SPIRIT's Diary

As the way to lose my weight, "Drinking over 2000 ml water every day" is easy to begin for me , I said. So, Since Jan. 7th, I've started to drink over 2,000 water every day. I feel urination much more times, but it seems metabolism and excretion has increased more. So, I've maintained my weight as about 93.5kg. How much can I reduce my weight by both drinking much water and skipping alcohol? Because of aging, my base metabolism has decreased. It's better, if I will continue not to increase my weight more.

I ate the cup noodle yakisoba in lunch and double cheeseburger in McDonalds in dinner. My weight will be likely to increase. However, I can't relieve my stress if I don't it. My personality is, "Inflammable and agitated". I become irritated easily, such as even feeling urination or convenience. I would lose my control and be likely whether I wound someone or something, if I save my stress. It's not low possibility, that I repeat crimes like Takuma Mamoru, Kobayashi Kaoru and so on. In this personality, how will I maintain my health? I return my thinking into basic. Dragon Sakura2, the comics by Mita Norifusa, said, "We have to say 'what will I do for what', not 'do my best' and 'desperateness'." It also said, "'Do my best', 'desperateness' and so on are the exclamation phrases with only vigor." and "They have neither concreteness and rationality." I have to think, "What will I do, for becom...

There is Ms.Muroyama Mayumi, who wrote comics such as *Asari-Chan”. In her opus, heroines’ snacks are always “the milk and the fried small fishes”. (In short, they are full of calcium) Heroines hate the milk and the fried small fishes as “the cat’s feed “, but heroines’ parents say “they are full of nutritious “. In present Japanese families, are there any families whose snacks are milk and small fishes? However, in Japan too, the value of merchandises is rising, so it’s the best if the value of fried small fishes and milk is cheaper than the value of the likes of snacks. I don’t love fried small fishes so much, but I love milk very much. After I’ve skipped liquor for 4 days, I had drunk milk too much. Can I change to eat Famichiki into fried small fishes as snacks? It's also good if value of fried small fishes is cheaper than Famichiki. But how is stiff and taste of fried small fishes?

Yesterday, as lunch, I made spaghetti cuisine again. I added cheese and pork to spaghetti. Unexpectedly, it was very delicious. The stuff of melting cheese and spaghetti was matched very  well. But I also took pepper too much, so I was very perspiring. Recently, I've changed my thinking about my health. I want to expand Hakkenden to foreigners, but I can't do it only short time. So I have to live a bit more, and make time for it more despite having hypertension and obesity. However, I'm hard-Passionist and have my stress easily. I have to relieve my stress effectively, but not by eating and drinking liquor. It's the best for cooking to relieve my stress, more than eating and liquor. I want to cook more.(Of course, I have to inform information about Hakkenden.)

Recently, my life has been self-indulgent. I haven't made any days of no drinking and my weight hasn't decreased. I often go to ChocoZAP with my father again. It can't be helped because my metabolism energy has decreased on account of becoming about 40s. However, I've thought after I had gotten a illustration "Itou Makoto and Nishizumi Miho, as Inuzuka Shino, are showing orbs of ''Kou（孝）/filial piety" by Mihoniumu-san(@gupmihoniumu, key(gaigaigai123)) I've wanted to expand Japanese culture such as Hakkenden, sumo and so on, for making Japan an oriented-tourism country. I've understood I can't do it in a short time. For it, I have to maintain both my physical strength and my energy. I have to become healthy by losing weight and so on. I have to skip eating Famichiki and drinking liquor. But can I do it now?

Recently, I can't drink except little liquor. I easily vomit when I drink 9% Chu-hai. So, I don't like it, but I can't drink except beer. Has my body changed because of aging? For maintaining my physical ability, I'm trying to decrease my weight, such as taking Alli and so on. For it, I could reduce my weight to 89.8kg. Would it be better if I don't drink liquor? I've finally understood that physical ability is the most important for travel, because I'd become tired easily when I went to OSAKA EXPO 2025 and Tokyo. But can I reduce my weight easily?

Recently, my gums on left and top have had sometimes pain. I've thought I have periodontal disease. So today, I went to dental clinic. My prediction was accurate. The doctor said that my gums on left and top has worse and inflammation. I have to take treatment with anesthesia. I was surprised because I've blushed my teeth thoroughly every day. But it seemed my brushing the gap between my teeth was a bit rough. Next week, I'll go to Tokyo, so I have to brush more thoroughly.

It's been about 1 month since I felt chest pain on Oct. 11th. My mother said, "You took caffeine too much, so chest pain occurred." I went to sleeping hospital about this case and Sleeping Apnea Syndrome. My doctor said, "The reason that you felt chest pain was unknown. But you should drink cold water when you feel chest pain. It may be occurred by GLP-1 agonist. But please monitor your chest feeling." By nitroglycerin, it'd not recovered my chest pain, so I didn't get nitroglycerin. But is it better if I got it? The doctor also said, "It's better for you to lose your weight and continue to take CPAP, to reduce your chest pain." Recently, my nausea is terrible and my appetite has decreased. Today too, I ate a little dinner and drunk no liquor. Is it OK for me to go with the flow? My weight is 89.2kg now? For future, how much can I reduce?

I ate Billy Ramen, my favorite ramen, too much yesterday, so my weight has been likely to become 92kg. Changing into BMI, it's 31.9. It's a bit NG. I've not been careful about my weight. And I've skipped to take Alli, the inhibitor of absorption of fat. So it may be naturally for increasing my weight. I want to make my joyful life even if my life is short. So, it's not careful about my weight. But how's that? Recently, my blood pressure has continued to hypertension. It's also naturally, because the blood pressure increases if we're fat. I can drink only sweet drinks because my taste has changed. With it, I've taken sugar too much, it's also made me increase my weight. Should I reduce my weight?

My weight has increased to 91.3kg. So I started to take GLP-1 agonist again. Originally, it's the medication for diabetes, but effective to lose weight. My mother said, "Your chest pain on Oct. 11th was for taking caffeine too much, not for GLP-1 agonist. You should take GLP-1 agonist again and decrease to take caffeine." But is it true? Anyway, I have to receive a letter of reference in the hospital of SAS, and go to bigger hospital to take examination for more detail. What did cause my chest pain?

I couldn't come up with what I want to write this blog, so I went out 2 entire days. And I ate sushi and a mackerel, and my weight has increased near 91kg again. More thinking about it, I've not walk sufficiently recently because we've been scared for encountering bears. Recently, appearance of bear has been much time in Miyagi too. And, my taste has changed, and I couldn't receive the taste of beer. And I want to drink sweet juice fiercely, so I often drink chu-hai and sweet juice. So my weight may increase. I don't care of my appearance and I'm prepared for my early death. But I'm likely not to fit my cloth, so I have to lose my weight.

I went to obesity clinic, and informed that I felt fierce chest pain on Oct. 11th. I also took X-ray and electric cardiography. But both results were normal. I had neither angina pectoris nor myocardial infarction. The doctor said that I should monitor chest pain for future. I'd been prepared for my early death for heart disease, but it seemed I was hasty. However, I have to think about both "until now" and "from now", for future. I've been happy enough because I could do almost doing and go to various places, including Singapore, Hong Kong and so on. Because of the wall of fact, many things didn't go well for me, such as the pharmacist in the pharmacy. My life has been not bad, but I can make my life better more effort I do. In short term, I'll go to Ueno and watch Gogh Exhibition in Tokyo Metropolitan Museum. It's important for me to make good life. I don't want to become like King Soga in Fire Bird Yamato Edition by Tezuka Osamu.

I have sleep apnea syndrome, so I went to Sleep Clinic today. Recently, I've eaten and drunk liquor too much, so my weight and blood tension has increased again. I said the doctor that I've had much stress, such as emotions that I hadn't done job very well, writing English diary and so on. So the doctor says, "You've overdone very much." Mr. Hiroyuki said, "The era doing own best have been over, we should live easily." But, in my case, how? I've chosen English as the tool for my surviving. So, I've wanted to use English more to learn English more. In the past case of praying with English in my church, only I joined this case, from many Japanese. Over and over, I've felt, that Japanese society is, "The nail that sticks out gets hammered down" ”A person with talent usually hides their best abilities ” "Silence keeps you safe." But, in my case, it's been NG. Because, "I don't want to be defeated my peer who w...

I watched this video in Youtube, by Mr. Tanaka Kei. According to it, we have to decide both "What do we want to do?" and "By when will we do them?" What I want to do is, "I want to use English more because I have 840 TOEIC score." "I want to go abroad and watch various things in the world more." About the first desire, it has been fulfilled because I often talk foreigners in my church with English. But about the second desire, I want to this desire more. But I have both Asperger's and ADHD, so my mental health has been very unstable. So I can't control my appetite and liquor desire, and both my weight and my blood pressure has increased recently. Is it the limit of developmental disorder? Recently, I've done the meditation to relieve my stress, but it hasn't gone well? Should I continue it? However, it's no other methods, to reduce money to eat and drink and relieve my stress. It may be said I have to continue meditation.

Today too, I went to go to ChocoZAP with my father, and exercised. Anaerobic exercise in ChocoZAP can help to make my muscle. But, about my weight, my weight hasn't decreased yet. However, as always, I haven't cared for my weight. As always, to eat and drink is the best way to relieve my stress. My physical strength and resilience have fluctuated for days. If I have both of them, I have much desire such as going to Shanghai. But if I have neither of them, I don't want to do anything including to work. It may be the key whether my mental is stable or not. Recently, I re-started that I often take meditation in free time. But, until now, I can't make my mental stable even if I do it. Will it become effective.

The tenth day after I've taken GLP-1 agonist again. My weight has increased to 88.1kg reversely. Yesterday, because it was holiday, I ate the snack, such as cheese bread, too much. While I was relaxed, management of my company has decline because the revenue has decreased and the minimum wage had to rise. I want my company's productivity to increase. But, before it, I have to increase my productivity. However, my vigor and physical strength have decreased a far much. Recently, I haven't thought I want to go abroad and go to travel, and I become tired even morning 30 minutes walking. But my appetite and sleeping desire hasn't increased. I've wasted money to eat and drink, and my money for investing had to decreased. I've felt than my time has come to the retreat time. What should I do?

I've written, that my physical strength, guts and mental stability have weakened much more than when I was 20s. I've felt nostalgic, when I was desperate to work a pharmacist of the pharmacy and go to travel. And I also consulted Chat GPT how to rebuilding them. Recently, I become very tired, only even when walking for 8,000 steps and exercising in ChocoZAP. After them, I always take a nap for 30 minutes. About my mental stability, I have to do meditation occasionally, don't I? Recently, my father has learned that we can do English conversation in Chat GPT, and he recommend me to do it. I've registered Chat GPT app in my iPhone, I've done it immediately. Of course, It's the best for me to talk with real foreigners with English. But it's also better as exercise to use English. There are various ways to use Chat GPT effectively. But my method is, that I incorporate about pharmaceutical information and that I talk English with Chat GPT. For this way, I'll b...

Today, I bought Shinkansen tickets for travel of Osaka EXPO with my father. For the discount coupon of shareholder of JR East, I could buy about 50% value. But, recently, I'd understood that my physical strength and guts have decreased far more than when I was 20s. Because I've not been able to rise the hill from my favorite church to my home. I'm anxious whether I can bear walking around in the venue of Osaka EXPO from morning to night. The time I want to sleep has increased recently too. Always, I can sleep about 5.5 hours every night. Perhaps, for future, I'm likely not to go abroad. What will my dream that I want to watch various things of Japan and the world become? What will I become because all of physical strength, guts and stability of my mental has decreased much?

After I made "10 seconds rule", that I bear for 10 seconds when I have my impulse to eat and drink, I failed in the first day. After working, my craving was terrible, I paid over 3000 yens although I decided my budget to 1000 yens every day. Particularly, I bought 4 non-alcohol beer. Does it mean that my craving is such terrible? Even now, I always want to drink alcohol. I decided my budget for eating and drinking as 30,000 yens, but even it's just barely. After my parents pass away, can I make my own living? I have to reduce my money of investing because my budget for eating and drinking has increased. Even now, I become emotionally unstable easily. So I want to take alcohol. It's anti-effective. Can't I change my personality becoming emotionally unstable easily?

Recently, I've sometimes drunk liquor. As I said before, I can't suspend my strong impulse. For the same reasons, I sometime drink liquor. It's the best for me to drink no liquor. But I can't suspend desire to joy, so I drink liquor. Are Domo AI, PixAI and so on not sufficient methods to relieve my stress completely? For myself, I don't know. I'm easily perspiring, so, for it too, it makes stress. At least, I want hot days to finish earlier.