SPIRIT's Diary

In my church, there was "circle for praying" today. There is also "status report and praying with English", so I joined this circle with foreigners. I was very tensioned because it's first time for me to praying with English. I couldn't listen English talking of other foreigners. But I could inform, that I want to increase revenue of my pharmacy and contribute my president. Nobody except me had joined the English praying circle. But if I don't join this circle, nobody won't join this circle. And I wouldn't win the peer of my church which works in JICA forever. She has worked in JICA, so her experience communicating with foreigners is far more than me. I want to watch various things of Japan and the world, and I want to inform Japanese culture such as Hakkenden. I can't dismiss this experience. After it, I ate salmon-rice as lunch in my church. It was very delicious!

My vigor has recovered one by one since I was working in my office yesterday. I've become the emotion that I want to go abroad again. At first, I decided to go to the Gogh's Museum in Tokyo Metropolitan Art Museum in November. I've known this exhibition, when I was watching NHK in Topos, the onsen in central of Sendai. I watched various opus by Gogh in Singapore, but I want to watch them again. I 'm thinking about how much budget is. But I also want to watch both Newoman Takanawa and Odaiba Retro Museum. If I will watch them, I have to stay in the hotel of Tokyo, and the budget has to increase much more. Should I make this trip the day trip?

Today, I bought Shinkansen tickets for travel of Osaka EXPO with my father. For the discount coupon of shareholder of JR East, I could buy about 50% value. But, recently, I'd understood that my physical strength and guts have decreased far more than when I was 20s. Because I've not been able to rise the hill from my favorite church to my home. I'm anxious whether I can bear walking around in the venue of Osaka EXPO from morning to night. The time I want to sleep has increased recently too. Always, I can sleep about 5.5 hours every night. Perhaps, for future, I'm likely not to go abroad. What will my dream that I want to watch various things of Japan and the world become? What will I become because all of physical strength, guts and stability of my mental has decreased much?

Today, I went to Misaki, the sushi restaurant in the central of Sendai city when I was in the way to go to obesity clinic. I've been impressed to tablet ordering system normalized now, when it had been cutting edge system in Aichi EXPO of 2005, rather than sushi. Tablet ordering system, IC tagged card, AED and so on were cutting edge system in 2005, Aichi EXPO year. But now, all of them have been normalized. Tomorrow, I'll buy the ticket of Shinkansen for travel of EXPO 2025 with my father. Will the cutting-edge exhibitions on EXPO 2025 become normalized in Japan after 20 years? Recently, such as AI, development of technology has been fierce. I want to catch up this progress and become used to cutting-edge technology.

One day after I took three-ways interview, I forgot to check both my weight and my blood pressure. My president had recommended me to lose my BMI by 30.0. But, as always, I've continued to buy and eat. And, as always, I've not been careful of my weight and my blood pressure. Rather, I'm scared to accumulate my stress and lose my control. As always, I can't control myself insufficiently. In the day of three-ways interview too, I ate lunch too much. I think, that my insufficient self-control ability won't change or become worse in some cases. In this case, how will I live? To lose my weight, I've continued to take GLP-1 agonist every day. But I don't know what result become. Because I continue to buy and eat . Well, it's far better than losing my control and stab or shoot others. It's fortune that my living place is Japan, not United States, over and over.

In free time, I've been reading, "Rurouni Kenshin Magazine Reiwa 7th Summer". I've been amazed Mr. Sorachi Hideaki's illustration, the author of Gintama, and Mr. Matsui Yusei's illustration, the author of The Elusive Samurai. Particularly, I've thought no contact between Mr. Sorachi and Mr. Watsuki Nobuhiro. I've thought, that Gintama, The Elusive Samurai and so on has been affected from Rurouni Kenshin/Samurai X. Gintama's gag from Rurouni Kenshin had existed in the comparatively late period. This book also portrays about the detail of Shishio Makoto and Jippongatana. I'll intend to read it for future.

I was likely to eat too much. So my weight has increased about 88kg again. For my mother's recommendation, I decided to take Rybelsus, the agonist of GLP-1, again. GLP-1 has affection to lose our weight and our appetite. But we have to take as soon as we get up, and we can't eat and drink anything for 30 minutes. It's very troubling for me. And this prescription isn't under public insurance and needed about 16,000 yens. Obesity causes various disease, such as sleeping apnea, hypertension and so on. So I want this prescription to become under insurance. Actually, I've been calmness even if my weight increases. Only my parents have blamed and been careful too much. But should I care of my weight more? Eating and drinking is the best method to relieve my stress.

Yesterday, I skipped taking alcohol and bear with non-alcoholic beer. So I could sleep very well, so I've become relaxed since this morning. But, in other hand, my father didn't look vigorous. So we skipped walking in the morning. Because it's also too hot. I'm contributing to make text of pharmaceutical English conversation in my job now. My president accepted my idea and published English texts I made in my company. It's very good if it will continue and our pharmacy will be able to take in more inbounds. Foreigners in Japan is increasing and will become a lion share.

Recently, I often go to the restroom in the night, up to 3 times. So for my father's recommendation, I went to the urology. The urology has many foreign patients, so they've made English homepage, and often hold English learning. One clerk of the urology had gone to Australia to learn English. I felt it's amazing. I've thought it's good if our company will become suitable to foreigners, so I'm making the reports for learning medical English. But I'm always anxious because I'm always thinking I'm rushing away without caring for others. So, I always take alcohol for escaping from this fact. I understand it's no good. More thinking about it, I have Asperger and ADHD, so I'm very troubled to communication to others. But I'm generous to foreigners. Because I may like English and have a dream that I want to watch various things of Japan and world. And I may want to improve my English ability by communicating various foreigners. I've underst...

In previous day of health check, I drunk alcohol. But, today, my weight is 85.9kg, under 86.2kg. I accomplished my goal, so I have to congratulate myself. The reason I drunk alcohol: 1. In my task, I'm writing the report making our company employees improve English ability, but I have strong anxiety that only I'm plowing ahead. 2. Recently, I got up earlier than 4:00 A.M. so I'm lack of sleep. 3. Because of lack of sleep, I drunk caffeine too much, so I become worried more. I slept until 4:30 A.M. today, so I'm hardly anxious as expected. I have to sleep more, at least 6 hours. I should have generate illustrations by PixAI or watch sumo in Youtube, rather than drinking alcohol. I generated an animation in PixAI.

On Jul. 19th, I took counseling in the psychiatry. I consulted to my counselor, "I don't understand what I'm doing." so, my counselor responded, "What do you want to do?" After thinking for a while, I answered, "I want to see various things in Japan and the world." I've forgot to want to see various things in Japan and the world, since long time. Of course, I want to make Japan the oriented-tourism country and interact with various foreigners. Now, in my church, I communicate some foreigners. I'm a bit troubled to communicate with English, but the foreigners aren't bad people. Yesterday, I went to Sunpia Onsen/Sunpia Hot Spring again, and I drunk alcohol and became relaxed. Except travel, my best joy may be drinking alcohol and relaxed after taking hot spring. All of my doing isn't wasting, including writing English in this blog. And I've tried to become used to AI by using PixAI. I may have to become relaxed.

In Rokuchounome, the east of Sendai, there is a big public bath, Sunpia No Yu/Sunpia's Hot Spring. I went to Sunpia's Hot Spiring in Thursday's holiday.   There are two saunas in Sunpia's Spring. One is the dry sauna and the other is the sauna with salt. I took only the sauna with salt.     I have atopic disease in my shoulder, so it had big pain when I rubbed salt into my body. But I did it, so my metabolism became vital by becoming perspiring. And temperture in the sauna with salt was about 40℃, so I could enter into it easily.     In Sunpia's Hot Spring, both inside and outside has many bath. The temperature was about 40℃, I could take easily for 30 minutes.     After taking bath, I drunk one bottle of milk, and I stayed a rest area with watching TV. The chair is the reclining seat, so I could fold down the backseat. And I slept over 1 hours. In Sunpia's Hot Spring, I can become relaxed with forgetting the tim...