SPIRIT's Diary

I've written, that my physical strength, guts and mental stability have weakened much more than when I was 20s. I've felt nostalgic, when I was desperate to work a pharmacist of the pharmacy and go to travel. And I also consulted Chat GPT how to rebuilding them. Recently, I become very tired, only even when walking for 8,000 steps and exercising in ChocoZAP. After them, I always take a nap for 30 minutes. About my mental stability, I have to do meditation occasionally, don't I? Recently, my father has learned that we can do English conversation in Chat GPT, and he recommend me to do it. I've registered Chat GPT app in my iPhone, I've done it immediately. Of course, It's the best for me to talk with real foreigners with English. But it's also better as exercise to use English. There are various ways to use Chat GPT effectively. But my method is, that I incorporate about pharmaceutical information and that I talk English with Chat GPT. For this way, I'll b...

It hasn't gone well for me about "10 second rule", which is that I bear when it occurs my impulse to eat and drink. But For 2 days, I've skipped alcohol. Over and over, I've understood my weakest point is self-control ability. When I think more, my supervisor pointed out me that my self-control ability is weak and I become easily irritated when I was a pharmacist in the pharmacy. I couldn't overcome it, I've become distraught when the pharmacy was crowded, and had to quit from the pharmacy. Until now, this weak point has never changed, or it seems it has become worse. I couldn't be patient to eat and drink. It's that my personality is ferocious, isn't it? From next month, my payroll will raise and I'll get about 190,000 yens every month. But the value in Japan is also raising. Can I bear even if most of my assets are securities and social-lending. I can't control my impulse, like Dr. Jekyll. When my parents passed away, what should I do...

Since long time, I haven't studied Financial Planner 3rd Grade while I'm too busy of doing DomoAI and PixAI. And it hasn't gone well of "my 10 seconds rule" for suspending my impulse to eat and drink liquor. I drunk liquor for 2 days. It's good experience that I learned DomoAI and PixAI. And I learned that we can make fake videos easily now. But I can't take examination of FP 3th Grade in September. More thinking, I found my personality is impulsive and instinctive. I act suddenly and easily. If my personality won't change for future, I may have to give up my dream that I watch various things in Japan and the world. Because I waste money to eat and drink and can't make money for travel. Well, I have impulsive and instinctive personality and it hasn't gone well for saving money. So I've taken most of my assets to securities and social lending, and I intend to earn money effectively. Yesterday, I received my renewal notice about my job earlie...

I talked about it in the conference of developmental disorders, but I can't control my impulse very well. Such as paying for DomoAI, PixAI, and so on, eating and drinking, I can't control my such impulse. In this point, I'm very similar to Dr. Jekyll, which prefers pleasure more than usual while he's a noble doctor in public. I n my case, it's not gone well for me to save money on account of my such impulse, so I concluded, that it's better for me to earn money effectively more than saving money.     I can't suspend them if my voltage of my impulse or anger will increase more than usual. Even now, I'm likely to become mad and assault to my parents when I become angry. It would be OK if I can separate my impulse personality into one person, like Dr. Jekyll, but it's impossible. So, I have no way except earning money effectively such as investing. In this way, I've become taking pride in "the investor".     How w...

It may be characteristic of developmental disorder, so I feel beautiful if the color of blue and red stands in a row. To become used to use Image Ganerator, I continue to use it with adding blue and red. I generated illustrations as "Ichijou Raku as Inuyama Dosetsu and Nishi Kinuyo as Inuyama Dosetsu". And “Itou Makoto as Inuzuka Shino and Nishizumi Miho as Inuzuka Shino”. Based on these two picture, I added "red flame and flame tiger" to Inuyama Dosetsu's team , and added "blue water and water dragon" to Inuzuka Shino's team. More thinking about it, Ichijou Raku and Nishi Kinuyo is "the tiger" , and Itou Makoto and Nishizumi Miho is "the dragon" . The tiger and the dragon. Hmm...

I've been mentally unstable and can't control my emotion. So, this has been the biggest disorder to reduce my weight and my amount of drinking alcohol. When I was working in pharmacy, the evaluate of my self-control ability was also the lowest in my abilities. Actually, twice, I bored a hole in the restroom of my workplace. It has been never changed until now. I work in the workplace which understand my disorder, and live in some high lifestyle and some own assets. But, otherwise, I couldn't control my emotion, I would have slayed others and go to jail. Was my "Oya-Gacha/Parents-lots" good...? The relation of my parents was very bad, and I'd been taken physical punishments from my mother... Anyway, I think money is the tool to improve myself and contribute the society, not evil. I need some money to maintain my present lifestyle and my assets. In previous time, I said, "Earning money itself is not evil, isn't it." Some people would say, "You...

Tomorrow will be the three-way interview. But, I couldn't accomplish my goal that I reduce my BMI less than 30.0. Without becoming inflammable and mad, I'm continuing to deal with my task calmly. But I'm a bit frustrated because my suggestion that we should put down English in our pharmacies more doesn't adopt. In fact, it's OK for me to only continue to work calmly. My president said the operating profit of our company has increased more than she expected for 2 years. Therefore, my bonus payroll in this year was more than last years. But until when will it continue? Amazon Pharmacy has advanced in Japan and is there the possibility that prescriptions in our pharmacies will be devoured to Amazon? Someone said we should be careful for the service after customers come in more than the service before they come in. But I'm not good to care meticulous service after customers enter. More customers before entering our pharmacies should increase by ourselves. By the way...

In the morning, I've been lost in thought about my future and skipped walking. Nevertheless, I made spaghetti as breakfast.     In previous time, I said supervisors rushing desperately is the past because strict hierarchy in workplace has collapsed by globalization and IT-zation. I have desperate personality but short-tempered, so I'm not suitable to a supervisor. But then, what should I do? Is it the best for me to just get by somehow by while not to lose your temper or get violent with people? It's waste of talent if I can't find any place able to use the qualification of pharmacist and TOEIC 840 score even if I have them. How is my future in my present workplace? Soon, I'll take three-way interview, but if the worst case, is there possibility that I'll be fired from my president?     Anyway, it's no way except continuing to invest and use English, about me. I want to get qualification of Financial Planner 3th Grade.

My weight has become over 92 kg. By own, I can't control all of my weight, appetite and emotion, so I decided to consult obesity clinic.     On second thoughts, I'm a developmental disorder and my emotion is unstable by all means. In this case, I've continued to my career as a pharmacist and an investor.       Dragon sakura 2 said, "To make good peers, we should go to Tokyo University." But about my peer of developmental disorders, "Without working, he's stayed at home." "Except working in Pre-employment transition centers B type, he always goes to game centers and restaurant." "He had been a hikikomori since long periods, but he's gone to an Employment Support Center recently." And most of them are very fat. Thinking about it, I've been desperate and lived like a chariot horse. Instead, I can't control both my emotion and my appetite, and I'm easily agitated and inflammable.    ...

I also had forgotten that Dragon Ball Series on-aired in Fuji TV. So I can watch them in FOD, the subscription. In my free time, I often watch Dragon Ball Super and Dragon Ball GT. In Dragon Ball Super, The Baseball Story and Goku's Saying, "Work, not do such foolish doing!" makes me laugh. I think, that the end of Dragon Ball GT is far better than original work and Z. It's the end, that Goku and so on liquidated their desire coming true by Dragon Ball in final and Goku became the god with Shenron. To the return my main topic,  I'm straying how much I should write English in this blog. In X(former Twitter) tweeting, recently, I'm uncomfortable if I don't write English but Japanese. Is it the final phase of habituation of English tweeting? There's one quote in Dragon Sakura 2, "Study like brushing your teeth. Feel uncomfortable if you don't study." In writing my blog, it's also the best, if I feel uncomfortable if I don't write Eng...