SPIRIT's Diary

On Saturday, I went to see my psychiatric counselor and talked with them about my excessive spending on PixAI. Then on Sunday, perhaps because it was the end of the month, my regular allotment of PixAI credits came in. By Monday, I had used them all up, but I did not buy any additional credits. The question is whether I can keep this up. One important key to my excessive spending on PixAI is this fact about myself: "I am a devoted hime-danshi - a male fan of yuri - and yuri excites me more than it does most people." When I opened up to my counselor about this, they advised me: "Couldn't you go to a store and buy books like that instead?" I sometimes find digital copies of that kind of doujinshi (the so-called "thin books") online, but they still do not quite satisfy me. Anyway, once my regular credits came in, I resumed generating "a yuri anime featuring Yukime and Ritsuko Takahashi from Hell Teacher Nube," and I also resumed generating ...

Today and tomorrow, my parents will be in Chiba. So, I'm only one in home, without interfered from my parents. Today, I went to the psychiatry to take counseling and get medication such as Concerta. Recently, I drunk 9% Chu-hai again, so I consulted the counselor about it. "Can you change 7% Chu-hai?" he answered. Anyway, today and tomorrow, I decided to skip alcohol. For future, I'll think about it in this time. If always, I go to the spa such as Sunpia Onsen, but today, I returned home earlier and I took laundry my futon. Because, recently, my back and chest have terrible atopic disease, and they are always itchy. I thought my futon had been fulfilled with allergen such as ticks. Without interference from my parents, I took one quiet day with my favorite ramen. Always, I have craving to liquor but I must bear today. Today was Sendai Aoba Festival but it was not affordable for me to watch because it was rainy.