SPIRIT's Diary

I got up at 3:30 A.M. So I cooked again. In this time, I made yakisoba. The sauce of yakisoba was delicious. But the texture of yakisoba was a bit soft. It was not suitable to me. However, the sliced pork became the good accent. I love pork meat, so I enjoyed the taste of pork. For future, I want to continue to cook. It's the best way to relieve my stress.

Yesterday, I went to "Soyogi No Mori/Forest's Breeze" in Ayashi, again. In my church, the pastor introduced Jesus Christ's saying, "You are the salt in the earth. But What will it become if the salt loses the salty." I thought about "my salty" when I was taking the bath in Soyogi No Mori. Because my strength is only English. In my church, English teaching workshop will be likely to held. My pastor recommended me to join it as the assistant. But can I make time for it? My governance for learning English is only below, "To learn English, we have to write and speak English more and more, such as in SNS and so on." But will students follow me? With thinking about it, after I took the bath, I ate the crepe. It was sweet and delicious. Yesterday was very cold, but I made fun memories.

Yesterday, I went to Sendai Citizen Library, and read various magazine, such as "Kinyuu Journal（日本語：金融ジャーナル）/Financial Journal". In various magazines, I caught my eye this phrase, "People doing effort speak own hope, and lazy people speak own complaint (By Inoue Yasushi)". I have to speak my hope, not my complaint, if I want to success. So, I confirmed my hope. My hope is,  "In my company, I want to become a brain for my president" And "I want to go to various place in Japan and the world, and broaden my vision and speak English more." In my favorite church, I often speak English with foreigners. But I think it's insufficient to it. The opportunities to speak English will increase if I go abroad. So I want to go abroad more. In lunch, in Yayoi-Tei, I ate Japanese Hamburg steak. It was a bit spicy, but delicious. And multigrain rice was very healthy. I want to success as a traveler, so I have to speak my hope more.

Today, I worked from home again. So, as lunch, I made gyoza and macaroni salad. As always, the texture of macaroni and the taste of mayonnaise mixed very much. And gyoza made me vigor. However, a few minutes before I finished today's task, my craving to liquor had increased very much. I took cyanamide, the inhibitor of alcohol metabolism, so my body responses if I drink liquor. Today too, I can spend this day without liquor, so I've been likely to skip drinking alcohol for 5 days. How days can I continue to skip alcohol?

I got up at 5:30 A.M, and cooked again. Today was  "Sliced Pork". Today has also my task, so my effort was a bit light. The taste was light. Recently, I could relieve my stress very much by cooking. So I've skipped drinking alcohol for 4 days. Can I continue this action and condition?

Yesterday, as dinner, I cooked again. I made fried rice from black rice.     The texture of black rice was stiff, and the taste of scrambled eggs was mild, and they mixed very much. It was good that I also made fried rice in sometimes.     It's OK for me if I can cook instead of drinking liquor. But I can't do very much.

Today, I cooked again. I made macaroni salad with mayonnaise again. I love mayonnaise.     Mayonnaise is salty and mild taste. It attracts to me. And macaroni was soft. Soft texture of macaroni and taste of mayonnaise mixed very well.     I want to make macaroni salad more.

I've continued to cook. Yesterday and today, I cooked for 2 days. Yesterday's cuisine was macaroni salad. Today's cuisine was pork sauté. The taste of macaroni salad was rich with mayonnaise, so I tried the taste of pork sauté light. I added a bit salt, the taste of pork sauté could be light. It's very successful! Yesterday, I drunk liquor to relieve my stress. But instead of it, it's the best for me if I can relieve my stress by cooking.

Today is work from home. So, for gaining my power, I cooked again for lunch. This time is "Cheese Yakisoba". When I tasted, it was very melting and delicious. Cheese and yakisoba match more than I expected. In this way, it would be good if I can lose my weight, without eating snacks. The best way to relieve my stress is eating and cooking.

Yesterday, I cooked again. In this time, I added 2 types of spaghetti and sliced pork. The taste of bolognese and butter mixed very much. It was a bit hot, but it was very delicious. My personality is, "Easily upset", and "I have auditory hypersensitivity and my nerves become tensioned with even small noise." So, I can't suspend my strong waves of emotion. Therefore, it's good for me to relieve my stress more time, such as cooking.

Today, I went to Hatsumoude/the first shrine visit, in New Year. With my father, I went to it, but my father was more vigorous than me. I’ve become very tired now. Recently, my mental instability and addiction to alcohol become even mortal condition now. So, for recovery of my mental health and expanding Hakkenden to foreigners, I prayed in the shrine. Is it OK for me, the Protestant Christian, to pray in the Japanese Shrine? However, the vision from the shrine was very beautiful. Recently, I'm wondering what I want to do. It's OK for me to contribute my company with English knowledge and Chat GPT. It's OK for me to inform Hakkenden of foreigners with English. But my mental health has become dangerous, such as alcohol addiction and so on. I've kept in mind to take Regtect, the inhibitor of alcohol, three times a day. And, also, I've been tired of accompanying my parents in year-end and new year holidays. It would be OK for me to make my own time, without drinking al...

Today is my last working day in this year. To gain my energy and relieve my stress, I cooked again. In this time, I made spaghetti bolognese in my tactics. My father recommended I should add many vegetables, so I added broccoli and maitake mushroom. Will these become the special accent of chewy? I decided to eat this in today's lunch? What is the taste?

Yesterday, as lunch, I made spaghetti cuisine again. I added cheese and pork to spaghetti. Unexpectedly, it was very delicious. The stuff of melting cheese and spaghetti was matched very  well. But I also took pepper too much, so I was very perspiring. Recently, I've changed my thinking about my health. I want to expand Hakkenden to foreigners, but I can't do it only short time. So I have to live a bit more, and make time for it more despite having hypertension and obesity. However, I'm hard-Passionist and have my stress easily. I have to relieve my stress effectively, but not by eating and drinking liquor. It's the best for cooking to relieve my stress, more than eating and liquor. I want to cook more.(Of course, I have to inform information about Hakkenden.)

I woke up at 4:30 A.M. So to resolve boring, I made scrambled eggs. Color of ketchup and eggs were good. It was very colorful. And the taste of ketchup and scrambled eggs was matched very well. Like cooking, it's very good if I find hobbies not using money. But sleeping feeling always makes me irritated and have stress. I have to cook more, don't I?

Today morning, it's very snowy. So that I make my body hot, I made cap cai, the Indonesian cuisine. It's very hot, but glass noodles is stiffy, the good meaning. I've become very perspiring, but I'll take bath again. Cooking is the best way to relieve my stress. But it would be also OK if I could stop drinking liquor.

After long time, I cooked the cuisine. Today, I got up 3:00 A.M. and cooked cheese penne and cheese pork. Mayonnaise has become gone, so I add cheese to penne salad instead. Cheese was melty. After making cuisines, I've become very sleepy and slept deeply. After it, I made animations by Domo AI. But I found we can also explicit videos by ever Domo AI. How far should we, the human being, be permitted to step into?

My weight has never decreased recently, and I've maintained my weight 90kg. I want to eat Billy Ramen on this weekend, so I've tried to lose my weight. On next Sunday, there is my uncle's 77th birthday, and will hold its party in Chiba. But I can't attend party on account of my choir of my church. At least, I want to buy my favorite Baum-kuchen and send to my uncle. When my parents leave their home for my uncle's party, I intend to eat my favorite ramen. But can my cash become left? I also restarted hedge selling to get more money. Can it become effective?

I went to Tokyo to watch Gogh Exhibition in Tokyo Metropolitan Museum from Nov.12th to Nov. 13th. But was it luxury for me to stay in Grand Nikko Tokyo Daiba? This hotel was very accessible, that it's 1 minute from Yurikamome Daiba Station. And I could enjoy the taste of steak and salmon. However, I felt considerably that my physical strength has decreased. After breakfast in the hotel, I slept in hotel room for 1 hour and my checkout was about 10:00 A.M, later than usual. Horiemon/Horie Takafumi recommended, that we have to watch ourselves and maintain our physical strength. That's absolutely right. In this way, I may have no physical strength to go to Germany.

I have to collect 900,000 yens by next Aug for German travel. But yesterday too, I went to eat out. It's not good for collecting money. In Yayoi-Tei, I ate mackerel cuisine. It was very fatty and delicious. Salt was also moderate. But how will I collect 900,000 yen? There may be no choice except selling part of my assets, aren't there? I'm using NISA, so tax is waived. I may have to sell part of my mutual funds, and invest generated cash for social-lending in Alterna Bank. I have to make do with cheaper meals. I may have to make do with Instant Yakisoba Noodles. Because it needs only about 300 yen.

Today, I cooked again. I made egg sandwiches. My father praised me that the color of sandwiches was good. I often eat egg sandwiches from Family Mart. But it may be better for me to make them by own. I added mayonnaise to sandwiches, so the taste was smooth. These smooth tastes fitted to me very well. But I used 4 eggs, so it may be too many.