict hierarchy in workplace has collapsed by globalization and IT-zation. I have desperate personality but short-tempered, so I'm not suitable to a supervisor. But then, what should I do? Is it the best for me to just get by somehow by while not to lose your temper or get violent with people? It's waste of talent if I can't find any place able to use the qualification of pharmacist and TOEIC 840 score even if I have them. How is my future in my present workplace? Soon, I'll take three-way interview, but if the worst case, is there possibility that I'll be fired from my president?     Anyway, it's no way except continuing to invest and use English, about me. I want to get qualification of Financial Planner 3th Grade.

My weight has become over 92 kg. By own, I can't control all of my weight, appetite and emotion, so I decided to consult obesity clinic.     On second thoughts, I'm a developmental disorder and my emotion is unstable by all means. In this case, I've continued to my career as a pharmacist and an investor.       Dragon sakura 2 said, "To make good peers, we should go to Tokyo University." But about my peer of developmental disorders, "Without working, he's stayed at home." "Except working in Pre-employment transition centers B type, he always goes to game centers and restaurant." "He had been a hikikomori since long periods, but he's gone to an Employment Support Center recently." And most of them are very fat. Thinking about it, I've been desperate and lived like a chariot horse. Instead, I can't control both my emotion and my appetite, and I'm easily agitated and inflammable.    ...

Mr. Horiba Masao, the founder of Horiba Manufacture, said, "You should use '4 selves', separately." Thinking about myself, there are many selves, such as "myself as the one in my company", "myself as a client to that illustrator", "myself as the one of my church". I can't choose the true myself across them. But, I think that, "'As myself in my company', I somehow understand pharmaceutical knowledge and English a bit more than others, and inform strategy and information of my president." and "'As the client of that illustrator', I love School Days same to him, and promote his illustrations to foreign, by using English and requesting illustrations about the romance, of Itou Makoto and Garupan captains, and Hakkenshi series." and "'As the one of my church', I communicate foreigners with English and join the Chorus Group and sing songs." I can't abandon any of selves. But my real p...

I'm suitable follower rather than leader. I'm specialize in pharmaceutical knowledge and English a little, but my self-control ability and popularity is nothing at all. In other hand, I'm generous to foreigners and I'm OK to voting rights for foreign residents if they want to incorporate opinions of minority. Because I may want to go to see Japan and abroad. As writing previously, what I can do is only logistical support. From this view, I should think about my present doing, such as investing stock, my present work and so on. Usually, I'm privileged. I should take the risk and give someone more aggressively. But today's Sleep Apnea Syndrome outpatient service, I got first hypertension drug. I can't control my emotion and appetite, so my taking medication will increase for future. In short term, I have to use dividend in June for investing stocks. But, I have to leave the cash for the travel of Tateyama and the cataract surgery. Anyway, I've understood I...

I bought stock of SoftBank Group with 2000 yens. Paypay Securities is useful because we can buy stocks by 1000 yens. My habit is that I buy certain stocks with same amount on certain days every month. And I've been impatient for waiting the day. Thoroughly, I find my personality is far more hot-blooded than others. In Western, "Investment is the animal-spirits, not the gamble." In other words, investment is both ambition and passionate. I want to believe this quote. And, 1. Dragon Sakura 2's quote, "It's the sin that we don't make them challenge." 2. My personality is far more hot-blooded than others. So, it's fit to me that investment is the animal-spirits. It's also important for me to increase my revenue. But I want to make my favorite company prosperous, such as Ajinomoto. My tools for surviving are decided as pharmaceutics, English and investment.

Since young age, my agitated and inflammable personality has never changed. I don't understand whether it's for alcohol or for my original personality. But I can't be satisfied, even if I've tried to write English tweeting, English article, make videos of my speaking English and so on. But Dragon Sakura 2 said, "It's the sin that we don't make them challenge." More thinking about it, from this personality, I've challenged to various things such as English tweeting, English writing, video compilation and so on. For it, I could improve my English ability and got 840 TOEIC score. I've understood that it's the sin that we don't challenge. I'm challenging to skip alcohol every day again. It's taken 3 days since I skipped alcohol. Until now, I couldn't understand about my doing, so I had escaped to liquor. But now, I can understand my action and my ideal lifestyle increasingly. Can't I fail again?