SPIRIT's Diary

In October, I'll go to Germany with my father. But now, I'm struggling to collect money. It's last-minute planning, that I collect money after I applied travel tour. At any rate, I've collected half money of expense. But I couldn't stop small wasting, such as eating and liquor. Should I rely on dividend of my equity, or sell gold or bitcoin? In my case, my cash is always barely. I also think for the benefit of society, but I want to broaden my vision by going to various place at first. Going Germany is one method. I become easily mad if I rely on only passion and guts, so I have to maintain my pace, in the saving money case too.

Recently, I've drunk non-alcohol beer too much. If I don't do so, I can't calm down. But, on second thoughts, I've understood I'm alcoholic addiction.     The reason drinking non-alcohol beer too much is recent insufficient sleeping and taking caffeine too much too. But, originally, my mental stability is a far weaker than person without disability because I have Asperger and ADHD. So, I become mentally unstable easily.     I've wasted money for buying non-alcohol beer too much, so I thought I give up to go to EXPO 2025 once. Then, I decreased the budget of Osaka travel from 300,000 yens to 200,000 yens. I have discount coupon of JR East, the shareholder incentives, so I can also decrease the expense of Shinkansen.     But, for living by own, I want to decrease expenses to eat and drink more. It's ideal if I can relieve my stress to only generate illustrations and watch sumo.

Today, I got bonus payroll. But what should I use it? Should I invest stocks such as Ajinomoto more, or should I take a collection for my favorite church? Thinking about it, eventually, I decided to use 60% for investment and take a collection for my favolite church 40%. I'm living by own, but I've paid money for various thing. I've understood finally since I've lived 38 years, "What I can do is only logistical support." It's also the logistical support that I buy stocks such as Ajinomoto and that I inform my president of medical information and disease. But can I use my ability, such as pharmaceutical knowledge, English and so on, more effectively? I'm a bit troubled for communicating foreigners in my church with English. Anyway, I should use pharmaceutical knowledge and English more, and should become used them.