SPIRIT's Diary

Yesterday too, I paid money for PixAI excessively. It was over 5,000 yen. At this rate, can I pay expense for German Travel? And can I make ends meet? The value of merchandises has continued to rise. ` If I'm not careful, I have to sell equity more with violating regulations of my investment, My deficiency that I can't "waiting" such as saving and bearing buying unneeded merchandises is showing obviously. It's no use crying over spilled milk. Including expense for German travel, what should I do for my next life expense? If it's insufficient, do I have to sell my equity more? For the benefit of all, I've continued to invest for equity, social-lending and so on, but It's putting the cart before the horse. What should I do deal with my impulsive personality and my life expense?

In the end, I couldn’t rein in my excessive spending on PixAI or the money I was wasting on alcohol, so I reluctantly decided to sell some of my shares. Since they’re worth more than I originally paid, I suppose it counts as taking profits. (I didn’t buy them through a NISA account, so some of the proceeds will go toward taxes.) For the moment, I can rest easy because I’ve kept the money for my trip to Germany in a time deposit. Still, I can’t let my guard down when there’s no telling how much fuel prices may rise. I was born during Japan’s economic bubble, in a country that had remained at peace since the Pacific War. Even now, as the number of working poor continues to rise in Japan, people like us still maintain a reasonably high standard of living. I ought to give back as much of that good fortune as I can, but my own weaknesses make it difficult. Even if I tried to give back through physical labor, my mental endurance is far below that of most people. (If I were told to clear rubb...

I've become passive because I've felt my death too much. Counselors said, "You've lived aggressively until now, so it's your big weapon." So, it's NG.     I have to become aggressive again and do anymore. But what should I do? Recently, I only drunk liquor and felt relaxed time, after I finished today's task. I hate sweating, so I should spend money for society, shouldn't I?   What will I begin? At first, should I reduce taking caffeine and begin meditation again?

My recent record drinking liquor is below: My father recommended me that I should make 3 non-drinking alcohol days a week. I've complied it, but I drunk much liquor when I decided to drink liquor. In 2ch thread, there is people occurring myocardial infarction on account of drinking too much liquor. I should be more careful because I almost drink much more liquor. Recently, I've felt been aware of my death time, because I had felt chest pain for 20 minutes and I had drunk too much liquor. Or, God was likely to stroke and weaken my heart because I had often said, that I'm likely to kill someone if my stress increased by losing weight. (Just in case, I'm a Protestant.) It seems that I'll die before I kill someone. I'm continuing to think about how I live my rest life. I want to go to Europe, but when and how will I go to it?

Yesterday, I went to church and Sunpia No Yu/Sunpia's Hot Spring. But, now too, I feel uncomfortable when I drink Monster or Tokucha. Has my heart become worse truly? Or temporary side effect of GLP-1 agonist? If my heart has become worse, it's that my lifespan is likely to be short. I said I have nothing to regret because I could do various actions and I could go to various place, including foreign country. But if I had more greed, I wanted to go to Europe. It may be early, but should I plan for the end of life? I don't know what I have to do at first. I have lived my life with "My Way". But I can become happier for future. I have to live vigorously.