SPIRIT's Diary

Recently, I've spent impatient days every day. Because I don't have sufficient cash and I can't invest such as equity and social-lending whatever I want. And I'll go to Germany with my father. I don't understand how much we will use money on-site, and I can't predict how much cash will remain. So I don't know amount of money for investing, so it makes me irritated as an investor. And, in November, I'll take colonoscopy. I almost drink liquor every day, so I wonder how much mucosa of digestive tract have been harmed. I also don't know how much expense of this examination. Shouldn't I become impatient? Kaishu Katsu said, "It's meaningless if we hurry up. Waiting with lying down is our first priority." Is this saying true? Someday, my cash for investing will collect, so shouldn't I be impatient? Anyway, at first, I have to save money more. Of course, paying for PixAI is strictly inhibited. To contribute the society, I want to resta...

 The subtitle of this article is a play on “Gouki’s Choice,” the title of an episode of Seijuu Sentai Gingaman. (Incidentally, Gouki is Ginga Blue, played by a young Shoei.) Yesterday, despite myself, I ended up paying for PixAI yet again. So far this month, I’ve spent just under ¥5,000 on PixAI. If possible, I want to keep it at that and avoid spending any more. Incidentally, I make my Hakkenden-related animations with a different AI animation system called DomoAI (https://www.domoai.app/). What I really want to make is “an animation in which the Eight Dog Warriors fight fiercely,” but I’m struggling even to generate “an animation in which the Eight Dog Warriors walk side by side,” so I need to finish that first. That said, I still haven’t accumulated enough credits for it, and perhaps not enough time has passed yet, because I haven’t received any of the periodic credits either. Since I’m managing to hold back in that area, perhaps that means I am capable of exercising self-restra...

On Saturday, I went to see my psychiatric counselor and talked with them about my excessive spending on PixAI. Then on Sunday, perhaps because it was the end of the month, my regular allotment of PixAI credits came in. By Monday, I had used them all up, but I did not buy any additional credits. The question is whether I can keep this up. One important key to my excessive spending on PixAI is this fact about myself: "I am a devoted hime-danshi - a male fan of yuri - and yuri excites me more than it does most people." When I opened up to my counselor about this, they advised me: "Couldn't you go to a store and buy books like that instead?" I sometimes find digital copies of that kind of doujinshi (the so-called "thin books") online, but they still do not quite satisfy me. Anyway, once my regular credits came in, I resumed generating "a yuri anime featuring Yukime and Ritsuko Takahashi from Hell Teacher Nube," and I also resumed generating ...

I decided to go to Kinosaki Onsen next November or January. I went to Onodera Onsen in Yamagata and very impressed to old-fashioned hot spring town. So I want to go to old fashioned hot spring town again. We can't use credit card in most of Onodera Onsen Inns, so I want to stay in a inn which I can use credit cards. Therefore, I was singled out Kinosaki Onsen, which many foreigners have paid attention to. I've not decided amount of budget for Kinosaki Onsen Travel. But I've being adjusted that I'll stay for 3 nights 4 days. I want to stay an old-fashioned inn, but are there any vacancies in Inns of Kinosaki Onsen? I have to collect save money more.

Finally, I could collect 800,000 yen, the budget for German travel. But departure tax in Japan rose into 3,000 yen, so I'm likely to need more money. My received income every month is about 196,000 yen. In other, there are dividend of equity and social-lending, and income for hedge selling, but they're indeterminate and their amounts are unstable. So I have to make ends meet from 196,000 yen. As a pharmacist and an investor, I decided to manage and contribute the society. And I want to watch various places of Japan and the world. About excess paying for PixAI, by using the website blocker, I'm likely to resolve this problem. I want to decrease paying for PixAI more, and I want to invest such as equity more instead. Once, in Japan, it occurred agenda, that we need 20 million yen for husband and wife after retirement. But I've invested such as equity, iDeco and so on. About after my retirement, I think it's leave it to heaven. If I can contribute the society and watch...

Today, I went to the counseling in the psychiatry clinic, and declared to the counselor, that my weight has become over 100kg. The counselor recommended me the methods to relieve my stress except eating and drinking alcohol. It would be the best if there were such methods. But, at least, for me, such methods have been nothing until now. However, recently, I've remembered, that I've lived for traveling. It would be no good if I couldn't travel. I told myself,  "I'll reduce my weight for traveling." In present era, it's insufficient to "do my best." It's said, "Do my best" have neither concreteness nor rationality. When returning from psychiatry clinic, I bought Alli, the inhibitor of absorption of fat. How it will be effect? And I decided to skip drinking alcohol for a while. How much can I reduce my weight, by the health checkup in August and German travel in October?

In this Tokyo travel, expense was within the budget. But what should I use the rest money? I want to become for the good of society and others, I also want money, I want to watch various places of Japan and the world and so on... Like this, I have greed too much. When I consult Chat GPT about making physical strength for German travel, It recommended me to reduce my weight into about 98kg. It seems that BMI=35 is severe obesity, so I need to lose 5-10kg. Particularly, I need to reduce taking alcohol. Such as investing more money and so on, I have many duties, but, at first, it seems that I need to lose my weight. I need to abstain to buy food and alcohol in convenience stores, and it's also meaning of saving money. I always feel sleepiness in the day and buy Tokucha, the green tea of Suntory, but I need to settle for coffee in my home instead. I have sufficient money for German travel, so I need to save more money and invest the stocks instead.

I returned from Tokyo yesterday. But, except visiting NHK Sunday Museum 50th Anniversary Exhibition, I stayed the hotel most of the time. I've completely understood that my physical strength has markedly decreased. Actually, I became tired even when I walked from Odaiba Kaihin Park Station to Daiba station. Fortunately, I could reserve Executive room in the hotel. So I went to Executive Room and became relaxed and various sweets. From the hotel room, I could watch Rainbow Bridge. Of course, I enjoyed various exhibition in NHK Sunday Museum 50th Anniversary Exhibition, such as Okamoto Taro's exhibition. However, it's likely to be difficult for me to go to Germany. For the travel, I have to lose my weight and increase my physical strength. I'll also consult to Chat GPT.

Since long time, I’ve forgotten my ambition, that I’ll contribute the society as a pharmacist and an investor. I have to spend money for investing more. But. I have to go to Odaiba for travel and use much money. And, I also have to be prepared 800,000 yens as budget for German travel despite understanding its luxury. The travel of Odaiba is soon. After Odaiba’s travel, should I think about budget for my investing? At any rate, today, I bought equity of Sumitomo Pharma. Sumitomo Pharma will sell iPS cells medication for Parkinson's Disease soon. This medication name is "AMCHEPRY (Active ingredient: raguneprocel)" Will AMCHEPRY be able to remedy Parkinson's Disease effectively? I have to not forget to contribute the society as a pharmacist and an investor.

Today, I got my payroll. So I gave offering for my favorite church, and I bought equity of NIKE with 1,000 yen. However, I'm feeling it's insufficient. I have little cash, but I don't have intention to give up the hotel room able to see Rainbow Bridge in Odaiba. What should I do collect the cash? I'm trying to continue hedge selling. I won't return into "Hinkou（貧幸）/poverty and happy" which is said Mr. Kuramoto Sou. I'm continue to think Hinkou is contradiction of words. My father said own health is more important than money. However, to get medications, supplement and so on and go to hospitals, we also need money. Anyway, by getting more money, I intend to both make my dream come true and contribute the society. Should I invest my rest cash for equity?

For society and other people, I've assumed that I have to buy equities more. (It's also important to earn money effectively) But I also want to make my desire come true. More thinking about it, the level of hotel I stay have elevated steadily. In June, I'll go to Ueno to watch NHK 50th Sunday Exhibition, but I try to stay in Grand Nikko Tokyo Daiba.     When I was young, I thought I'm OK if I even sleep crowd together. But I've become old and my physical strength has weakened, so time I stay in the hotel has increased correspondingly. My father was more vigorous than me when we went to OSAKA Expo 2025.     I've applied to the theory, "It's more meaningful for us to use money and we should money for the best memories." So I want to stay the skyscraper of Grand Nikko Tokyo Daiba and watch the view of the sea of Daiba.     I've understood it's too luxury to developmental disorders. But I think that I stay true...

I'll go to Germany on October with my father. But sufficient money hasn't been collected yet. In my case, I have a bad habitancy, that I intend to use deposit if excess deposit remains. This habitancy also hasn't changed yet. Now, I always think what equity I should buy from my deposit despite my insufficient deposit. I've made it a habit to estimate money for German travel to fixed deposit. Anyway, always, I just want to snack on something, so I waste money for snacks and liquor. I decided to watch this video about department stores in Showa era if such time comes. In Showa era, entertainments are a far fewer than present era. But people were living hard despite high birth and death rates. Only once in a year, my mother also went to the department store in Kamogawa when she was a child but my father hadn't gone to department store when he was a child, I heard. There may be many things that I have to learn from this era. Entertainments and values of people have dive...

In Ueno, NHK Sunday Museum 50th anniversary exhibition will be held until June. The exhibition includes Okamoto Taro’s picture, so I’m very interested. To watch NHK Sunday Museum 30th Exhibition. I decided to go to it next June. I want to stay in Hotel Okura Tokyo Bay. But it’s too expensive and luxury. Has my senses of money become a bit crazy? If I choose hotels, I want to choose one which is near the station and is able to see the sea. Is it luxury? Anyway, I want to go to NHK Sunday Museum 50th Anniversary Exhibition in June. But I planned that I'll go to Germany in October, so I have to not decrease expense of Germany travel. What hotel in Tokyo should I stay?

In October, I'll go to Germany with my father. But now, I'm struggling to collect money. It's last-minute planning, that I collect money after I applied travel tour. At any rate, I've collected half money of expense. But I couldn't stop small wasting, such as eating and liquor. Should I rely on dividend of my equity, or sell gold or bitcoin? In my case, my cash is always barely. I also think for the benefit of society, but I want to broaden my vision by going to various place at first. Going Germany is one method. I become easily mad if I rely on only passion and guts, so I have to maintain my pace, in the saving money case too.

 I said, that I'll go to Germany in next October. My father wanted go with me, so I decided to take him. I'll be saved 120,000 yen because using single room will gone. I've adopted theory from DIE WITH ZERO and Horiemon/Horie Takafumi below, "We should collect own experience, not money." So, I have to make others take special experiences more. It's that I stay true in my principles. And I have to apply documents for German Travel. I have to complete them by this Thursday.

I applied for a tour-pack for German Travel in next Oct. But I've not collected sufficient money yet. It's 400,000 yen to go. It's OK if I can save 50,000 yen every month. However, my mother recommended that I should save 200,000 yen as the defense of living, not for German Travel. But I've adopted the theory by DIE WITH ZERO or Horiemon/Mr. Horie Takafumi below: "We have to collect our own experience, not money." I can't think, that it's meaningful if I save cash without purpose. Do I need 200,000 yen as saving money? Anyway, I'll ABSOLUTELY and DEFINITELY collect the rest 400,000 yens for 8 months, for German travel. I also have to broaden my vision and collect my experience.

Today, I went to Sendai branch of Kinki Nippon Tourist, and I applied German Travel. As immediate compensation, I needed 200,000 yen and paid it. I thought whoever strikes first wins, so I decided applied it today. I'll go to Rotenberg, the city of Germany. It's the model of anime, A Little Snow Fairy Sugar, which I love once. How is this town? This tour will be joined at least 3 members, including me. Anyway, this tour will be executed. I have to collect the rest money.

I went to Gogh Exhibition, and I knew, that Gogh's opus has extended by Theo, Vincent Van Gogh's little brother. And Jo, Theo's wife, and Vincent Willem, the son of Theo and Jo, also had done their best to expand Gogh's opus. Extremely, artists need their own patron, I understood. What about me? I have my favorite artist, which often draw Girls Und Panzer illustrations. Of course, it's OK for me to pay money for my requested illustrations. But what I have to do the most is that I bring out his talent, isn't it? Because both I and he love School Days. I've often requested illustrations of "the romance of Itou Makoto and Garupan Heroines" and "Hakkenshi/The Eight Dog Warriors series". But it's also for bringing out his talent, isn't it? I need to bring out the identity and individuality of his illustrations. If he were Vincent Van Gogh, I would want to become Theo. I don't know what I'm capable for yet, but I want to extend ...

I went to Tokyo to watch Gogh Exhibition in Tokyo Metropolitan Museum from Nov.12th to Nov. 13th. But was it luxury for me to stay in Grand Nikko Tokyo Daiba? This hotel was very accessible, that it's 1 minute from Yurikamome Daiba Station. And I could enjoy the taste of steak and salmon. However, I felt considerably that my physical strength has decreased. After breakfast in the hotel, I slept in hotel room for 1 hour and my checkout was about 10:00 A.M, later than usual. Horiemon/Horie Takafumi recommended, that we have to watch ourselves and maintain our physical strength. That's absolutely right. In this way, I may have no physical strength to go to Germany.

I have to collect 900,000 yens by next Aug for German travel. But yesterday too, I went to eat out. It's not good for collecting money. In Yayoi-Tei, I ate mackerel cuisine. It was very fatty and delicious. Salt was also moderate. But how will I collect 900,000 yen? There may be no choice except selling part of my assets, aren't there? I'm using NISA, so tax is waived. I may have to sell part of my mutual funds, and invest generated cash for social-lending in Alterna Bank. I have to make do with cheaper meals. I may have to make do with Instant Yakisoba Noodles. Because it needs only about 300 yen.