SPIRIT's Diary

I wake up at 4:00 A.M. every day, and continue to cook our breakfast. These are pictures of recent cuisines. I prefer spaghetti the most, but I can't cook it every time. So, today, I cooked pork with the soy sauce. But my father said that the texture of pork was too hard. I grilled pork too much, didn't I? I said, cooking is one of the best ways to relieve my stress. But, for my craving, I often take alcohol. How will I resolve this problem to skip alcohol?

Without taking alcohol yesterday, but I got up at 4:00 A.M. So I cooked again. This time was  "The salted pork, gyoza and broccoli." Surprisingly, pork and gyoza was matched very well. More thinking, because gyoza contains pork. And I added broccoli, so this cuisine was nutritious in this time. I want to add various vegetables which I make eat easier. Because it becomes more nutritious. I've enjoyed cooking, on other hand, I suspend wasting money for PixAI, as under 10,000 yen. It's effectively saving money. I want to invest equity more, so I have to return and collect more cash.

Today is fiercely rainy. I got up 4:00 A.M., so to resolve my depressive emotion, I cooked again  This time was, "The pork saute with soy sauce" I rarely eat pork. So I'm happy to eat pork since long time. Soy sauce made pork a bit spicy but delicious. This cuisine made my father pleased too. But my getting up time is too early, so my mother complained me in Saturday. It's fun for me to cook my own pace when around nobody But I want to continue to cook. Because I can resolve my stress by it effectively.

I got up at 3:30 A.M. So I cooked again. This time was, "The chicken nugget and mayonnaise spaghetti". Because I love mayonnaise. My father said that vegetables are insufficient, so he added many broccoli and carrots into spaghetti. It may be nutritious. Cooking is one method to relieve my stress. But, even now, I'm likely to pay money for PixAI excessively. My real dream is that I watch various things of Japan and the world. Which is my choice?

As a hobby and to relieve my stress, I continue to cook. Yesterday's breakfast was "The dipping noodles with tempura flakes and pork saute". Tddaay’s breakfast was "The sausage salad". It wasn't bad the sausage salad. But the dipping noodles with tempura flakes and pork saute was much more delicious than it. Texture of tempura flakes and pork had been mixed very well. And soup of dipping noodle was a bit deep but good. We should have added some water into the soup. I always cook spaghetti-related cuisines. But if so, I'm not very satisfied. Once in a while, I want to increase repertories of cuisine, by making such cuisines.

In this Friday, I cooked both breakfast and dinner. Breakfast was, "Mayonnaise spaghetti salad" And dinner was, "Soy-sauced pork saute". Both of them ware very delicious. The melting texture of mayonnaise was good. And the crispy texture of pork was good accent. Soy sauce added to pork was also very good. It was the best breakfast and dinner. Because of relieving my stress by cooking, I'm likely to remain a little cash. Tentatively, it's good to me to remain my cash until September For now, it's a relief that it looks like I'll be able to hold onto some cash until September.

Today too, I got up at 4:30 A.M. Ordinarlly, my father makes breakfast, but he only miso soup and mozuku. Particularly, the taste of mozuku and vinegar is terrible to me and drink it with stopping my breath. It's better for me to cook breakfast by myself. In this time, I cooked "Oyakodon" In the result, my father said soup of oyakodon was a bit strong taste. It seemed that the amount of dipping sauce was a bit much. But it wasn't very bad. The texture of chicken thighs was soft and the taste of eggs was mild. It was successful!! Rice bowl series such as oyakodon are always filling. I want to make rice bowl series more.

I got up at 4:30 A.M. So I decided to cook again. This time was, “The Sausage and Salmon” The combination of sausage and salmon may be mismatch. However, I didn’t expect, but it was very delicious! It seemed that the light taste of sausage and salmon mixed successfully. That's also interesting combination. By selling a part of my equities, I made cash for paying credit cards. But it's still insufficient. For a while, I can't spend money for eating and drinking sufficiently. However, it's also better than the past.

I got up at 4:30 A.M. So I cooked again to releive my stress. This time was "The dressed salad of fried chickens and sausage" I also added mayonnaise and broccoli. So, as always, the taste was like melting. The taste of fried chickens was good. I've continued to spend my depressed days because I had wasted money for PixAI, liquor and so on. But by cooking, I could make my stress relieve a bit. For wasting money, I'll pay money by selling equities of Canon.

I got up at 4:30 A.M. again. So I cooked again. I wanted to make yakisoba, but noodle was nothing. So I decided to cook fried vegetables. The taste was light flavor. I wanted to add pork more. But such cuisine is not bad. And I have to lose my weight. As always, I'm feeling like worn out both physically and emotionally. I want to deal with it, but I've not come up the good method. Should I continue to cook I like? I often expect too much of myself, so I should be OK when I could just finish cooking.

I'm very depressed, because yesterday too, I wasted money for PixAI and snacks too much. So to relieve this stress, I cooked again. This time was,  "Black Fried Rice with salmon". I added salmon, ketchup and mayonnaise into black rice. So it balanced both chewy texture of black rice and the taste of melting of mayonnaise I made it as breakfast, so I could make my father pleased. The filling was also sufficient. Somehow, I want to relieve my stress by cooking, reduce money for PixAI and liquor and invest more money for equities.

I've told myself much time, "About Japanese politics and economy, it's not going to happen overnight. All I can do is just what I can do." However, I've noticed that I could do nothing until now. About much money prepared for equity investing, I've wasted them to PixAI and alcohol. Now, I'm nothing and I still can become nothing. It's exactly same to Itekura Byakuya in Rurouni Kenshin Hokkaido Arc. To resolve incredibly frustrating from it, I cooked again. I made "The mayonnaise yakisoba." The taste of mayonnaise was very melting. The delicious cuisine made me vigorous once. But I have to think, "What will I do for what, as a pharmacist and an investor?" My rest cash is a few. I may have to bear and bear such as saving money and stopping buying alcohol.

In this morning, I cooked again. I had to think about nutrition of cuisines. So I made, " The Salad of sausage and broccoli". After taking photo, I added mayonnaise into broccoli. The taste was mild. But I and my father could take both protein and dietary fiber. I could reduce my weight from 103kg to 100.5kg. At this rate, I have to lose my weight. In august, I'll meet an old friend when we were pharmaceutical university students. I have to lose my weight as possible.

Recently, for about 2 months, I had been troubled to insomnia. But I got sleeping pill (Quazepam) from the psychiatry, I could sleep very well. So I got up vigorously today, I cook again. This time is. The pork saute with cheese. The taste of cheese was very melting, and made my father pleased. I like pork. It would be OK if I can expand variations of pork-related cuisine.

Today too, my parents are away from home. So I decided to make the cuisine which I don't make normally. This time was Roast Chicken And Beef Curry. But curry was a bit spicy, and fleshy of beef was very hard. I should have boiled curry more. And handle of ladle became twisted because curry sauce was very hard. But the curry was after long time was very delicious.

After long time, I cooked again. I want to bulk up and lose my weight, so I decided to make roasted chicken from chicken breasts. I referred from advice by Chat GPT.     With 160℃, for 35 minutes, I roasted chicken breasts. And finally, I added butter and olive oil. The taste was very light.     I live in Japan, so I can't make the roast chicken of a whole chicken. But It's not very bad roasted chicken from chicken breasts.

I returned from Tokyo yesterday. But, except visiting NHK Sunday Museum 50th Anniversary Exhibition, I stayed the hotel most of the time. I've completely understood that my physical strength has markedly decreased. Actually, I became tired even when I walked from Odaiba Kaihin Park Station to Daiba station. Fortunately, I could reserve Executive room in the hotel. So I went to Executive Room and became relaxed and various sweets. From the hotel room, I could watch Rainbow Bridge. Of course, I enjoyed various exhibition in NHK Sunday Museum 50th Anniversary Exhibition, such as Okamoto Taro's exhibition. However, it's likely to be difficult for me to go to Germany. For the travel, I have to lose my weight and increase my physical strength. I'll also consult to Chat GPT.

I cooked again one week ago. This time is. "Grilled chicken thigh". I added yakiniku sauce into chicken thigh and took pan-steaming. The meat was very soft and delicious. It's OK for me to make such strange cuisines in sometimes. And chickens contain much vitamin B1 and are soft.