SPIRIT's Diary

Today was for struggling to lose my weight. After walking for 30 minutes, I tried to go to my favorite convenience store, but stopped it. Alternatively, in YouTube, I watched an anime, "Anne in The Green Gables" by Miyazaki Hayao. On second thought, I'd been surprised to Anne's characteristics, that speaks very much and is very well for imaginative and fictional ability. In the afternoon, I wanted to eat Ramen Billy, my favorite ramen, very much when I was working in my task. I intended to order it by Uber Eats, but I stopped it just in time. Alternatively, I decided to use the expense for buying equity of Canon. It was 2000 yen. However, I've been satisfied because I can contribute the prosperity of Canon and research and development of nuclear fusion. In the evening, as substitute of Ramen Billy, I ate Cheese Bread and Chinese Dried Chicken. It was simple, but the taste of cheese was melting and salty. Once in a while, it's OK for me there is such days.

Recently, I can't come up with what I want to write this blog. This blog is alternation of my diary, so it would be good if I can continue to write every day. More thinking, in Gintama, there is a story about Seita's picture diary. It seems, to elementary school students, it's good for them that writing own diary is making good habitancy. In fact, it's said, that writing own diary is good for activating own brain, improving writing ability and so on. But, today, how should I write this blog? Recently, I took GLP-1 agonist, the medication for obesity, so I could reduce my weight from 93.2kg to 92.4kg. It's good for my health. But my habitancy has remained, that I eat and drink liquor too much if I have much stress. I can suppress my crave to liquor, by taking cyanamide and Legtect. What should I do for future?

My weight has returned from 92kg to 93.2kg. I've become fat again. Yesterday, I ate too much hamburger in McDonalds. Recently, I've not understood what I should do and how I should become. That's all, if I say I should reduce my weight and stop drinking alcohol. But I couldn't do them very much. They look easy but actually are difficult. Now, we are called for increasing productivity, so it's insufficient for me to only do my best. I may need to make my goal again, and I need to try it. 3 days ago, I finished to renew the qualification of Japan Health Literacy. 2 days ago, I met my friends of developmental disorder and talked variously. Yesterday, I went to my church and devoted as a choir. All of them are needed to me, and I want to do all of them. Now, I need to study G Certificate to pass the examination. And to lose my weight, I have to drink over 2000ml water.

Thanks to you, my weight has decreased from 94 kg to 92.4 kg. For my health, it's very good. Other reasons are, ・I've continued to take GLP-1 every day. ・I've taken over 2,000 ml water every day. ・4 times a week, I've walked for 1 hour with my father. However, in Polynesian, full-figured women are called as beauty. And, In Qing, the ancient China, women having small feet were called as beauty. In other words, it seems that every people are called as beauty depending on someone's perspective. But, in present Japan, it's the satiation era, so thin people are called as beauty. In such era, how much will I reduce my weight* At least, I want to continue to drink over 2000ml water every day.

I couldn't lose my weight effectively. So 3 days ago, I began to take GLP-1 agonist and SGLT2 inhibitor again. They're effective to excrete more sugar and lose weight. However, they're not covered in public insurance, so I need over 25000 yen. Will it be effective for me to lose my weight? My present weight is 94.2kg. How much weight will I lose? Tomorrow, I want to go to BIlly Ramen, my favorite ramen shop.

As the way to lose my weight, "Drinking over 2000 ml water every day" is easy to begin for me , I said. So, Since Jan. 7th, I've started to drink over 2,000 water every day. I feel urination much more times, but it seems metabolism and excretion has increased more. So, I've maintained my weight as about 93.5kg. How much can I reduce my weight by both drinking much water and skipping alcohol? Because of aging, my base metabolism has decreased. It's better, if I will continue not to increase my weight more.

I ate the cup noodle yakisoba in lunch and double cheeseburger in McDonalds in dinner. My weight will be likely to increase. However, I can't relieve my stress if I don't it. My personality is, "Inflammable and agitated". I become irritated easily, such as even feeling urination or convenience. I would lose my control and be likely whether I wound someone or something, if I save my stress. It's not low possibility, that I repeat crimes like Takuma Mamoru, Kobayashi Kaoru and so on. In this personality, how will I maintain my health? I return my thinking into basic. Dragon Sakura2, the comics by Mita Norifusa, said, "We have to say 'what will I do for what', not 'do my best' and 'desperateness'." It also said, "'Do my best', 'desperateness' and so on are the exclamation phrases with only vigor." and "They have neither concreteness and rationality." I have to think, "What will I do, for becom...

Recently, my life has been self-indulgent. I haven't made any days of no drinking and my weight hasn't decreased. I often go to ChocoZAP with my father again. It can't be helped because my metabolism energy has decreased on account of becoming about 40s. However, I've thought after I had gotten a illustration "Itou Makoto and Nishizumi Miho, as Inuzuka Shino, are showing orbs of ''Kou（孝）/filial piety" by Mihoniumu-san(@gupmihoniumu, key(gaigaigai123)) I've wanted to expand Japanese culture such as Hakkenden, sumo and so on, for making Japan an oriented-tourism country. I've understood I can't do it in a short time. For it, I have to maintain both my physical strength and my energy. I have to become healthy by losing weight and so on. I have to skip eating Famichiki and drinking liquor. But can I do it now?

I have to lose my weight with maintaining my muscle amounts, to deal with three-ways interview on Dec. 10th. In this time, I found the chicken thigh steak in Family Mart. It's suitable when I become a little hungry. The chewy is firm, and mix the taste of teriyaki sauce very well. The chewy of chicken breast is too solid, so I can't eat it very deliciously. But the chicken thigh is not. I'll be likely to lose my weight if I exercise regularly and eat chicken thigh when I become a bit hungry. But it's ever difficult to me.

For my mother's recommendation, I went to ChocoZAP and exercise too much yesterday. But I thought I had done both aerobic exercise and anaerobic exercise. I could lose my weight if I can continue this.     I always keep in mind that I have to do lat pull down in ChocoZAP, to correct my posture. And lat always consume our calories the most. I think I can lose my weight easily if I train my lat.     But, yesterday and today, I ate Famichiki too much. I've kept in mind that I have to eat chicken protein instead of Famichiki. But I couldn't forget the soft texture of Famichiki.     I have three-way interview on Dec. 10th in my company. I have to get physical strength and lose my weight.

My parents returned from Chiba. They brought many souvenirs and I ate them today. But I couldn't eat so much because I've become aging. Yesterday, I ate Billy Ramen too much, so my weight has returned over 92kg. On Dec. 10th, I'll take three-ways interview in my company. Until the day, I have to reduce my weight. Recently, bears won't appear in my town, so my mother recommend that we go to ChocoZAP again. In this way, it's good for me to lose my weight.

My weight has never decreased recently, and I've maintained my weight 90kg. I want to eat Billy Ramen on this weekend, so I've tried to lose my weight. On next Sunday, there is my uncle's 77th birthday, and will hold its party in Chiba. But I can't attend party on account of my choir of my church. At least, I want to buy my favorite Baum-kuchen and send to my uncle. When my parents leave their home for my uncle's party, I intend to eat my favorite ramen. But can my cash become left? I also restarted hedge selling to get more money. Can it become effective?

Recently, I can't drink except little liquor. I easily vomit when I drink 9% Chu-hai. So, I don't like it, but I can't drink except beer. Has my body changed because of aging? For maintaining my physical ability, I'm trying to decrease my weight, such as taking Alli and so on. For it, I could reduce my weight to 89.8kg. Would it be better if I don't drink liquor? I've finally understood that physical ability is the most important for travel, because I'd become tired easily when I went to OSAKA EXPO 2025 and Tokyo. But can I reduce my weight easily?

I always think I have to become thin when I watch my swollen body. So I changed the snack from Famichiki to chicken protein bar. After I decided to go to Germany, I often watch this story of Doraemon. But it's first time for me to watch Mizuta Wasabi's version. As always, it's not easy for us to save money. Can I reduce amounts of alcohol? Recently, I can't receive 9% Chu-hai 1000ml. When it's about 750ml, I always vomit. It's on account of my age, isn't it? Anyway, I want to go to Germany. I also have to think my mutual funds to cash.

It's been about 1 month since I felt chest pain on Oct. 11th. My mother said, "You took caffeine too much, so chest pain occurred." I went to sleeping hospital about this case and Sleeping Apnea Syndrome. My doctor said, "The reason that you felt chest pain was unknown. But you should drink cold water when you feel chest pain. It may be occurred by GLP-1 agonist. But please monitor your chest feeling." By nitroglycerin, it'd not recovered my chest pain, so I didn't get nitroglycerin. But is it better if I got it? The doctor also said, "It's better for you to lose your weight and continue to take CPAP, to reduce your chest pain." Recently, my nausea is terrible and my appetite has decreased. Today too, I ate a little dinner and drunk no liquor. Is it OK for me to go with the flow? My weight is 89.2kg now? For future, how much can I reduce?

I ate Billy Ramen, my favorite ramen, too much yesterday, so my weight has been likely to become 92kg. Changing into BMI, it's 31.9. It's a bit NG. I've not been careful about my weight. And I've skipped to take Alli, the inhibitor of absorption of fat. So it may be naturally for increasing my weight. I want to make my joyful life even if my life is short. So, it's not careful about my weight. But how's that? Recently, my blood pressure has continued to hypertension. It's also naturally, because the blood pressure increases if we're fat. I can drink only sweet drinks because my taste has changed. With it, I've taken sugar too much, it's also made me increase my weight. Should I reduce my weight?

My weight has increased to 91.3kg. So I started to take GLP-1 agonist again. Originally, it's the medication for diabetes, but effective to lose weight. My mother said, "Your chest pain on Oct. 11th was for taking caffeine too much, not for GLP-1 agonist. You should take GLP-1 agonist again and decrease to take caffeine." But is it true? Anyway, I have to receive a letter of reference in the hospital of SAS, and go to bigger hospital to take examination for more detail. What did cause my chest pain?

I couldn't come up with what I want to write this blog, so I went out 2 entire days. And I ate sushi and a mackerel, and my weight has increased near 91kg again. More thinking about it, I've not walk sufficiently recently because we've been scared for encountering bears. Recently, appearance of bear has been much time in Miyagi too. And, my taste has changed, and I couldn't receive the taste of beer. And I want to drink sweet juice fiercely, so I often drink chu-hai and sweet juice. So my weight may increase. I don't care of my appearance and I'm prepared for my early death. But I'm likely not to fit my cloth, so I have to lose my weight.

Today too, I went to go to ChocoZAP with my father, and exercised. Anaerobic exercise in ChocoZAP can help to make my muscle. But, about my weight, my weight hasn't decreased yet. However, as always, I haven't cared for my weight. As always, to eat and drink is the best way to relieve my stress. My physical strength and resilience have fluctuated for days. If I have both of them, I have much desire such as going to Shanghai. But if I have neither of them, I don't want to do anything including to work. It may be the key whether my mental is stable or not. Recently, I re-started that I often take meditation in free time. But, until now, I can't make my mental stable even if I do it. Will it become effective.

The tenth day after I've taken GLP-1 agonist again. My weight has increased to 88.1kg reversely. Yesterday, because it was holiday, I ate the snack, such as cheese bread, too much. While I was relaxed, management of my company has decline because the revenue has decreased and the minimum wage had to rise. I want my company's productivity to increase. But, before it, I have to increase my productivity. However, my vigor and physical strength have decreased a far much. Recently, I haven't thought I want to go abroad and go to travel, and I become tired even morning 30 minutes walking. But my appetite and sleeping desire hasn't increased. I've wasted money to eat and drink, and my money for investing had to decreased. I've felt than my time has come to the retreat time. What should I do?