SPIRIT's Diary

It's been 6th day since health check. I've maintained my weight less than 86kg. It's OK. But it's insufficient for me to stop CPAP remedy, the remedy of Sleep Apnea Syndrome. As always, my parents have ordered I lose my weight repeatedly.     My mother recommended me to teach how to lose my weight from 91kg to less than 86kg. But it's for Alli, the inhibitor of absorption of fat. And it's the fact I had walked for 30 minutes in every morning. I couldn't come up with the methods to lose weight except them.     More thinking, I've drunk non-alcohol beer instead of alcohol. Alcohol makes my weight increase. It's the other method to lose my weight.     To relieve my stress, instead of eating and drinking, I've made the methods to generate illustrations and anime by AI, watching sumo and so on. They may made my weight decrease.     Today too, I generated an animation by Domo AI. This is, that Itou Makoto...

My father has become interested in this channel of Youtube below. Similar to me, alcoholic people's living has been described detailly. More thinking, I've not been careful of my health and my blood test. My score of ALT, Triglyceride and so on is high. I've not been careful of my health for future, and I've thought it's OK for me if I can enjoy now and here. I've not been able to stop alcohol because I can't find my way to relieve my stress. Recently, I've tried to relieve my stress to generate illustrations by PixAI, to watch sumo in NHK World in Youtube and so on. In this way, I can listen live commentary of sumo in English. Repeatedly, my parents have said that my health is the most important. I've become 38 years old, so I may have to be careful of my health more. At first, I have to stop eating my snack, and relieve my stress by only generating illustrations and watching sumo.

In previous day of health check, I drunk alcohol. But, today, my weight is 85.9kg, under 86.2kg. I accomplished my goal, so I have to congratulate myself. The reason I drunk alcohol: 1. In my task, I'm writing the report making our company employees improve English ability, but I have strong anxiety that only I'm plowing ahead. 2. Recently, I got up earlier than 4:00 A.M. so I'm lack of sleep. 3. Because of lack of sleep, I drunk caffeine too much, so I become worried more. I slept until 4:30 A.M. today, so I'm hardly anxious as expected. I have to sleep more, at least 6 hours. I should have generate illustrations by PixAI or watch sumo in Youtube, rather than drinking alcohol. I generated an animation in PixAI.

Yesterday, in my favorite church, I ate Wanko Soba and consommé flavor crisps. I ate them too much, so my weight has increased again to 85.9kg. I have to take final spurt for the health check on Aug. 1st, but today, I ate one Famichiki. I can't still stop relieving my stress to buy and eat. And, I've drunk non-alcohol beer too much. My father said, that non-alcohol beer has also carbohydrates. Carbohydrates make me fat easily, so I should be careful more. But I can't be calm down if I don't drink non-alcohol beer. Including eating and drinking non-alcohol beer, I can't stop wasting money. Sometimes, I also pay money for PixAI. I should stop them, and use my money for investing, such as the stocks.

Yesterday, in dinner, I ate most of tofu. So, my weight has decreased again to 86.1kg. I accomplished my goal that I lose my weight less than 86.2kg. However, Alli, the medication of inhibitor of fat absorption, is likely to become a few. I have some time to Aug.1st, so I have to buy Alli more. My weight could decrease about 5kg for one month. It's my best record until now. The reason may be for decreasing taking fat, including replacing Famichiki to chicken fillet bar, and for taking Alli. Instead of eating and drinking, the method to relieve my stress is that I generate illustrations by PixAI. Today too, I generated illustration such as Darjeeling is dancing with Japanese clothes. Can I maintain my weight under 86.2kg by Aug.1st. Today too, I ate one Famichiki.

I drunk non-alcohol beer too much, so my weight has increased again from 85.8kg to 86.6kg. But I'm just one more step to reduce my weight to 86.2kg. With this thinking, in this morning, I bought one Famichiki and one fish burger and ate them in Family Mart. Will my weight increase more? Today is very hot and today temperature has reached 34℃. I'm easily perspiring and want more water. I'm heard that about 2000ml water needs to lose weight from Chat GPT. Information from Chat GPT is almost accurate, so I need more water. If I succeed to lose my weight under 86.2kg on Aug. 1st, I'll go to Billy Ramen, my favorite ramen shop, and buy the ramen to go. Of course, I'll eat the ramen a bit and a bit. I have both hypertension and high triglyceride. Can I reduce the times to go to the hospitals?

My goal is that I'll maintain my weight less than 86.2kg by Aug. 1st. So I went to ChocoZAP with wearing Y-shirt and suit pants when I was returning from my office. As I thought, I'm a bit troubled to exercise because I felt uncomfortable to Y-shirt and suit pants. But I could do weight training to improve muscle of chest and back. I've had ambition to get the physique like Sylvester Stallone. So, about PixAI too, I made PixAI generate illustration of boxing. These are illustrations that Kay in Garupan is doing boxing. But, lunch in today, I ate too much. Will my weight increase again?

Yesterday, my weight has become 85.5kg. Tentatively, I accomplished my goal, For forward, whether I'll maintain my weight under 86.2kg.     Actually, I've hated to sweat because I have atopic disease. But, in fact, I've gone to ChocoZAP and done weight training more time, and I've changed the snack from Famichiki to Sasami protein bar. Why ？     Perhaps, because I've made my goal that I make my weight less than 86.2kg. And because I may have made my hobby of doing PixAI, instead of eating and drinking. I could lose my weight 4kg for 3 weeks, so I could find joy of getting my shape.     However, the amount wasting my money has not changed. I've still continued to eat and drink when I'm a bit hungry, and wasted for PixAI too much. Can I change them?     Anyway, I have to accomplish my goal that I reduce my weight less than 86.2 kg by Aug.1, the day of health check of my company. At next, I have to reduce the...

Yesterday, I went to ChocoZAP before long time and took weight trainings. So, my weight has become 85.9kg today.     I'm happy, and I understood that I'm strong in a favorable circumstance and weak in adversity.     Recently, I watched this video in Youtube.   After it, I think whether I can become the physique like Silvester Stallone in Rocky era. I understand it's difficult to it. I may be walking on air because I could lose my weight for about 4 kg, for 3 weeks. I've thought I'll go to ChocoZAP more aggressively. Before it, I have to maintain my weight under 86.2kg until Aug. 1st, the health check of my company.

Yesterday, I ate one egg sandwich, one tuna sandwich and one Pizza Potato as snacks. As a result, my weight has increased again, from 86.3kg to 86.5kg. They're take breaks, I thought. Including this case, I sometimes haven't understood what I'm doing. As opposition to my belief, I sold equities of Kao, the white company. I want this cash to spend to go to Osaka EXPO 2025. Because it's said seeing is believing. But more thinking, I've lost my weight about 4 kg, for 3 weeks. It may be for Alli, but I've changed to eat Famichiki into sasami fillet bar as a snack, to reduce calorie. It's strange for me to say so, I may be a hard-worker, and I may be able to do it if I make my goal obviously. To relieve my stress, I found PixAI instead of eating and drinking. But, recently, I can't come up with ideas of illustrations. Tentatively, I make PixAI generate Garupan Captain Groups with Jedi costumes. It's no choice but thinking, that adversity makes me stronger...

My weight has become 88.0kg, decreasing from 88.5kg. I haven't thought until now, that my weight has decreased such thing by stopping taking Famichiki. It seems, that I had taken many calories such as taking Famichiki so I hadn't lost my weight very well. I'll take three-ways interview in September, so I want to reduce my weight to 86.2kg until that day.     I said, that Making PixAI generate illustrations can relieve my stress more than eating and drinking. I'm amazed of effect of AI illustration generating system. But I couldn't stop taking alcohol very well, and I drunk 1500ml 5% beer with no carbohydrate yesterday. If I hadn't done so, my weight would become a far less.     As always, I can't make PixAI generate Illustrations, except Garupan Captain Groups' Kamehameha and Garupan Captain Group with Saint Cloth.

My weight in today was under 89kg. Today, I skipped taking lunch, so I was always hungry when I was taking my task. In this moment, I was always thinking, about how to take protein instead of Famichiki. Protein chocolate is very sweet and a bit unfittable to my taste. I need 1.        Protein is cheaper than Famichiki, 240 yen. 2.        Protein is few fats. 3.        Protein has much protein. It may be first time for me to intend to reduce my weight. But, recently, to make PixAI generate illustrations can resolve my stress more than eating and drinking. Now may be the chance. Of course, I don't think I want to become like Mr. Nakayama Kinnikun, nor I want to attract females. (My sexual preference is straight.) But my president said, that she wants me to reduce my BMI less than 30.0. My amount of muscle is about 60kg. It's the best, if I can reduce my weight without reducing my muscle. With t...

I started to use Alli, the medication to reduce absorption of fat, but my weight had never decreased. Because I can't stop wasting money to eat. So I was very depressed yesterday night, and I took dinner a little, and I went to Chocozap with my mother.     In ChocoZAP, I always took anaerobic exercise to improve my muscle. For it, today, my weight has decresed to 89.5kg.     I was a bit happy, so I cooked the crab spaghetti salad. The taste of mayonnaise was very delicious!

My weight never reduces. So I decided to buy Alli, the medication reducing absorption of fat. After buying Alli, I took one capsule of Alli before I took my favorite ramen yesterday. As a result, my weight has decreased by 0.1kg, not increase. The result was to some extent. Nothing occurs if I don't nothing. The side effect may be nasty, but I had to do it. The side effect often occurs 24-72 hours after we take Alli. How will be it?

My weight hasn't decrease sufficiently. So, I remembered I had drunk much water when I tried to lose my weight and 20s years old. I tried to take more water to lose my weight. For my mother's recommendation, I took 1.5L water for some divided. But it became feels bad, and increased the times going to bathroom. In this way, can I become thin? "At first, let's try it." I decided to continue to drink 1.5L water every day for 1 months. Despite taking Parmodia, anti-triglyceride medication, I couldn't lose my weight.

In Japan, there is one medication named Alli, which reduce metabolism and absorption of fat. The medication is categorized as BTC(Behind The Counter), because we can't buy without permission of pharmacists. In Japan, before we buy Alli, we need to record our own weight, waist circumference and percent body fat for 30 days. I want Alli to lose my weight, so I've recorded them for 5 days. But it's very troubling to record them. I have to continue the records for 30 days to get Alli. In Japan, Alli is almost dealt in Nihon Chouzai. Many stores of Nihon Chouzai are located in the center of Sendai city. They're very accessible, but anyway, I have to continue the record of my weight, and so on.

As scheduled, I went to the obesity hospital. But the doctor said, "My main remedy is alimentary therapy, and medication is supporting part." I inform him that I could lose my weight by using Parmodia, the anti- triglyceride medication. then, the doctor said, "Anyway, I can't prescript any medications unless I see your blood tests. Please reserve the blood test day." So, I reserved the blood test in next Thursday. But I was downhearted. Is it difficult for me to lose my weight unless my unstable personality as the developmental disorder change? And I went to Ootoya, the restaurant, and ate tha nanban chicken. I felt it was fatty but delicious. Soon, I'll take the three-ways interview. I have to apologize to my president that I couldn't lose my BMI less than 30.0. I want to take Alli, the anti-obesity drug, but for it, I have to record the lifestyle for 1 month from today. Is it that all is over?

My weight has become over 92 kg. By own, I can't control all of my weight, appetite and emotion, so I decided to consult obesity clinic.     On second thoughts, I'm a developmental disorder and my emotion is unstable by all means. In this case, I've continued to my career as a pharmacist and an investor.       Dragon sakura 2 said, "To make good peers, we should go to Tokyo University." But about my peer of developmental disorders, "Without working, he's stayed at home." "Except working in Pre-employment transition centers B type, he always goes to game centers and restaurant." "He had been a hikikomori since long periods, but he's gone to an Employment Support Center recently." And most of them are very fat. Thinking about it, I've been desperate and lived like a chariot horse. Instead, I can't control both my emotion and my appetite, and I'm easily agitated and inflammable.    ...

About both my weight and drinking alcohol, I've become that the wheel comes full circle. My weight has come back to more than 90kg, and I had taken 9% Chu-hai and often vomited. On Second thoughts, is it impossible for me to decrease my weight? Eating is the best effective method to relieve my stress. About alcohol, I found many Abilify to be taken as needed, so I decide to take it instead drinking alcohol. Actually, I become relaxed if taking Abilify to be taken as needed. If Abilify to be taken as needed become none, I think again in this time.

As always, I'm irritated every day, and increase amount to blew some money and junk food. Ome principal reason is "I have atopic disease and my whole body becomes itchy easily, because this season is hay fever and very warm." I've taken the cream of Nivea, but it's still insufficient. Another reason making me irritated is, "The falling down value of stock by Trump's tariffs", But it can't be helped, and what I can do is only that I buy the stock falling down. Other reason is, "My right view has decreased on account of a cataract. " Soon, I'll take diagnosis of ophthalmology. But these reasons has made me irritated, increase the amounts to blew some money and eat, and increase my weight again. I don't care my weight very well, but my president pleased me to make BMI decrease under 30.0. Calculating into weight, it's 86.2kg. On weekends, I'll go to Funaoka Castle Park and take blossom viewing. In that time, I'll bring ...