SPIRIT's Diary

It's been about 1 month since I felt chest pain on Oct. 11th. My mother said, "You took caffeine too much, so chest pain occurred." I went to sleeping hospital about this case and Sleeping Apnea Syndrome. My doctor said, "The reason that you felt chest pain was unknown. But you should drink cold water when you feel chest pain. It may be occurred by GLP-1 agonist. But please monitor your chest feeling." By nitroglycerin, it'd not recovered my chest pain, so I didn't get nitroglycerin. But is it better if I got it? The doctor also said, "It's better for you to lose your weight and continue to take CPAP, to reduce your chest pain." Recently, my nausea is terrible and my appetite has decreased. Today too, I ate a little dinner and drunk no liquor. Is it OK for me to go with the flow? My weight is 89.2kg now? For future, how much can I reduce?

Today, I went to the psychiatry and took counseling. I informed the counselor of my chest pain on Oct. 11th. The counselor said, "It was OK for you to find the reason of your chest pain. With continuing, you should monitor your chest with skipping GLP-1 agonist." I became a bit relaxed to hear his saying. The counselor also said,  "Your present task is very difficult, but inversely, you can intend to resolve such difficult task. With deciding the deadline, it's important for you to take the task with your pace." After hearing his saying, I became a bit more relaxed. In conclusion, it's important for me to take my task with my pace. I have to collect more information of my task. With skipping GLP-1 agonist, I can be likely to extend my lifeline, so I have to think more how to spend my rest lifeline. In short term, I want to go to Gogh Museum in Ueno.

I went to obesity clinic, and informed that I felt fierce chest pain on Oct. 11th. I also took X-ray and electric cardiography. But both results were normal. I had neither angina pectoris nor myocardial infarction. The doctor said that I should monitor chest pain for future. I'd been prepared for my early death for heart disease, but it seemed I was hasty. However, I have to think about both "until now" and "from now", for future. I've been happy enough because I could do almost doing and go to various places, including Singapore, Hong Kong and so on. Because of the wall of fact, many things didn't go well for me, such as the pharmacist in the pharmacy. My life has been not bad, but I can make my life better more effort I do. In short term, I'll go to Ueno and watch Gogh Exhibition in Tokyo Metropolitan Museum. It's important for me to make good life. I don't want to become like King Soga in Fire Bird Yamato Edition by Tezuka Osamu.

I felt chest pain for 20 minutes when I met the peers of developmental handicapped yesterday. I felt also right jaw pain about 3 minutes. I had been anxious to it, so I went to hospital today.     I took many examinations, such as X-ray, blood test, ECHO and electro cardiography. But all result is normal. I've thought I have angina pectoris. From electrocardiography, my heart didn't occur myocardial infarction. However, the doctor said there aren't no possibilities that I have angina pectoris. But, in bigger hospital, I should take examination, the doctor said.     By the prescription, I bought nitroglycerin making the cardiovascular extending. I took nitroglycerin in the pharmacy because I had a bit chest pain, and felt my heart cooler.     When I took the lunch, I had felt "the shadow of my death" at first, because I'm likely to have the heart disease. I thought, "For what, have I lived until now?" I've th...