SPIRIT's Diary

In my church, there was "circle for praying" today. There is also "status report and praying with English", so I joined this circle with foreigners. I was very tensioned because it's first time for me to praying with English. I couldn't listen English talking of other foreigners. But I could inform, that I want to increase revenue of my pharmacy and contribute my president. Nobody except me had joined the English praying circle. But if I don't join this circle, nobody won't join this circle. And I wouldn't win the peer of my church which works in JICA forever. She has worked in JICA, so her experience communicating with foreigners is far more than me. I want to watch various things of Japan and the world, and I want to inform Japanese culture such as Hakkenden. I can't dismiss this experience. After it, I ate salmon-rice as lunch in my church. It was very delicious!

I've written, that my physical strength, guts and mental stability have weakened much more than when I was 20s. I've felt nostalgic, when I was desperate to work a pharmacist of the pharmacy and go to travel. And I also consulted Chat GPT how to rebuilding them. Recently, I become very tired, only even when walking for 8,000 steps and exercising in ChocoZAP. After them, I always take a nap for 30 minutes. About my mental stability, I have to do meditation occasionally, don't I? Recently, my father has learned that we can do English conversation in Chat GPT, and he recommend me to do it. I've registered Chat GPT app in my iPhone, I've done it immediately. Of course, It's the best for me to talk with real foreigners with English. But it's also better as exercise to use English. There are various ways to use Chat GPT effectively. But my method is, that I incorporate about pharmaceutical information and that I talk English with Chat GPT. For this way, I'll b...

Yesterday, I skipped taking alcohol and bear with non-alcoholic beer. So I could sleep very well, so I've become relaxed since this morning. But, in other hand, my father didn't look vigorous. So we skipped walking in the morning. Because it's also too hot. I'm contributing to make text of pharmaceutical English conversation in my job now. My president accepted my idea and published English texts I made in my company. It's very good if it will continue and our pharmacy will be able to take in more inbounds. Foreigners in Japan is increasing and will become a lion share.

Yesterday, there is a festival of 24 Hour TV in Kotodai Park. So I went to Kotodai Park, and drunk beer too much. I drew a blank in the night of yesterday and I vomited three times in today's morning. I can't forget the fluffy feeling when I drink the liquor. It's no good, so I took cyanamide, the inhibitor of alcohol metabolism. I have to take good care of my brain more. It's strange to say this, the brain of bilingual is activating more than monolingual. I can speak English to some extent, so I have to take good care of my brain.

It's said JICA is flamed now. One of my peers in my church works in JICA, so I wanted talked about it with her, but I couldn't do it. She can speak with foreign peer of my church very well and shiny. I want to become like her. From my experience, the best way to improve English ability is using English thoroughly. As Dragon Sakura 2 pointed out, most of Japanese don't use English, so they can't improve English. I've also learned English by writing English in this blog and SNS, such as Experimental English Outgoing. In EXPO 2025, English is written in exhibition. I think, that we shouldn't care of be called "Americanized". Because we can learn language by using it. I want to learn English more, and inform Japanese culture of foreigners, such as Hakkenden.

Recently, I've not able to find the songs that I'll translate into Japanese. But I remembered "Beautiful Sunday", which translated into Japanese and has been signed by Tanaka Seiji. I tried to translate this song into Japanese.       Sunday morning, up with the lark （日曜の朝、ひばりとともに起きる） I think I'll take a walk in the park （公園で歩けると思った） Hey, hey, hey, it's a beautiful day （ああ、なんて美しい日なんだろう）     I've got someone waiting for me （誰かが僕を待っている） And when I see her, I know that she'll say （その人にあったとき、その人の言おうとしていることがわかる） Hey, hey, hey, it's a beautiful day （ああ、なんて美しい日なんだろう）     [Chorus] Hi, hi, hi, beautiful Sunday （ああ、美しい日曜日） This is my, my, my beautiful day （これは僕のための美しい日） When you say, say, say, say that you love me （君が僕のことを好きと言ってくれたら） Oh my, my, my, it's a beautiful day （もっと美しい日になるんだ）     [Verse 2] Birds are singing, you by my side （君の横で鳥たちが歌っている） Let's take a car and go for a ride...

Recently, I often go to the restroom in the night, up to 3 times. So for my father's recommendation, I went to the urology. The urology has many foreign patients, so they've made English homepage, and often hold English learning. One clerk of the urology had gone to Australia to learn English. I felt it's amazing. I've thought it's good if our company will become suitable to foreigners, so I'm making the reports for learning medical English. But I'm always anxious because I'm always thinking I'm rushing away without caring for others. So, I always take alcohol for escaping from this fact. I understand it's no good. More thinking about it, I have Asperger and ADHD, so I'm very troubled to communication to others. But I'm generous to foreigners. Because I may like English and have a dream that I want to watch various things of Japan and world. And I may want to improve my English ability by communicating various foreigners. I've underst...

Recently, my task has become carefree, but I've lost my goal. I want to survive for new era, so it's very bad. I have to re-confirm my weapon and battle style (equal my ability). I decided three components for my surviving. They're pharmaceutical knowledge, English and investment. Investment is only main tool for earning money effectively. So, to survive, it's important for me to pharmaceutical knowledge and English. I'm a pharmacist of master's level graduate and have 840 TOEIC score. So, it's OK if there are methods for activating both. Recently, there are many foreign laborers and inbounds. So, it's OK for my pharmacy to become the pharmacy for fittable to them. My president rejected my proposal that we should increase English sign in our pharmacies, So can I increase English abilities of employments of my company? I'll consult Chat GPT about how to increase English abilities of employments of my company. In Tsukigami/The haunted god written by As...

Tomorrow will be the three-way interview. But, I couldn't accomplish my goal that I reduce my BMI less than 30.0. Without becoming inflammable and mad, I'm continuing to deal with my task calmly. But I'm a bit frustrated because my suggestion that we should put down English in our pharmacies more doesn't adopt. In fact, it's OK for me to only continue to work calmly. My president said the operating profit of our company has increased more than she expected for 2 years. Therefore, my bonus payroll in this year was more than last years. But until when will it continue? Amazon Pharmacy has advanced in Japan and is there the possibility that prescriptions in our pharmacies will be devoured to Amazon? Someone said we should be careful for the service after customers come in more than the service before they come in. But I'm not good to care meticulous service after customers enter. More customers before entering our pharmacies should increase by ourselves. By the way...

My quotas are, 1. In English studying, I should write English in this blog or X(former twitter), or make video of my English speaking for 30 seconds. 2. In work, I should make one goal each one day, and finish it within this day. 3. About alcohol, I should drink nothing or 40g most (5% beer 1000ml). 4. About wasting to eat and drink, I should spend less than 500 yen each one day. But these quotas have become a mere shell of completely, except studying English. I had drunk 9% Chu-hai again and wasted more 1,000 yens to eat and drink. But, I can no more control my emotion and my appetite, so I'll go to an obesity hospital. I said before, that I'll fail if relying on only my passion and guts. But I can't believe I've failed to accomplish my quotas only one-half month. Should I revise my quotas? If I can control my emotion and appetite, I won't need to waste money to eat and drink liquor. But, somehow, it's no use. Is it only way that I give up with good grace?

Recently, I've not thought I want to go abroad. For myself, I'm alarming. Vaguely, I want to go to Shanghai. Why? Perhaps, because my opportunity using English has increased exceptionally in Japan, such as my blog and my church. It's also OK for that, but how about my dream that I watch various things in Japan and foreign. Will I be satisfied to so when I will be about to die? Perhaps, the reason I want to go abroad may be that I want to use English anyway. In Japan, the opportunity using English is a far few, so most Japanese can't learn English very well. Both inbound tourists and foreign laborers will increase, so we should learn English more by using it. Should I confirm my dream again? Of course, I shouldn't make my pharmaceutical knowledge and English ability decrease.

My mother has recommended me to take Financial Planner 3th Grade. Then, what should I do? Of course, my sense of money is loose. It's OK for me if I get normal sense of money by getting qualification of FP 3th Grade. But can I get normal sense of money? In other case, she's recommended me to learn Chinese. Because, in Close Up Gendai in NHK, Chinese residents in Japan have increased. I have gotten qualification of HSK2, but I'm troubled to study HSK3, so I had given up tentatively. Now, I can somehow manage to use English, but it will be the best for me to be able to speak and write Chinese. My vision has been still abstract. But it's OK for me to be able to improve foreign language by talking to foreigners, and invite foreigners to my pharmacies. It's important of both sense of money and linguistic skills. What should I do?

Today, I got bonus payroll. But what should I use it? Should I invest stocks such as Ajinomoto more, or should I take a collection for my favorite church? Thinking about it, eventually, I decided to use 60% for investment and take a collection for my favolite church 40%. I'm living by own, but I've paid money for various thing. I've understood finally since I've lived 38 years, "What I can do is only logistical support." It's also the logistical support that I buy stocks such as Ajinomoto and that I inform my president of medical information and disease. But can I use my ability, such as pharmaceutical knowledge, English and so on, more effectively? I'm a bit troubled for communicating foreigners in my church with English. Anyway, I should use pharmaceutical knowledge and English more, and should become used them.

Recently, I've not accomplished my quotas, such as skipping alcohol, wasting money with less than 500 yen and so on. I often drunk 9% Chu-hai, and today I vomited on account of drinking alcohol too much. Should I adjust my quotas a little, or should I continue these quotas? I'm always strain and easily become tired, so I drink alcohol to become relaxed. But from the view of long period, alcohol makes me bad of my mind. I should more relaxed, but what should I do? I may should think, that both my meaningful action and meaningless action makes me. Of course, it's important for me to write English in this blog. Just writing and speaking English may be wonderful to me. Tentatively, I decided to continue these quotas, such as skipping alcohol and wasting money is less than 500 yen.

I also had forgotten that Dragon Ball Series on-aired in Fuji TV. So I can watch them in FOD, the subscription. In my free time, I often watch Dragon Ball Super and Dragon Ball GT. In Dragon Ball Super, The Baseball Story and Goku's Saying, "Work, not do such foolish doing!" makes me laugh. I think, that the end of Dragon Ball GT is far better than original work and Z. It's the end, that Goku and so on liquidated their desire coming true by Dragon Ball in final and Goku became the god with Shenron. To the return my main topic,  I'm straying how much I should write English in this blog. In X(former Twitter) tweeting, recently, I'm uncomfortable if I don't write English but Japanese. Is it the final phase of habituation of English tweeting? There's one quote in Dragon Sakura 2, "Study like brushing your teeth. Feel uncomfortable if you don't study." In writing my blog, it's also the best, if I feel uncomfortable if I don't write Eng...

Since young age, my agitated and inflammable personality has never changed. I don't understand whether it's for alcohol or for my original personality. But I can't be satisfied, even if I've tried to write English tweeting, English article, make videos of my speaking English and so on. But Dragon Sakura 2 said, "It's the sin that we don't make them challenge." More thinking about it, from this personality, I've challenged to various things such as English tweeting, English writing, video compilation and so on. For it, I could improve my English ability and got 840 TOEIC score. I've understood that it's the sin that we don't challenge. I'm challenging to skip alcohol every day again. It's taken 3 days since I skipped alcohol. Until now, I couldn't understand about my doing, so I had escaped to liquor. But now, I can understand my action and my ideal lifestyle increasingly. Can't I fail again?

It took 5 days after I decided my quotas in various field. Until now, About English studying: I accomplished every day within the morning. About drinking alcohol and finishing the goal at work: I accomplished and not. About wasting money to eat and drink: I couldn't accomplish at all. Is my 500 yens budget to drink and eat strict? It needs 432 yens for only Tokucha and one Famichiki. About studying English, I could make video of my speaking English within the morning. About studying, it's easy for me to accomplish my quota. But, it's difficult to reduce wasting money to eat and drink. Still, my habit I resolve my stress to eat and drink hasn't revised. By other methods, can't I resolve my stress? I'm Conservation Type (Stacking Type). So it's important for me to decide my quotas each one day. But it's meaningless if I don't accomplish my quotas. Should I make my quota, particularly about wasting money to eat and drink lower?

In my church, yesterday was Easter Festival. With eating Hayashi Rice, I talked with foreigners more than usual. On second thoughts, I understand I can learn language by using more times. Of course, it's the best if I can speak English smoothly with native pronuncication. But, in my present condition, I can talk with foreigners moderately with English. It's better, not the best. Of course, I've not spoken my ambition to foreigners yet. My ambition is that I inform Japanese culture such as Hakkenden of more foreigners. But I'm embarrassed to speak it to others. General speaking, it's difficult for me to make foreigners in my church become interested in Hakkenden. Should I speak that Hakkenden may be similar to Super Sentai/Power Rangers? Anyway, I have to improve my English ability more. In quota about studying English, I could accomplish it every day, within the morning. I have to continue it.

Today is the first day after I decided quotas in various field. About English studying, within the morning, I made the video of my speaking English, and accomplished the quota. About work...the goal may be wildest, so I couldn't my goal today. And it's doubtful that information I used is accurate. It needs more time to finish my goal. About alcohol, I succeeded in skipping alcohol today. But I should have drunken Regtect, the alcohol restraint, after every meals. About wasting money to drink and eat, this quota is very difficult, I spent over 500 yen, my budget each day. It needed 432 yen of only Tokucha and Famichiki. I compiled the result, Success: studying English and skipping alcohol Failure: Accompilshing the goal at work and spending money less than 500 yen. Particularly, it's difficult to surpress wasting money. I want caffeine when I become sleepy, so I have to increase sleeping time. There is one Dragon Sakura's quote, "Only one or two people in groups in...

In this late point, I don't think I want to be filial to my parents. And I can't help them buy a mansion. What I can do is just what I pretend non-poli and improve my English ability. Yesterday, my president relied on me to translate an English medication book into Japanese. I also ordered the book, but what is the concept of the English book? At this point, my position may be similar to Hizen in Bakumatsu, which aren't interest on Sonnou and Joui and just improve their militial ability. But this position may make me improve Japan as an oriened-tourism country. However, recently, my lifestyle has been disturbed again. Amount of all liquor, money to waste eat and my weight has increased again. At first, I should revise my lifestyle. Are there any method except eating and drinking liquor, to relieve my stress? Relaxing music has been not effective recently. Anyway, I must write English in this blog and X(the former Twitter) every day, at least.