SPIRIT's Diary

My father has become interested in this channel of Youtube below. Similar to me, alcoholic people's living has been described detailly. More thinking, I've not been careful of my health and my blood test. My score of ALT, Triglyceride and so on is high. I've not been careful of my health for future, and I've thought it's OK for me if I can enjoy now and here. I've not been able to stop alcohol because I can't find my way to relieve my stress. Recently, I've tried to relieve my stress to generate illustrations by PixAI, to watch sumo in NHK World in Youtube and so on. In this way, I can listen live commentary of sumo in English. Repeatedly, my parents have said that my health is the most important. I've become 38 years old, so I may have to be careful of my health more. At first, I have to stop eating my snack, and relieve my stress by only generating illustrations and watching sumo.

I've drunk cyanamide, the inhibitor of metabolism of alcohol, since long time. So I can't receive alcohol. Therefore, I've been drinking non-alcoholic beer since 7 days ago. But it's too much.     Without alcohol, non-alcoholic beer makes me joyful. But I can't become happy if I don't drink over 1000ml non-alcoholic beer. Yesterday, I drunk 1350ml non-alcoholic beer. It was a bit much.     My weight has become 85.7kg, so next goal is that I take no alcohol and decrease amount of non-alcoholic beer under 1000ml. Without beer, doesn't generating illustration by PixAI make me sufficiently joyful?     As usual, I often generate illustrations by PixAI. In this case, the illustrations are that Nishizumi Maho is drinking beer in the observation deck of skyscraper in the night.

I drunk non-alcohol beer too much, so my weight has increased again from 85.8kg to 86.6kg. But I'm just one more step to reduce my weight to 86.2kg. With this thinking, in this morning, I bought one Famichiki and one fish burger and ate them in Family Mart. Will my weight increase more? Today is very hot and today temperature has reached 34℃. I'm easily perspiring and want more water. I'm heard that about 2000ml water needs to lose weight from Chat GPT. Information from Chat GPT is almost accurate, so I need more water. If I succeed to lose my weight under 86.2kg on Aug. 1st, I'll go to Billy Ramen, my favorite ramen shop, and buy the ramen to go. Of course, I'll eat the ramen a bit and a bit. I have both hypertension and high triglyceride. Can I reduce the times to go to the hospitals?

Yesterday, I went to ChocoZAP before long time and took weight trainings. So, my weight has become 85.9kg today.     I'm happy, and I understood that I'm strong in a favorable circumstance and weak in adversity.     Recently, I watched this video in Youtube.   After it, I think whether I can become the physique like Silvester Stallone in Rocky era. I understand it's difficult to it. I may be walking on air because I could lose my weight for about 4 kg, for 3 weeks. I've thought I'll go to ChocoZAP more aggressively. Before it, I have to maintain my weight under 86.2kg until Aug. 1st, the health check of my company.

I got paid leave for some days after cataract surgery. So, I'm staying at home, and continuing to study Financial Planner 3th Grade and English. With getting advice from Chat GPT, I'm searching how to lose my weight and pass Financial Planner 3th Grade. As usual, Chat GPT is very useful and teach advices to users' concern. For some days after the cataract surgery, I can't exercise such as walking, ChocoZAP and so on. In this case, I have to generate the method to lose my weight without amounts of meals. It's very effective, that I've changed to eat snacks from Famichiki to the chicken fillet protein bar. So I could reduce calories very much. From advice of Chat GPT, I have to lose my weight 0.53kg for a week and burn more than 250-400kcal every day. But Can I do so? If I can lose my weight without deduct my amount of muscle, can I become physique like Kinnikuman?

My weight hasn't decrease sufficiently. So, I remembered I had drunk much water when I tried to lose my weight and 20s years old. I tried to take more water to lose my weight. For my mother's recommendation, I took 1.5L water for some divided. But it became feels bad, and increased the times going to bathroom. In this way, can I become thin? "At first, let's try it." I decided to continue to drink 1.5L water every day for 1 months. Despite taking Parmodia, anti-triglyceride medication, I couldn't lose my weight.

My weight has increased again, to 87.8kg. Perhaps, because I may skip taking metformin last night.     By the way, the amount of parmodia, prescribed from obesity hospital, has decreased recently. More thinking, after taking both metformin and parmodia twice a day, my weight has remarkably decreased, from 90.6kg to 85.9kg.     But, recently, I had eaten my favorite ramen too much. Soon, both parmodia and metformin tablet will become gone. In that time, what should I do?     In February, my president hoped me to decrease my weight less BMI 30. Calculating into weight, I have to decrease my weight to 86.2kg. Anyway, I have to take both metformin and parmodia until they become gone, to lose my weight.

Today, I went to the alcoholic hospital. I've skipped drinking alcohol since one month, so I was praised from my doctor about this, and my doctor said, "You may enter the good-cycle." But I can't prospect when I will drink alcohol again.     However, my right eye has a cataract despite soon received surgeon my left eye. I was thinking that I couldn't read the word of PC display with my right eye, the doctor said the vision of my left eye decreased less than 0.6. He said you also need the surgeon of cataract about my right eye. But I'm straying when I'll receive the surgion. Because, in June, I'll go to, Tokyo and Tateyama, the related-place of Kyokutei Bakin and Hakkenden.     What should I do?