SPIRIT's Diary

Yesterday, after my work, I took liquor again. And I couldn't get up comfortably. The reason I run away to drink liquor may be that I can't believe myself. I've wasted my money to buy liquor. Today is sunny, I want to go out, but I have to save money. When I go out, I spend more money. I should believe myself. After I've read English reference and written English in this blog and X(the former Twitter), it feels naturally for me to write it. But most of the Japanese, it may be magnificent to it. I have to empower my strong point more than empowering my weak point. I've understood that it's useful for me to be able to read and write English. Recently, in Nihon TV, Sumikko Gurashi's anime begun. It may be for me to watch it and make me relaxed while studying English.

I wanted a bit stimulation, so I drunk liquor again yesterday. I had skipped drinking liquor over 30 days. After drinking alcohol, I couldn't do anything and slept after taking a bath. I had wasted my time too much. The reason I want to drink liquor may be that my president adviced me about my job and I felt more responsibility of my job. Anyway, from today, I have to skip drinking alcohol. I can spend my time without drinking alcohol more effectively than with drinking alcohol. And I've spent money too much to buy liquor. I have to save money more. Sometimes, I can't understand about what I'm doing,but my most important mission is that I do what I can do steadily. Particularly, it's important for me to skip drinking alcohol, to save money and time.

Today, I went to the alcoholic hospital. I've skipped drinking alcohol since one month, so I was praised from my doctor about this, and my doctor said, "You may enter the good-cycle." But I can't prospect when I will drink alcohol again.     However, my right eye has a cataract despite soon received surgeon my left eye. I was thinking that I couldn't read the word of PC display with my right eye, the doctor said the vision of my left eye decreased less than 0.6. He said you also need the surgeon of cataract about my right eye. But I'm straying when I'll receive the surgion. Because, in June, I'll go to, Tokyo and Tateyama, the related-place of Kyokutei Bakin and Hakkenden.     What should I do?