SPIRIT's Diary

I have a dream, that I want to watch various things in Japan and the world. But now, I'm likely to give up it. it hasn't gone well about saving money and "10 second rule", which is that I bear for 10 seconds when I have my impulse to eat and drink. I can bear for 10 seconds, but after it, I wasted money to eat and drink, such as Famichiki. And I have no methods except earning money effectively, such as making most of my assets the securities and social lending. is what I'm petulant at all the characteristic as my developmental disorder? In the short term, I have to go to Osaka and watch Osaka EXPO 2025. My father decided to accompany me, and today, we're planning to make schedule about EXPO 2025. I want to watch Italian Pavilion at first, but it's likely to crowded, so I want to Singapore Pavilion and German Pavilion instead. I'm planning enter the west gate in 1st and 3rd day, and the east gate in 2nd and 4th day. I want to watch pavilion near to ente...

Since long time, I haven't studied Financial Planner 3rd Grade while I'm too busy of doing DomoAI and PixAI. And it hasn't gone well of "my 10 seconds rule" for suspending my impulse to eat and drink liquor. I drunk liquor for 2 days. It's good experience that I learned DomoAI and PixAI. And I learned that we can make fake videos easily now. But I can't take examination of FP 3th Grade in September. More thinking, I found my personality is impulsive and instinctive. I act suddenly and easily. If my personality won't change for future, I may have to give up my dream that I watch various things in Japan and the world. Because I waste money to eat and drink and can't make money for travel. Well, I have impulsive and instinctive personality and it hasn't gone well for saving money. So I've taken most of my assets to securities and social lending, and I intend to earn money effectively. Yesterday, I received my renewal notice about my job earlie...

After I made "10 seconds rule", that I bear for 10 seconds when I have my impulse to eat and drink, I failed in the first day. After working, my craving was terrible, I paid over 3000 yens although I decided my budget to 1000 yens every day. Particularly, I bought 4 non-alcohol beer. Does it mean that my craving is such terrible? Even now, I always want to drink alcohol. I decided my budget for eating and drinking as 30,000 yens, but even it's just barely. After my parents pass away, can I make my own living? I have to reduce my money of investing because my budget for eating and drinking has increased. Even now, I become emotionally unstable easily. So I want to take alcohol. It's anti-effective. Can't I change my personality becoming emotionally unstable easily?

I have to save money seriously and reduce latte money. Today, I charged 30,000 yens to Rakuten Pay, and decided to make "10 seconds rule."     I'm impulsive and agitated, and often buy Famichiki, alcohol and so on, without thinking. Chat GPT recommended 10 seconds rule, that I wait for 10 seconds when my impulse such as wanting Famichiki, alcohol and   so on occur.     But does it go well? Even now, I'm troubled to interfering from my parents. it often makes me more stress. But I have to try it.     Dragon Sakura 2, the comic by Mita Norifusa, said, "Only one or two people in the group thinks to try it and acts. Others don't try it with making various reasons. They eventually lost their intention after hesitating." I'm the one of a few people to think to try it and act. I have to not waste this personality.

When I was watching on TV, TV picked up about "latte money." The meaning of latte money is "small, but frequent expenses accumulating, such as subscription, eating and drinking and so on. " More thinking about it, I've almost paid money Famichiki, non-alcohol beer and so on. I want to decrease the expenses, but I can't control my emotion and impulse, so it hasn't gone well. I consulted to Chat GPT, and the answer was below. ・Remove stored cards from mobile payment apps or disable auto-charge settings. ・Create a “delay rule”: before buying Famichiki or non-alcohol beer, wait 10 minutes. Often the impulse fades. ・Walk outside for 5 minutes. And so on. But it's inconvenient for me to remove stored cards from mobile payment apps. I had decided my money goal, such as the limit amount was 15,000 yens. But it didn't go well. In this month too, I had paid for Domo AI excessively. What should I do for future? On second thoughts, should I decide limit amou...

Yesterday, in my favorite church, I ate Wanko Soba and consommé flavor crisps. I ate them too much, so my weight has increased again to 85.9kg. I have to take final spurt for the health check on Aug. 1st, but today, I ate one Famichiki. I can't still stop relieving my stress to buy and eat. And, I've drunk non-alcohol beer too much. My father said, that non-alcohol beer has also carbohydrates. Carbohydrates make me fat easily, so I should be careful more. But I can't be calm down if I don't drink non-alcohol beer. Including eating and drinking non-alcohol beer, I can't stop wasting money. Sometimes, I also pay money for PixAI. I should stop them, and use my money for investing, such as the stocks.

I've been mentally unstable and can't control my emotion. So, this has been the biggest disorder to reduce my weight and my amount of drinking alcohol. When I was working in pharmacy, the evaluate of my self-control ability was also the lowest in my abilities. Actually, twice, I bored a hole in the restroom of my workplace. It has been never changed until now. I work in the workplace which understand my disorder, and live in some high lifestyle and some own assets. But, otherwise, I couldn't control my emotion, I would have slayed others and go to jail. Was my "Oya-Gacha/Parents-lots" good...? The relation of my parents was very bad, and I'd been taken physical punishments from my mother... Anyway, I think money is the tool to improve myself and contribute the society, not evil. I need some money to maintain my present lifestyle and my assets. In previous time, I said, "Earning money itself is not evil, isn't it." Some people would say, "You...

I began to study Financial Planner 3th Grade. It's OK for me if I make my sense of money ordinary by it. But there are many difficult phrases and calculation, such as Future Value Factor, Present Worth Factor and so on. And it's also difficult to calculate by them. In this way, can I pass the examination or not? Originally, I think money is neither clean nor dirty. But  I want my money to use for my desire and contribution to society. I've recorded my revenue and expenditure in Excel. But is it insufficient to this? My emotion has been unstable, and I can't control sufficiently. Can't I stop wasting money for eating and drinking liquor? I think it doesn't relationship between qualification of FP 3th Grade and controlling of my emotion. But will it go well if I can get qualification of FP 3th Grade?

My quotas are, 1. In English studying, I should write English in this blog or X(former twitter), or make video of my English speaking for 30 seconds. 2. In work, I should make one goal each one day, and finish it within this day. 3. About alcohol, I should drink nothing or 40g most (5% beer 1000ml). 4. About wasting to eat and drink, I should spend less than 500 yen each one day. But these quotas have become a mere shell of completely, except studying English. I had drunk 9% Chu-hai again and wasted more 1,000 yens to eat and drink. But, I can no more control my emotion and my appetite, so I'll go to an obesity hospital. I said before, that I'll fail if relying on only my passion and guts. But I can't believe I've failed to accomplish my quotas only one-half month. Should I revise my quotas? If I can control my emotion and appetite, I won't need to waste money to eat and drink liquor. But, somehow, it's no use. Is it only way that I give up with good grace?

After deciding my quotas each one day, I've been able to understand my ideal lifestyle increasingly. I can't still accomplish my quotas sufficiently. My ideal lifestyle is, "One is, that as a super staff officer, I help my president by informing managemental stratagies and information of disease and medication. Another is, that I often travel in Japan and abroad. The other is, that I inform Japanese culture such as Hakkenden of foreigners by using this blog and X(former Twitter)." For thinking about it, it's important for me to save money more. I have to waste less than 500 yens to eat and drink. Today, after going to the dental clinic, I wasted more 500 yens. I've understood I'm still immature. At first, I have to accomplish my quotas, particularly the quota about saving money. Many protagonists in Ushijima the Loan Shark is loose to spend money. But so am I. I should be careful particularly when I become hungry. I've understood that it's happy to...

Today is the first day after I decided quotas in various field. About English studying, within the morning, I made the video of my speaking English, and accomplished the quota. About work...the goal may be wildest, so I couldn't my goal today. And it's doubtful that information I used is accurate. It needs more time to finish my goal. About alcohol, I succeeded in skipping alcohol today. But I should have drunken Regtect, the alcohol restraint, after every meals. About wasting money to drink and eat, this quota is very difficult, I spent over 500 yen, my budget each day. It needed 432 yen of only Tokucha and Famichiki. I compiled the result, Success: studying English and skipping alcohol Failure: Accompilshing the goal at work and spending money less than 500 yen. Particularly, it's difficult to surpress wasting money. I want caffeine when I become sleepy, so I have to increase sleeping time. There is one Dragon Sakura's quote, "Only one or two people in groups in...

In this month, I spent too much money to eat and drink alcohol. It's no meaning that my paying become only cash for eating and drinking alcohol. Because my greed eating and drinking alcohol much hasn't been changed. So, Using Rakuten Pay can get some additional points and it's so reasonable.     Since long time, I'm troubled to deal with my greed to eat and drink alcohol much. If it won't be changed for future, what should I do?