SPIRIT's Diary

It hasn't gone well for me about "10 second rule", which is that I bear when it occurs my impulse to eat and drink. But For 2 days, I've skipped alcohol. Over and over, I've understood my weakest point is self-control ability. When I think more, my supervisor pointed out me that my self-control ability is weak and I become easily irritated when I was a pharmacist in the pharmacy. I couldn't overcome it, I've become distraught when the pharmacy was crowded, and had to quit from the pharmacy. Until now, this weak point has never changed, or it seems it has become worse. I couldn't be patient to eat and drink. It's that my personality is ferocious, isn't it? From next month, my payroll will raise and I'll get about 190,000 yens every month. But the value in Japan is also raising. Can I bear even if most of my assets are securities and social-lending. I can't control my impulse, like Dr. Jekyll. When my parents passed away, what should I do...

When I was watching on TV, TV picked up about "latte money." The meaning of latte money is "small, but frequent expenses accumulating, such as subscription, eating and drinking and so on. " More thinking about it, I've almost paid money Famichiki, non-alcohol beer and so on. I want to decrease the expenses, but I can't control my emotion and impulse, so it hasn't gone well. I consulted to Chat GPT, and the answer was below. ・Remove stored cards from mobile payment apps or disable auto-charge settings. ・Create a “delay rule”: before buying Famichiki or non-alcohol beer, wait 10 minutes. Often the impulse fades. ・Walk outside for 5 minutes. And so on. But it's inconvenient for me to remove stored cards from mobile payment apps. I had decided my money goal, such as the limit amount was 15,000 yens. But it didn't go well. In this month too, I had paid for Domo AI excessively. What should I do for future? On second thoughts, should I decide limit amou...

Recently, I've sometimes drunk liquor. As I said before, I can't suspend my strong impulse. For the same reasons, I sometime drink liquor. It's the best for me to drink no liquor. But I can't suspend desire to joy, so I drink liquor. Are Domo AI, PixAI and so on not sufficient methods to relieve my stress completely? For myself, I don't know. I'm easily perspiring, so, for it too, it makes stress. At least, I want hot days to finish earlier.

I talked about it in the conference of developmental disorders, but I can't control my impulse very well. Such as paying for DomoAI, PixAI, and so on, eating and drinking, I can't control my such impulse. In this point, I'm very similar to Dr. Jekyll, which prefers pleasure more than usual while he's a noble doctor in public. I n my case, it's not gone well for me to save money on account of my such impulse, so I concluded, that it's better for me to earn money effectively more than saving money.     I can't suspend them if my voltage of my impulse or anger will increase more than usual. Even now, I'm likely to become mad and assault to my parents when I become angry. It would be OK if I can separate my impulse personality into one person, like Dr. Jekyll, but it's impossible. So, I have no way except earning money effectively such as investing. In this way, I've become taking pride in "the investor".     How w...

I saw this Youtube of Ryou-Gakucho（両学長）/President Ryou, and thought much.     I've understood that we can't succeed if we take no risk. Mr. Bill Gates and Mr. Mark Zuckerberg also said. "The biggest risk is not taking any risk. "     I've understood repeatedly, "Myself is a risk." I can still control neither my emotion nor impulse of my appetite. Today too, because of weekend, I made spaghetti salad and ate. I should have taken Calorie-Mate to lose my weight.     If losing stability of my emotion, immediately, I would make my fangs to others and society. One peer of developmental disorders said to me, "You should have lived in deep of mountains or no manned island." Her saying may be right. By the way, in Edo period, there is a punish "Entou （遠島） ", which is banished to a distant island, such as Hachijo Island.     However, it's bad for me to become a criminal. By eating favorite foods m...