SPIRIT's Diary

Today, I worked from home again. So, as lunch, I made gyoza and macaroni salad. As always, the texture of macaroni and the taste of mayonnaise mixed very much. And gyoza made me vigor. However, a few minutes before I finished today's task, my craving to liquor had increased very much. I took cyanamide, the inhibitor of alcohol metabolism, so my body responses if I drink liquor. Today too, I can spend this day without liquor, so I've been likely to skip drinking alcohol for 5 days. How days can I continue to skip alcohol?

I got up at 5:30 A.M, and cooked again. Today was  "Sliced Pork". Today has also my task, so my effort was a bit light. The taste was light. Recently, I could relieve my stress very much by cooking. So I've skipped drinking alcohol for 4 days. Can I continue this action and condition?

After going to my church, I went to Sunpia No Yu, the big public bath again. I have to walk for 15 minutes from Rokuchonome Station of Tozai Subway Line, but it was good exercise. Just after I arrived Sunpia No Yu, I went to the restaurant in the facility, and ate tonkatsu. I chose a large portion of rice, so I ate too much, But it was very delicious. I took bath only 30 minutes, but salty-sauna was very good. Applying salt into my skin was very pain, but I became perspiring better. After taking baths, I became relax with watching TV for 3 hours. It's the best way to relieve my stress. Yesterday, I drink liquor too much, so I took cyanamide, the inhibitor of alcohol metabolism today. So today, I couldn't drink liquor in this facility. But it was good for it. It's also OK that I go to the big public bath to relieve my stress instead of drinking liquor.

Today, I went to Hatsumoude/the first shrine visit, in New Year. With my father, I went to it, but my father was more vigorous than me. I’ve become very tired now. Recently, my mental instability and addiction to alcohol become even mortal condition now. So, for recovery of my mental health and expanding Hakkenden to foreigners, I prayed in the shrine. Is it OK for me, the Protestant Christian, to pray in the Japanese Shrine? However, the vision from the shrine was very beautiful. Recently, I'm wondering what I want to do. It's OK for me to contribute my company with English knowledge and Chat GPT. It's OK for me to inform Hakkenden of foreigners with English. But my mental health has become dangerous, such as alcohol addiction and so on. I've kept in mind to take Regtect, the inhibitor of alcohol, three times a day. And, also, I've been tired of accompanying my parents in year-end and new year holidays. It would be OK for me to make my own time, without drinking al...

Recently, I can't drink except little liquor. I easily vomit when I drink 9% Chu-hai. So, I don't like it, but I can't drink except beer. Has my body changed because of aging? For maintaining my physical ability, I'm trying to decrease my weight, such as taking Alli and so on. For it, I could reduce my weight to 89.8kg. Would it be better if I don't drink liquor? I've finally understood that physical ability is the most important for travel, because I'd become tired easily when I went to OSAKA EXPO 2025 and Tokyo. But can I reduce my weight easily?

I always think I have to become thin when I watch my swollen body. So I changed the snack from Famichiki to chicken protein bar. After I decided to go to Germany, I often watch this story of Doraemon. But it's first time for me to watch Mizuta Wasabi's version. As always, it's not easy for us to save money. Can I reduce amounts of alcohol? Recently, I can't receive 9% Chu-hai 1000ml. When it's about 750ml, I always vomit. It's on account of my age, isn't it? Anyway, I want to go to Germany. I also have to think my mutual funds to cash.

This is a recent record of drinking alcohol. Recently, I had drunk Shochu much, but honestly, I had drunk Shochu forcibly. Recently, my taste has changed. So I can't drink except tea, juice, drink and Chu-hai. I'm not allowed to drink caffeine from my parents, but I also often drink tea now. When I take tea or take GLP-1 agonist, I feel chest pains after a few hours. As I've thought, is my heart worse? My father told, that I'll become fat if I take sugar too much. But I can only drink juice, Chu-hai and so on. What should I do?

My recent record drinking liquor is below: My father recommended me that I should make 3 non-drinking alcohol days a week. I've complied it, but I drunk much liquor when I decided to drink liquor. In 2ch thread, there is people occurring myocardial infarction on account of drinking too much liquor. I should be more careful because I almost drink much more liquor. Recently, I've felt been aware of my death time, because I had felt chest pain for 20 minutes and I had drunk too much liquor. Or, God was likely to stroke and weaken my heart because I had often said, that I'm likely to kill someone if my stress increased by losing weight. (Just in case, I'm a Protestant.) It seems that I'll die before I kill someone. I'm continuing to think about how I live my rest life. I want to go to Europe, but when and how will I go to it?

Yesterday, I went to Sunpia Sendai, the super hot spring. But in this place, I drunk Japanese sake too much. It was very sweet, and I became drunken easily. But today, my sore throat is terrible. Perhaps, much alcohol hurt my throat. My father warned that I shouldn't become throat cancer. But I often drink alcohol too much. Not yet, I need cyanamide, the inhibitor of metabolism of alcohol.

Yesterday, I skipped taking alcohol and bear with non-alcoholic beer. So I could sleep very well, so I've become relaxed since this morning. But, in other hand, my father didn't look vigorous. So we skipped walking in the morning. Because it's also too hot. I'm contributing to make text of pharmaceutical English conversation in my job now. My president accepted my idea and published English texts I made in my company. It's very good if it will continue and our pharmacy will be able to take in more inbounds. Foreigners in Japan is increasing and will become a lion share.

Yesterday, there is a festival of 24 Hour TV in Kotodai Park. So I went to Kotodai Park, and drunk beer too much. I drew a blank in the night of yesterday and I vomited three times in today's morning. I can't forget the fluffy feeling when I drink the liquor. It's no good, so I took cyanamide, the inhibitor of alcohol metabolism. I have to take good care of my brain more. It's strange to say this, the brain of bilingual is activating more than monolingual. I can speak English to some extent, so I have to take good care of my brain.

Since long time, I haven't studied Financial Planner 3rd Grade while I'm too busy of doing DomoAI and PixAI. And it hasn't gone well of "my 10 seconds rule" for suspending my impulse to eat and drink liquor. I drunk liquor for 2 days. It's good experience that I learned DomoAI and PixAI. And I learned that we can make fake videos easily now. But I can't take examination of FP 3th Grade in September. More thinking, I found my personality is impulsive and instinctive. I act suddenly and easily. If my personality won't change for future, I may have to give up my dream that I watch various things in Japan and the world. Because I waste money to eat and drink and can't make money for travel. Well, I have impulsive and instinctive personality and it hasn't gone well for saving money. So I've taken most of my assets to securities and social lending, and I intend to earn money effectively. Yesterday, I received my renewal notice about my job earlie...

Recently, I've sometimes drunk liquor. As I said before, I can't suspend my strong impulse. For the same reasons, I sometime drink liquor. It's the best for me to drink no liquor. But I can't suspend desire to joy, so I drink liquor. Are Domo AI, PixAI and so on not sufficient methods to relieve my stress completely? For myself, I don't know. I'm easily perspiring, so, for it too, it makes stress. At least, I want hot days to finish earlier.

Recently, I've drunk non-alcohol beer too much. If I don't do so, I can't calm down. But, on second thoughts, I've understood I'm alcoholic addiction.     The reason drinking non-alcohol beer too much is recent insufficient sleeping and taking caffeine too much too. But, originally, my mental stability is a far weaker than person without disability because I have Asperger and ADHD. So, I become mentally unstable easily.     I've wasted money for buying non-alcohol beer too much, so I thought I give up to go to EXPO 2025 once. Then, I decreased the budget of Osaka travel from 300,000 yens to 200,000 yens. I have discount coupon of JR East, the shareholder incentives, so I can also decrease the expense of Shinkansen.     But, for living by own, I want to decrease expenses to eat and drink more. It's ideal if I can relieve my stress to only generate illustrations and watch sumo.

It's been 6th day since health check. I've maintained my weight less than 86kg. It's OK. But it's insufficient for me to stop CPAP remedy, the remedy of Sleep Apnea Syndrome. As always, my parents have ordered I lose my weight repeatedly.     My mother recommended me to teach how to lose my weight from 91kg to less than 86kg. But it's for Alli, the inhibitor of absorption of fat. And it's the fact I had walked for 30 minutes in every morning. I couldn't come up with the methods to lose weight except them.     More thinking, I've drunk non-alcohol beer instead of alcohol. Alcohol makes my weight increase. It's the other method to lose my weight.     To relieve my stress, instead of eating and drinking, I've made the methods to generate illustrations and anime by AI, watching sumo and so on. They may made my weight decrease.     Today too, I generated an animation by Domo AI. This is, that Itou Makoto...

As always, I hadn't let go the sake cup in the past years, and after taking cyanamide, the inhibitor of metabolism of alcohol, I haven't let go non-alcohol beer. I've not understood what I want to do. As a pharmacist, I want to increase foreign customers, and as a hobbyist, I want to inform foreigners of Japanese culture such as Hakkenden, Kanjin Sumo and so on. About sumo, I'm studying Raiden Tameemon（日本語：雷電為右衛門）, the strongest sumo wrestler in Japanese sumo history, having more than 90% wins and only 10 times lost in his entire sumo life. Chat GPT answered about Raiden correctly when I questioned Chat GPT about Raiden. Like this way, I've written English diary almost each day, so I may praise myself about it. At this way, it may be OK for me to introduce Hakkenden, sumo and so on. I have to increase my self-esteem. I've made animations by PixAI.

Yesterday, after the health check of our company, I've let loose very much. After working, I drunk red wine very much, and today morning, I vomited. It may made my parents worried. From today, I have to fix lifestyle. I always take cyanamide, the inhibitor of metabolism of alcohol, but I forgot to take it yesterday. So, I may let loose. I ate favorite ramen and hamburgers of McDonald, so my weight has increased again. After today, I have to decrease amounts of meals. I think it's cool if Anchovy in Garupan is drinking red wine.

In previous day of health check, I drunk alcohol. But, today, my weight is 85.9kg, under 86.2kg. I accomplished my goal, so I have to congratulate myself. The reason I drunk alcohol: 1. In my task, I'm writing the report making our company employees improve English ability, but I have strong anxiety that only I'm plowing ahead. 2. Recently, I got up earlier than 4:00 A.M. so I'm lack of sleep. 3. Because of lack of sleep, I drunk caffeine too much, so I become worried more. I slept until 4:30 A.M. today, so I'm hardly anxious as expected. I have to sleep more, at least 6 hours. I should have generate illustrations by PixAI or watch sumo in Youtube, rather than drinking alcohol. I generated an animation in PixAI.

I've drunk cyanamide, the inhibitor of metabolism of alcohol, since long time. So I can't receive alcohol. Therefore, I've been drinking non-alcoholic beer since 7 days ago. But it's too much.     Without alcohol, non-alcoholic beer makes me joyful. But I can't become happy if I don't drink over 1000ml non-alcoholic beer. Yesterday, I drunk 1350ml non-alcoholic beer. It was a bit much.     My weight has become 85.7kg, so next goal is that I take no alcohol and decrease amount of non-alcoholic beer under 1000ml. Without beer, doesn't generating illustration by PixAI make me sufficiently joyful?     As usual, I often generate illustrations by PixAI. In this case, the illustrations are that Nishizumi Maho is drinking beer in the observation deck of skyscraper in the night.

Recently, I drink only non-alcohol beer. Just by it, I can become drunk. But, somehow, the taste of non-alcohol beer is light. Instead of alcohol, the way to relieve my stress is that I generate illustrations of boxing by PixAI. Boxing of Garupan Captain Group is very cool. I've become interested in Rocky, so I've also become interested in boxing. Should I borrow videos of Rocky Series?