SPIRIT's Diary

In the morning, I've been lost in thought about my future and skipped walking. Nevertheless, I made spaghetti as breakfast.     In previous time, I said supervisors rushing desperately is the past because strict hierarchy in workplace has collapsed by globalization and IT-zation. I have desperate personality but short-tempered, so I'm not suitable to a supervisor. But then, what should I do? Is it the best for me to just get by somehow by while not to lose your temper or get violent with people? It's waste of talent if I can't find any place able to use the qualification of pharmacist and TOEIC 840 score even if I have them. How is my future in my present workplace? Soon, I'll take three-way interview, but if the worst case, is there possibility that I'll be fired from my president?     Anyway, it's no way except continuing to invest and use English, about me. I want to get qualification of Financial Planner 3th Grade.

My weight has become over 92 kg. By own, I can't control all of my weight, appetite and emotion, so I decided to consult obesity clinic.     On second thoughts, I'm a developmental disorder and my emotion is unstable by all means. In this case, I've continued to my career as a pharmacist and an investor.       Dragon sakura 2 said, "To make good peers, we should go to Tokyo University." But about my peer of developmental disorders, "Without working, he's stayed at home." "Except working in Pre-employment transition centers B type, he always goes to game centers and restaurant." "He had been a hikikomori since long periods, but he's gone to an Employment Support Center recently." And most of them are very fat. Thinking about it, I've been desperate and lived like a chariot horse. Instead, I can't control both my emotion and my appetite, and I'm easily agitated and inflammable.    ...

Mr. Horiba Masao, the founder of Horiba Manufacture, said, "You should use '4 selves', separately." Thinking about myself, there are many selves, such as "myself as the one in my company", "myself as a client to that illustrator", "myself as the one of my church". I can't choose the true myself across them. But, I think that, "'As myself in my company', I somehow understand pharmaceutical knowledge and English a bit more than others, and inform strategy and information of my president." and "'As the client of that illustrator', I love School Days same to him, and promote his illustrations to foreign, by using English and requesting illustrations about the romance, of Itou Makoto and Garupan captains, and Hakkenshi series." and "'As the one of my church', I communicate foreigners with English and join the Chorus Group and sing songs." I can't abandon any of selves. But my real p...

I'm suitable follower rather than leader. I'm specialize in pharmaceutical knowledge and English a little, but my self-control ability and popularity is nothing at all. In other hand, I'm generous to foreigners and I'm OK to voting rights for foreign residents if they want to incorporate opinions of minority. Because I may want to go to see Japan and abroad. As writing previously, what I can do is only logistical support. From this view, I should think about my present doing, such as investing stock, my present work and so on. Usually, I'm privileged. I should take the risk and give someone more aggressively. But today's Sleep Apnea Syndrome outpatient service, I got first hypertension drug. I can't control my emotion and appetite, so my taking medication will increase for future. In short term, I have to use dividend in June for investing stocks. But, I have to leave the cash for the travel of Tateyama and the cataract surgery. Anyway, I've understood I...

I bought stock of SoftBank Group with 2000 yens. Paypay Securities is useful because we can buy stocks by 1000 yens. My habit is that I buy certain stocks with same amount on certain days every month. And I've been impatient for waiting the day. Thoroughly, I find my personality is far more hot-blooded than others. In Western, "Investment is the animal-spirits, not the gamble." In other words, investment is both ambition and passionate. I want to believe this quote. And, 1. Dragon Sakura 2's quote, "It's the sin that we don't make them challenge." 2. My personality is far more hot-blooded than others. So, it's fit to me that investment is the animal-spirits. It's also important for me to increase my revenue. But I want to make my favorite company prosperous, such as Ajinomoto. My tools for surviving are decided as pharmaceutics, English and investment.

Since young age, my agitated and inflammable personality has never changed. I don't understand whether it's for alcohol or for my original personality. But I can't be satisfied, even if I've tried to write English tweeting, English article, make videos of my speaking English and so on. But Dragon Sakura 2 said, "It's the sin that we don't make them challenge." More thinking about it, from this personality, I've challenged to various things such as English tweeting, English writing, video compilation and so on. For it, I could improve my English ability and got 840 TOEIC score. I've understood that it's the sin that we don't challenge. I'm challenging to skip alcohol every day again. It's taken 3 days since I skipped alcohol. Until now, I couldn't understand about my doing, so I had escaped to liquor. But now, I can understand my action and my ideal lifestyle increasingly. Can't I fail again?