SPIRIT's Diary

I have a dream, that I want to watch various things in Japan and the world. But now, I'm likely to give up it. it hasn't gone well about saving money and "10 second rule", which is that I bear for 10 seconds when I have my impulse to eat and drink. I can bear for 10 seconds, but after it, I wasted money to eat and drink, such as Famichiki. And I have no methods except earning money effectively, such as making most of my assets the securities and social lending. is what I'm petulant at all the characteristic as my developmental disorder? In the short term, I have to go to Osaka and watch Osaka EXPO 2025. My father decided to accompany me, and today, we're planning to make schedule about EXPO 2025. I want to watch Italian Pavilion at first, but it's likely to crowded, so I want to Singapore Pavilion and German Pavilion instead. I'm planning enter the west gate in 1st and 3rd day, and the east gate in 2nd and 4th day. I want to watch pavilion near to ente...

Since long time, I haven't studied Financial Planner 3rd Grade while I'm too busy of doing DomoAI and PixAI. And it hasn't gone well of "my 10 seconds rule" for suspending my impulse to eat and drink liquor. I drunk liquor for 2 days. It's good experience that I learned DomoAI and PixAI. And I learned that we can make fake videos easily now. But I can't take examination of FP 3th Grade in September. More thinking, I found my personality is impulsive and instinctive. I act suddenly and easily. If my personality won't change for future, I may have to give up my dream that I watch various things in Japan and the world. Because I waste money to eat and drink and can't make money for travel. Well, I have impulsive and instinctive personality and it hasn't gone well for saving money. So I've taken most of my assets to securities and social lending, and I intend to earn money effectively. Yesterday, I received my renewal notice about my job earlie...

I have to save money seriously and reduce latte money. Today, I charged 30,000 yens to Rakuten Pay, and decided to make "10 seconds rule."     I'm impulsive and agitated, and often buy Famichiki, alcohol and so on, without thinking. Chat GPT recommended 10 seconds rule, that I wait for 10 seconds when my impulse such as wanting Famichiki, alcohol and   so on occur.     But does it go well? Even now, I'm troubled to interfering from my parents. it often makes me more stress. But I have to try it.     Dragon Sakura 2, the comic by Mita Norifusa, said, "Only one or two people in the group thinks to try it and acts. Others don't try it with making various reasons. They eventually lost their intention after hesitating." I'm the one of a few people to think to try it and act. I have to not waste this personality.

When I was watching on TV, TV picked up about "latte money." The meaning of latte money is "small, but frequent expenses accumulating, such as subscription, eating and drinking and so on. " More thinking about it, I've almost paid money Famichiki, non-alcohol beer and so on. I want to decrease the expenses, but I can't control my emotion and impulse, so it hasn't gone well. I consulted to Chat GPT, and the answer was below. ・Remove stored cards from mobile payment apps or disable auto-charge settings. ・Create a “delay rule”: before buying Famichiki or non-alcohol beer, wait 10 minutes. Often the impulse fades. ・Walk outside for 5 minutes. And so on. But it's inconvenient for me to remove stored cards from mobile payment apps. I had decided my money goal, such as the limit amount was 15,000 yens. But it didn't go well. In this month too, I had paid for Domo AI excessively. What should I do for future? On second thoughts, should I decide limit amou...

Yesterday, in my favorite church, I ate Wanko Soba and consommé flavor crisps. I ate them too much, so my weight has increased again to 85.9kg. I have to take final spurt for the health check on Aug. 1st, but today, I ate one Famichiki. I can't still stop relieving my stress to buy and eat. And, I've drunk non-alcohol beer too much. My father said, that non-alcohol beer has also carbohydrates. Carbohydrates make me fat easily, so I should be careful more. But I can't be calm down if I don't drink non-alcohol beer. Including eating and drinking non-alcohol beer, I can't stop wasting money. Sometimes, I also pay money for PixAI. I should stop them, and use my money for investing, such as the stocks.

I've been mentally unstable and can't control my emotion. So, this has been the biggest disorder to reduce my weight and my amount of drinking alcohol. When I was working in pharmacy, the evaluate of my self-control ability was also the lowest in my abilities. Actually, twice, I bored a hole in the restroom of my workplace. It has been never changed until now. I work in the workplace which understand my disorder, and live in some high lifestyle and some own assets. But, otherwise, I couldn't control my emotion, I would have slayed others and go to jail. Was my "Oya-Gacha/Parents-lots" good...? The relation of my parents was very bad, and I'd been taken physical punishments from my mother... Anyway, I think money is the tool to improve myself and contribute the society, not evil. I need some money to maintain my present lifestyle and my assets. In previous time, I said, "Earning money itself is not evil, isn't it." Some people would say, "You...

 Anti-Vaccine People said,  "Vaccine is only the tool to get money for companies." I heard it and thought, "Is getting money itself evil?" Kanamori Sayaka in Keep Your Hands Off Eizouken said, "To have responsibility to our own tasks, we get money. Money is for assuring quality of asked job. By getting money, we have duties to assure the quality of task. Tell me, which is just, whether we get responsibility to get money or we don't get responsibility not to get money." In other saying, "By getting money, the job has responsibility first, otherwise, the job becomes loose absolutely." In previous days, I also said, "Money is neither clean nor dirty." "Investors not careful of deposit in bank very well is safer than poverty people saying 'clear and poor.'" "Rich people doesn't do mistake." If we have sufficient money, we can study sufficiently. We can reply the gift to cared supervisors sufficiently. By ...

I began to study Financial Planner 3th Grade. It's OK for me if I make my sense of money ordinary by it. But there are many difficult phrases and calculation, such as Future Value Factor, Present Worth Factor and so on. And it's also difficult to calculate by them. In this way, can I pass the examination or not? Originally, I think money is neither clean nor dirty. But  I want my money to use for my desire and contribution to society. I've recorded my revenue and expenditure in Excel. But is it insufficient to this? My emotion has been unstable, and I can't control sufficiently. Can't I stop wasting money for eating and drinking liquor? I think it doesn't relationship between qualification of FP 3th Grade and controlling of my emotion. But will it go well if I can get qualification of FP 3th Grade?

My quotas are, 1. In English studying, I should write English in this blog or X(former twitter), or make video of my English speaking for 30 seconds. 2. In work, I should make one goal each one day, and finish it within this day. 3. About alcohol, I should drink nothing or 40g most (5% beer 1000ml). 4. About wasting to eat and drink, I should spend less than 500 yen each one day. But these quotas have become a mere shell of completely, except studying English. I had drunk 9% Chu-hai again and wasted more 1,000 yens to eat and drink. But, I can no more control my emotion and my appetite, so I'll go to an obesity hospital. I said before, that I'll fail if relying on only my passion and guts. But I can't believe I've failed to accomplish my quotas only one-half month. Should I revise my quotas? If I can control my emotion and appetite, I won't need to waste money to eat and drink liquor. But, somehow, it's no use. Is it only way that I give up with good grace?

In this month, I spent too much money to eat and drink alcohol. It's no meaning that my paying become only cash for eating and drinking alcohol. Because my greed eating and drinking alcohol much hasn't been changed. So, Using Rakuten Pay can get some additional points and it's so reasonable.     Since long time, I'm troubled to deal with my greed to eat and drink alcohol much. If it won't be changed for future, what should I do?