SPIRIT's Diary

Recently, I've spent impatient days every day. Because I don't have sufficient cash and I can't invest such as equity and social-lending whatever I want. And I'll go to Germany with my father. I don't understand how much we will use money on-site, and I can't predict how much cash will remain. So I don't know amount of money for investing, so it makes me irritated as an investor. And, in November, I'll take colonoscopy. I almost drink liquor every day, so I wonder how much mucosa of digestive tract have been harmed. I also don't know how much expense of this examination. Shouldn't I become impatient? Kaishu Katsu said, "It's meaningless if we hurry up. Waiting with lying down is our first priority." Is this saying true? Someday, my cash for investing will collect, so shouldn't I be impatient? Anyway, at first, I have to save money more. Of course, paying for PixAI is strictly inhibited. To contribute the society, I want to resta...

Yesterday, while I'm thinking about how to live in German travel, without introspection, I paid 700 yen for PixAI again.  To take back it, I collected all interest money, of fixed deposit for German Travel.  I spent for it much time, but the result is 350 yen. In Funds(https://funds.jp/), the homepage of social-lending(crowdfunding)), we can invest 1 yen at a time, so I invested this money for Funds. It's also important for me to get benefit, but will my investing money make society useful? I said, that it's likely to in December that I can restart to invest of equity. But, about Funds that we can invest 1 yen at a time, it's more useful than buying equity in Paypay Securities. I may should use Funds more.

I have always told myself, “Politics and the economy are not things I can do anything about by myself. All I can do is focus on what I am capable of doing right now.” And yet, look at the mess I have made of things this month. “I couldn’t stop myself from overspending on PixAI, nor could I control the money I wasted on overeating and excessive drinking. In the end, I even had to sell some of my stocks just to cover my credit card payments. That goes against the principles of dollar-cost averaging, and it also goes against my own belief in contributing to society through investment. I’m really disappointed in myself.” Recently, I have often been calming myself down by listening to The Song of Hakaider while carefully looking at the group illustrations I commissioned from that artist: “The Hakkenshi of the Harem Protagonists” and “The Hakkenshi of the Girls und Panzer Captains.” (I mean the versions in which each of them is showing their spirit bead.) Apparently, though, even that is not...

Yesterday, I met peers of developmental disorder. But when returning home, I wasted money again, for both paying PixAI and buying liquor. So I became very depressed. I'm always thinking, I'm thinking that can I do something about these much wasting? Honestly, animations generated by PixAI are fun. Today, it just hit me. I often go to art museums, such as Miyagi Art Museum. But it's been rare that i appreciate arts, except Okamoto Taro, Pablo Picasso's opuses and so on. I go to other arts at once after I see one art I should watch arts more closely. I'm requesting illustrations to one illustrator by paying money. To relieve my stress without paying money, I have to watch his illustrations more closely. I love Nansou Satomi Hakkenden, and made him illustrate Hakkenden-related illustrations. I have to watch more closely. To relieve my stress, I changed wallpapers of my iPhone and PC. Of cource, the wallpaper was Hakkenden-related illustrations. I'm volatile and hot...

Recently, I've continued to spend the depressed days. Because I still couldn't stop paying for PixAI, AI illustration and anime generating system, too much, and still couldn't stop drinking alcohol. In church, about this, I consulted to the foreign pastor, and he prayed for me. It's thankful I took alcohol too much, so today too, I did watery diarrhea and depressed emotion. I went to the gastroenterology, and decided to take endoscopy and colon examination in November. My colon is likely to be hurt too much by alcohol. I should have had many things that I want to do, such as  "I want to watch various things of Japan and the world" "By investing, I want to contribute the society." "I want to inform Japanese culture such as Hakkenden to foreigners." However, like Myojin Yahiko in Rurouni Kenshin, it's true, "For it, I've done nothing" "For it, I've built nothing." Now, I don't have sufficient cash to invest...

I decided to go to Kinosaki Onsen next November or January. I went to Onodera Onsen in Yamagata and very impressed to old-fashioned hot spring town. So I want to go to old fashioned hot spring town again. We can't use credit card in most of Onodera Onsen Inns, so I want to stay in a inn which I can use credit cards. Therefore, I was singled out Kinosaki Onsen, which many foreigners have paid attention to. I've not decided amount of budget for Kinosaki Onsen Travel. But I've being adjusted that I'll stay for 3 nights 4 days. I want to stay an old-fashioned inn, but are there any vacancies in Inns of Kinosaki Onsen? I have to collect save money more.

Finally, I could collect 800,000 yen, the budget for German travel. But departure tax in Japan rose into 3,000 yen, so I'm likely to need more money. My received income every month is about 196,000 yen. In other, there are dividend of equity and social-lending, and income for hedge selling, but they're indeterminate and their amounts are unstable. So I have to make ends meet from 196,000 yen. As a pharmacist and an investor, I decided to manage and contribute the society. And I want to watch various places of Japan and the world. About excess paying for PixAI, by using the website blocker, I'm likely to resolve this problem. I want to decrease paying for PixAI more, and I want to invest such as equity more instead. Once, in Japan, it occurred agenda, that we need 20 million yen for husband and wife after retirement. But I've invested such as equity, iDeco and so on. About after my retirement, I think it's leave it to heaven. If I can contribute the society and watch...

In this Tokyo travel, expense was within the budget. But what should I use the rest money? I want to become for the good of society and others, I also want money, I want to watch various places of Japan and the world and so on... Like this, I have greed too much. When I consult Chat GPT about making physical strength for German travel, It recommended me to reduce my weight into about 98kg. It seems that BMI=35 is severe obesity, so I need to lose 5-10kg. Particularly, I need to reduce taking alcohol. Such as investing more money and so on, I have many duties, but, at first, it seems that I need to lose my weight. I need to abstain to buy food and alcohol in convenience stores, and it's also meaning of saving money. I always feel sleepiness in the day and buy Tokucha, the green tea of Suntory, but I need to settle for coffee in my home instead. I have sufficient money for German travel, so I need to save more money and invest the stocks instead.

I'm continuing to hedge selling, and thinking about what is wasteful? hostess club, brothel, gamble and so on? I've not done them. But it's nothing more to say, that it's luxury both staying the hotel able to watch Rainbow Bridge and going to Germany. Mr. Kuramoto Sou said we say good-bye to wasteful. But, on other hand, Horiemon(Horie Takafumi) says he's a far more wasteful than others. Horiemon says we should collect own experience not money. I should apply to Horiemon's theory. I have to pay money for travel, not using money for hostess club, brothel gamble and so on. And I also want to go to Sapporo Snow Festival again. Of course, for it, I need money. I said, I'll apply the theory of DIE WITH ZERO and Horiemon, that we should collect own experience not money. 

Recently, my father bought a translation device of Sourcenext. So I’ve continued to take English conversations with my father by using it. However, the translation device can’t read my English very well. So I’m struggling to continue English conversation. Is my pronunciation no good? We can't improve English ability if we don't use English, but I've become depressed if I can't inform correct English to the translation device. This is one of my barriers. The other barrier is saving money. Today too, I went to convenience store and waste for Famichiki and Tokucha. And today too, I paid for PixAI, AI illustration and AI animation generating system. My impulsive personality hasn't changed yet, and I'm very troubled for defense of money and saving. I took paid leave for going Tokyo, but do I have to give up staying expensive hotel? If not the hotel, I can't watch the sea of Odaiba. My last hope is dividends of equities. I think I'll get over 30,000 yens as di...

I'll go to Germany on October with my father. But sufficient money hasn't been collected yet. In my case, I have a bad habitancy, that I intend to use deposit if excess deposit remains. This habitancy also hasn't changed yet. Now, I always think what equity I should buy from my deposit despite my insufficient deposit. I've made it a habit to estimate money for German travel to fixed deposit. Anyway, always, I just want to snack on something, so I waste money for snacks and liquor. I decided to watch this video about department stores in Showa era if such time comes. In Showa era, entertainments are a far fewer than present era. But people were living hard despite high birth and death rates. Only once in a year, my mother also went to the department store in Kamogawa when she was a child but my father hadn't gone to department store when he was a child, I heard. There may be many things that I have to learn from this era. Entertainments and values of people have dive...

In PixAI, we can generate animations with voice, including NSFW animations.  But I’ve spent money too much for it.  In this month, I've spent over 5000 yen. I said one of my strong points is action-oriented. But this personality backfired on me in this time. AI animations we can made in PixAI are useful, so I'll publish new AI animations in Youtube soon. But I'm impatient, and is it that I'm not good with money? I'll go to Tokyo in June, but should I stop staying in Hotel Grand Nikko Daiba? My habitancy that I eat too much when I have stress has never gone.  if I’m as I am, will I become bankrupt?

In New Year Holiday Season, I need money variously. And to renewal the qualification of Japan Expert-Master of Health Literacy, I needed over 7,000 yen. So, I have no sufficient money to invest. In my honest opinions, I want to invest stocks more. It's also important for me to get revenue, but I contribute Japanese society by investing at first. And I also pay the tax by it. Particularly, I want to invest IT stocks, such as NTT, SoftBank Group and so on, and activate Medical DX. Recently, my money to eat and drink and drink liquor has increased. Every morning, I'm very sleepy, and often drink Monster, the energy drink. It's OK for me if I can reduce money to eat and drink. Anyway, I have to bear to pay life expense.

Because of wasting for buying in the convenience stores and so on, my cash is likely to become gone completely soon. Perhaps, I may not be able to pay credit card payment in next month. It seems I've not changed since young age. It's important for me how to use money more than saving money. In this age and times, I've been able to go to many foreign countries, such as Thailand, Singapore and so on. But some people may think about, "It's the short-term luck of the ferocious people who can't control own." Actually, I can't deal with it if I need emergence expense. But, there is the way to resolve it, such as selling my equity. Like Ushijima, it's good if I can say, "I'm giving all with admitting the risk."

I always think I have to become thin when I watch my swollen body. So I changed the snack from Famichiki to chicken protein bar. After I decided to go to Germany, I often watch this story of Doraemon. But it's first time for me to watch Mizuta Wasabi's version. As always, it's not easy for us to save money. Can I reduce amounts of alcohol? Recently, I can't receive 9% Chu-hai 1000ml. When it's about 750ml, I always vomit. It's on account of my age, isn't it? Anyway, I want to go to Germany. I also have to think my mutual funds to cash.

I have to collect 900,000 yens by next Aug for German travel. But yesterday too, I went to eat out. It's not good for collecting money. In Yayoi-Tei, I ate mackerel cuisine. It was very fatty and delicious. Salt was also moderate. But how will I collect 900,000 yen? There may be no choice except selling part of my assets, aren't there? I'm using NISA, so tax is waived. I may have to sell part of my mutual funds, and invest generated cash for social-lending in Alterna Bank. I have to make do with cheaper meals. I may have to make do with Instant Yakisoba Noodles. Because it needs only about 300 yen.

I have a dream, that I want to watch various things in Japan and the world. But now, I'm likely to give up it. it hasn't gone well about saving money and "10 second rule", which is that I bear for 10 seconds when I have my impulse to eat and drink. I can bear for 10 seconds, but after it, I wasted money to eat and drink, such as Famichiki. And I have no methods except earning money effectively, such as making most of my assets the securities and social lending. is what I'm petulant at all the characteristic as my developmental disorder? In the short term, I have to go to Osaka and watch Osaka EXPO 2025. My father decided to accompany me, and today, we're planning to make schedule about EXPO 2025. I want to watch Italian Pavilion at first, but it's likely to crowded, so I want to Singapore Pavilion and German Pavilion instead. I'm planning enter the west gate in 1st and 3rd day, and the east gate in 2nd and 4th day. I want to watch pavilion near to ente...

Since long time, I haven't studied Financial Planner 3rd Grade while I'm too busy of doing DomoAI and PixAI. And it hasn't gone well of "my 10 seconds rule" for suspending my impulse to eat and drink liquor. I drunk liquor for 2 days. It's good experience that I learned DomoAI and PixAI. And I learned that we can make fake videos easily now. But I can't take examination of FP 3th Grade in September. More thinking, I found my personality is impulsive and instinctive. I act suddenly and easily. If my personality won't change for future, I may have to give up my dream that I watch various things in Japan and the world. Because I waste money to eat and drink and can't make money for travel. Well, I have impulsive and instinctive personality and it hasn't gone well for saving money. So I've taken most of my assets to securities and social lending, and I intend to earn money effectively. Yesterday, I received my renewal notice about my job earlie...

After I made "10 seconds rule", that I bear for 10 seconds when I have my impulse to eat and drink, I failed in the first day. After working, my craving was terrible, I paid over 3000 yens although I decided my budget to 1000 yens every day. Particularly, I bought 4 non-alcohol beer. Does it mean that my craving is such terrible? Even now, I always want to drink alcohol. I decided my budget for eating and drinking as 30,000 yens, but even it's just barely. After my parents pass away, can I make my own living? I have to reduce my money of investing because my budget for eating and drinking has increased. Even now, I become emotionally unstable easily. So I want to take alcohol. It's anti-effective. Can't I change my personality becoming emotionally unstable easily?

I have to save money seriously and reduce latte money. Today, I charged 30,000 yens to Rakuten Pay, and decided to make "10 seconds rule."     I'm impulsive and agitated, and often buy Famichiki, alcohol and so on, without thinking. Chat GPT recommended 10 seconds rule, that I wait for 10 seconds when my impulse such as wanting Famichiki, alcohol and   so on occur.     But does it go well? Even now, I'm troubled to interfering from my parents. it often makes me more stress. But I have to try it.     Dragon Sakura 2, the comic by Mita Norifusa, said, "Only one or two people in the group thinks to try it and acts. Others don't try it with making various reasons. They eventually lost their intention after hesitating." I'm the one of a few people to think to try it and act. I have to not waste this personality.