SPIRIT's Diary

I've been very depressed because I'd wasted over 30,000 yens for PixAI, AI illustration and anime generating system. Nevertheless, I've felt both regretting and new experience. To vent my anger, I cooked again today. This time is "Egg sandwiches" I added both crushed eggs and mayonnaise, so their taste was very melting and tasty. In Family Mart, I often buy egg sandwiches, but I should always cook them. In Japan too, working poverties have increased, but my family has maintained some high-level lifestyle. I don't want to waste it. My failure about PixAI has left it lay, but I have to invest my money more. I believe it's for society and other people.

For 2 days, I cooked again 2 times. Yesterday, I made the egg sandwiches. Today, I made the mayonnaise spaghetti again. I added much mayonnaise into both cuisines. The taste of mayonnaise was melting and tasty. And I could make my parents joyful. It was first time that I made the egg sandwiches. But I often buy the egg sandwiches in Family Mart, so it seems I love them. It would be good if I always cook the egg sandwiches.

Yesterday, I went to Matsushima to watch cherry blossoms. However, I had to accompany to my parents and be cooped up in my car. Moreover, my parents always quarrel. I was always anxious that they're likely to quarrel each other yesterday Therefore, I had much stress, and I ate too much in the convenience store when returning home. Today, despite secret to parents, my weight has increased to 96kg. I can't bear to be together with my parents. Anyway, I should join Overeaters Anonymous in Sendai. But where is it?

Today is rainy. To relieve my depressed emotion, I cooked again. This time is, "The Fried Rice with Brown Rice". I added bean sprouts, eggs, sausages, and ketchup into brown rice. It was very supersizes. I'm likely to eat it in both lunch and dinner because it's too many. Can my mother eat this fried rice? It's no good for me to make only spaghetti. I have to increase my repertories of my cuisine.

Today, in early morning, I cooked again. This time is  "Salmon spaghetti". I poured burned salmons and much olive oil into spaghetti. The taste was very light and best. But coloring wasn't good, was it? I love spaghetti very much. I want to extend series of spaghetti cuisine.

After going the alcoholic hospital, I went to Billy Ramen, my favorite ramen shop, and bought it with 1800 yen. But it will make my weight increase definitely. Should I go to Overeaters Anonymous in Sendai? According to the information from ChocoZAP, around needs 21 days about what new actions become habitancy. About English, I've written English in SNS and this blog much and much, such as Experimental English Outgoing. Before I knew it, I've not felt suffering, and I've often written English in SNS, in free time such as I'm in the bus. In this way, can I make exercise such as walking habitancy? Sooner or later, I'll eat Billy Ramen. On weekend, I want to buy Billy Ramen again, and go to Funaoka Castle Park for hanami. However, how should I lose my weight? I'm exact opposite personality from such as mild, great personality and so on. In some cases, I'm likely to stab others multiple times and pour kerosene to others and take a fire. Moreover, the possibiliti...

Yesterday, my father had reunion in Tokyo, so he left from my home early. So, I had more free time than usual, so I cooked more. I made  "Cheese and Butter Bread" They were like melted and tasty. And I made again, "Mayonnaise Spaghetti" I had no time to eat it completely in the morning, so after returning my home, I ate it as dinner. After going my favorite church, in Ootoya, the healthy restaurant, I ate Fried Chicken as lunch. It was also very delicious. There is various cuisine. It would be good if I can cook all of them.

Today is also work from home. So I decided to cook again to increase my vigor. This time is "The Egg-Added Yakisoba". The sauce powder was a bit spicy, so I became very perspiring. But the texture of noodle was moderate, so the cuisine wasn't bad. I've continued to drink alcohol almost day. So I have to skip alcohol today instead of cooking.

Today is also work from home. So, as lunch, I cooked again. This time is. “The pork spaghetti with mayonnaise.” Unexpectedly, pork, mayonnaise and spaghetti were matched very well. Salty of mayonnaise was also good. Texture of pork was moderate. I have to wait to eat this cuisine completely until noon. I could relieve my stress very well.

Yesterday, I went to Sendai Port and took an onsen, in Hotel Dormy Inn Sendai. In the middle time, I ate butadon again. Because eating butadon or something, my weight has returned to 93.0kg again. It's no good. Recently, I've not taken GLP-1 agonists, for losing my weight. GLP-1 taking is difficult, and I have to take it in the morning, without eating and drinking. And after taking it, I have to wait to eat and drink for 30 minutes. I often eat and drink just after awakening, so I couldn't take GLP-1 agonists effectively. It's also no good. Last Wednesday, I took three-ways interview, and my president recommended me to maintain my health. But I can't lose my weight and suspend taking alcohol. What should I do?

Today was for struggling to lose my weight. After walking for 30 minutes, I tried to go to my favorite convenience store, but stopped it. Alternatively, in YouTube, I watched an anime, "Anne in The Green Gables" by Miyazaki Hayao. On second thought, I'd been surprised to Anne's characteristics, that speaks very much and is very well for imaginative and fictional ability. In the afternoon, I wanted to eat Ramen Billy, my favorite ramen, very much when I was working in my task. I intended to order it by Uber Eats, but I stopped it just in time. Alternatively, I decided to use the expense for buying equity of Canon. It was 2000 yen. However, I've been satisfied because I can contribute the prosperity of Canon and research and development of nuclear fusion. In the evening, as substitute of Ramen Billy, I ate Cheese Bread and Chinese Dried Chicken. It was simple, but the taste of cheese was melting and salty. Once in a while, it's OK for me there is such days.

Today is also work from home. To gain my vigorarity, I cooked again in the morning. This time is, “Natto Spaghetti” The sauce was a bit spicy. But stickiness of natto was mixed to texture of spaghetti very much. Natto spaghetti is one of Japanese-style spaghetti, isn't it? Spaghetti is one of my favorite cuisines. I want to expand array of my cooking.

Today is also work from home. So, both as breakfast and dinner, I cooked twice. Breakfast was junk. I added salmon and pork. Dinner was carbonala. Cooking makes me happy. But carbonala was spicy.

I got up at 4:30 A.M. So I decided to make spaghetti salad again. Spaghetti mayonnaise salad is my favorite cuisine. I want to make it for future. Because I love salt of mayonnaise. Today, one of what I could do was  I could cook. Today, in other, what can I do?

Today is also work from home. So, I decided to cook again. Today is, "Spaghetti with pork and mayonnaise." The taste of mayonnaise and pork was mixed very much. However, I added the salt and pepper too much. This cuisine made me perspiring. Because it was also warm despite February in Japan. I've skipped alcohol for 3 days. I want to continue to cook without drinking liquor.

Yesterday, I went to Soyogi No Mori/Forest of Breeze in Ayashi, the big public bath again. Public bath was very warm and impressive. And, as lunch, I ate negitoro rice bowl and drank the large beer. Beer was crisp and refreshing, and negitoro bowl was light taste. However, I may shouldn't have drunk the liquor. But going to big public bath makes me refreshing. It's also good for me to relieve my stress by going to the public bath. Today, the cough is terrible because I may drink beer too much yesterday. I have to think about my body health more.

Yesterday, I drank liquor again. I said, that my best way to relieve my stress is cooking not drinking liquor, don't I? It's very strange and it's my dissolute lifestyle. I need to control my stress more, and I need to observe my cuisine and think the cuisines was made very well. I forgot that I made spaghetti salad again last Friday. I'll show this cuisine. I added the rest pumpkin, so it was delicious and nutritious. The texture of pumpkin was soft and flaky. I want to make spaghetti salad again and again.

On Friday, I cooked again. In this case, I made the pork and cheese sauté. The taste of cheese was very delicious. And the texture of cheese was very melting. I love cheese. Recently, liver rest days are only a handful time. It would be good for me if I can relieve my stress by cooking not drinking alcohol.

Today is work from home. So, I cooked twice. As lunch, I made spaghetti salad. It was light taste. Texture of spaghetti and chicken was very good. As dinner, I made zaru soba. I added olive oil as secret taste, so it was deep taste. By chance, there is dried soba noodles by Akiu, so I used them. I want to cook for future.