SPIRIT's Diary

My weight hasn't decrease sufficiently. So, I remembered I had drunk much water when I tried to lose my weight and 20s years old. I tried to take more water to lose my weight. For my mother's recommendation, I took 1.5L water for some divided. But it became feels bad, and increased the times going to bathroom. In this way, can I become thin? "At first, let's try it." I decided to continue to drink 1.5L water every day for 1 months. Despite taking Parmodia, anti-triglyceride medication, I couldn't lose my weight.

In Japan, there is one medication named Alli, which reduce metabolism and absorption of fat. The medication is categorized as BTC(Behind The Counter), because we can't buy without permission of pharmacists. In Japan, before we buy Alli, we need to record our own weight, waist circumference and percent body fat for 30 days. I want Alli to lose my weight, so I've recorded them for 5 days. But it's very troubling to record them. I have to continue the records for 30 days to get Alli. In Japan, Alli is almost dealt in Nihon Chouzai. Many stores of Nihon Chouzai are located in the center of Sendai city. They're very accessible, but anyway, I have to continue the record of my weight, and so on.

As scheduled, I went to the obesity hospital. But the doctor said, "My main remedy is alimentary therapy, and medication is supporting part." I inform him that I could lose my weight by using Parmodia, the anti- triglyceride medication. then, the doctor said, "Anyway, I can't prescript any medications unless I see your blood tests. Please reserve the blood test day." So, I reserved the blood test in next Thursday. But I was downhearted. Is it difficult for me to lose my weight unless my unstable personality as the developmental disorder change? And I went to Ootoya, the restaurant, and ate tha nanban chicken. I felt it was fatty but delicious. Soon, I'll take the three-ways interview. I have to apologize to my president that I couldn't lose my BMI less than 30.0. I want to take Alli, the anti-obesity drug, but for it, I have to record the lifestyle for 1 month from today. Is it that all is over?

My weight has become over 92 kg. By own, I can't control all of my weight, appetite and emotion, so I decided to consult obesity clinic.     On second thoughts, I'm a developmental disorder and my emotion is unstable by all means. In this case, I've continued to my career as a pharmacist and an investor.       Dragon sakura 2 said, "To make good peers, we should go to Tokyo University." But about my peer of developmental disorders, "Without working, he's stayed at home." "Except working in Pre-employment transition centers B type, he always goes to game centers and restaurant." "He had been a hikikomori since long periods, but he's gone to an Employment Support Center recently." And most of them are very fat. Thinking about it, I've been desperate and lived like a chariot horse. Instead, I can't control both my emotion and my appetite, and I'm easily agitated and inflammable.    ...

About both my weight and drinking alcohol, I've become that the wheel comes full circle. My weight has come back to more than 90kg, and I had taken 9% Chu-hai and often vomited. On Second thoughts, is it impossible for me to decrease my weight? Eating is the best effective method to relieve my stress. About alcohol, I found many Abilify to be taken as needed, so I decide to take it instead drinking alcohol. Actually, I become relaxed if taking Abilify to be taken as needed. If Abilify to be taken as needed become none, I think again in this time.

As always, I'm irritated every day, and increase amount to blew some money and junk food. Ome principal reason is "I have atopic disease and my whole body becomes itchy easily, because this season is hay fever and very warm." I've taken the cream of Nivea, but it's still insufficient. Another reason making me irritated is, "The falling down value of stock by Trump's tariffs", But it can't be helped, and what I can do is only that I buy the stock falling down. Other reason is, "My right view has decreased on account of a cataract. " Soon, I'll take diagnosis of ophthalmology. But these reasons has made me irritated, increase the amounts to blew some money and eat, and increase my weight again. I don't care my weight very well, but my president pleased me to make BMI decrease under 30.0. Calculating into weight, it's 86.2kg. On weekends, I'll go to Funaoka Castle Park and take blossom viewing. In that time, I'll bring ...

My weight has increased again, to 87.8kg. Perhaps, because I may skip taking metformin last night.     By the way, the amount of parmodia, prescribed from obesity hospital, has decreased recently. More thinking, after taking both metformin and parmodia twice a day, my weight has remarkably decreased, from 90.6kg to 85.9kg.     But, recently, I had eaten my favorite ramen too much. Soon, both parmodia and metformin tablet will become gone. In that time, what should I do?     In February, my president hoped me to decrease my weight less BMI 30. Calculating into weight, I have to decrease my weight to 86.2kg. Anyway, I have to take both metformin and parmodia until they become gone, to lose my weight.

Perhaps, on Account of eating Famichiki too much, my weight has increased to 87.4kg again.     But I bought two Mega Muffin in Mcdonalds because I ate   too low amount in breakfast.     Oftentimes, I see that my appetite is too strong. But appetite is one of the strongest greed in humans' greeds.     It would be OK if carories of Mega Muffin had been low. After finishing my today's task, I recorded my weight. The result is 86.8kg. Are carories of Mega Muffin low?

My weight has decreased to about 87.2kg. But after taking Bilanor, the anti-allergic medication, the amount of decreasing has descended. My father recommended that I stop taking Bilanor.   But if I don't take Bilanor, all of my skin will become itchy. On Tuesday, I'll go to the allergic hospital. I want my skin to become comfortable.   My goal of my weight is 86.2kg. But today, I became careless, so I've taken two sandwiches, Famichiki, Monster, the energy drink. Tomorrow, will my weight increase again?