SPIRIT's Diary

Today, I got bonus payroll. But what should I use it? Should I invest stocks such as Ajinomoto more, or should I take a collection for my favorite church? Thinking about it, eventually, I decided to use 60% for investment and take a collection for my favolite church 40%. I'm living by own, but I've paid money for various thing. I've understood finally since I've lived 38 years, "What I can do is only logistical support." It's also the logistical support that I buy stocks such as Ajinomoto and that I inform my president of medical information and disease. But can I use my ability, such as pharmaceutical knowledge, English and so on, more effectively? I'm a bit troubled for communicating foreigners in my church with English. Anyway, I should use pharmaceutical knowledge and English more, and should become used them.

Since young age, my agitated and inflammable personality has never changed. I don't understand whether it's for alcohol or for my original personality. But I can't be satisfied, even if I've tried to write English tweeting, English article, make videos of my speaking English and so on. But Dragon Sakura 2 said, "It's the sin that we don't make them challenge." More thinking about it, from this personality, I've challenged to various things such as English tweeting, English writing, video compilation and so on. For it, I could improve my English ability and got 840 TOEIC score. I've understood that it's the sin that we don't challenge. I'm challenging to skip alcohol every day again. It's taken 3 days since I skipped alcohol. Until now, I couldn't understand about my doing, so I had escaped to liquor. But now, I can understand my action and my ideal lifestyle increasingly. Can't I fail again?

After deciding my quotas each one day, I've been able to understand my ideal lifestyle increasingly. I can't still accomplish my quotas sufficiently. My ideal lifestyle is, "One is, that as a super staff officer, I help my president by informing managemental stratagies and information of disease and medication. Another is, that I often travel in Japan and abroad. The other is, that I inform Japanese culture such as Hakkenden of foreigners by using this blog and X(former Twitter)." For thinking about it, it's important for me to save money more. I have to waste less than 500 yens to eat and drink. Today, after going to the dental clinic, I wasted more 500 yens. I've understood I'm still immature. At first, I have to accomplish my quotas, particularly the quota about saving money. Many protagonists in Ushijima the Loan Shark is loose to spend money. But so am I. I should be careful particularly when I become hungry. I've understood that it's happy to...

Today, I went to the hospital of alcoholic department, and saw the result of my blood examination. The result was all terms was within normal range. I was happy, but it was the fact that I had sometimes drunk liquor. I told, that the reason I had drunk liquor was I couldn't understand what I was doing. Then, the doctor said, "What is your ideal lifestyle so that you become satisfied?" I've done many things, such as working, investing, and writing English in this blog and X. But I feel it's still insufficient. But as the doctor said, what is my lifestyle so that I become satisfied? Many protagonists in Ushijima the Loan Shark are bad models. But calculating reversely from them, should I think my ideal lifestyle? For my ideal lifestyle, I need all of things, which are working, investing, using English and so on. But it may be also important for me, to "Shou Yoku Chi Soku/Reducing My Greed and Knowing Satisfaction".