SPIRIT's Diary

I saw this Youtube of Ryou-Gakucho（両学長）/President Ryou, and thought much.     I've understood that we can't succeed if we take no risk. Mr. Bill Gates and Mr. Mark Zuckerberg also said. "The biggest risk is not taking any risk. "     I've understood repeatedly, "Myself is a risk." I can still control neither my emotion nor impulse of my appetite. Today too, because of weekend, I made spaghetti salad and ate. I should have taken Calorie-Mate to lose my weight.     If losing stability of my emotion, immediately, I would make my fangs to others and society. One peer of developmental disorders said to me, "You should have lived in deep of mountains or no manned island." Her saying may be right. By the way, in Edo period, there is a punish "Entou （遠島） ", which is banished to a distant island, such as Hachijo Island.     However, it's bad for me to become a criminal. By eating favorite foods m...

My weight hasn't decrease sufficiently. So, I remembered I had drunk much water when I tried to lose my weight and 20s years old. I tried to take more water to lose my weight. For my mother's recommendation, I took 1.5L water for some divided. But it became feels bad, and increased the times going to bathroom. In this way, can I become thin? "At first, let's try it." I decided to continue to drink 1.5L water every day for 1 months. Despite taking Parmodia, anti-triglyceride medication, I couldn't lose my weight.

My weight became under 90kg, but haven't lose successfully. By my father's recommendation, I went to ChocoZAP after long time. In this place, most of the time, I take anaerobic exercise, such as muscle training. But there is a reclining chair. After exercising, I sat the reclining chair and became relaxed. For going to ChocoZAP, I need to walk for 4 km as a round trip. It's also the ordinary exercise. By the way, I've taken Parmodia which is reduction of Triglyceride twice a day. But my weight hasn't lost. When taking each two Parmodia twice a day, my weight lost amazingly. Should I increase the amount of Parmodia?

In Japan, there is one medication named Alli, which reduce metabolism and absorption of fat. The medication is categorized as BTC(Behind The Counter), because we can't buy without permission of pharmacists. In Japan, before we buy Alli, we need to record our own weight, waist circumference and percent body fat for 30 days. I want Alli to lose my weight, so I've recorded them for 5 days. But it's very troubling to record them. I have to continue the records for 30 days to get Alli. In Japan, Alli is almost dealt in Nihon Chouzai. Many stores of Nihon Chouzai are located in the center of Sendai city. They're very accessible, but anyway, I have to continue the record of my weight, and so on.

As scheduled, I went to the obesity hospital. But the doctor said, "My main remedy is alimentary therapy, and medication is supporting part." I inform him that I could lose my weight by using Parmodia, the anti- triglyceride medication. then, the doctor said, "Anyway, I can't prescript any medications unless I see your blood tests. Please reserve the blood test day." So, I reserved the blood test in next Thursday. But I was downhearted. Is it difficult for me to lose my weight unless my unstable personality as the developmental disorder change? And I went to Ootoya, the restaurant, and ate tha nanban chicken. I felt it was fatty but delicious. Soon, I'll take the three-ways interview. I have to apologize to my president that I couldn't lose my BMI less than 30.0. I want to take Alli, the anti-obesity drug, but for it, I have to record the lifestyle for 1 month from today. Is it that all is over?

My weight has become over 92 kg. By own, I can't control all of my weight, appetite and emotion, so I decided to consult obesity clinic.     On second thoughts, I'm a developmental disorder and my emotion is unstable by all means. In this case, I've continued to my career as a pharmacist and an investor.       Dragon sakura 2 said, "To make good peers, we should go to Tokyo University." But about my peer of developmental disorders, "Without working, he's stayed at home." "Except working in Pre-employment transition centers B type, he always goes to game centers and restaurant." "He had been a hikikomori since long periods, but he's gone to an Employment Support Center recently." And most of them are very fat. Thinking about it, I've been desperate and lived like a chariot horse. Instead, I can't control both my emotion and my appetite, and I'm easily agitated and inflammable.    ...

About both my weight and drinking alcohol, I've become that the wheel comes full circle. My weight has come back to more than 90kg, and I had taken 9% Chu-hai and often vomited. On Second thoughts, is it impossible for me to decrease my weight? Eating is the best effective method to relieve my stress. About alcohol, I found many Abilify to be taken as needed, so I decide to take it instead drinking alcohol. Actually, I become relaxed if taking Abilify to be taken as needed. If Abilify to be taken as needed become none, I think again in this time.

I'm not very interested in my health, and I don't care for my weight very well. Recently, my weight is 87.2kg, and calculating into BMI, is 30.2. I watched "Torisetsu Show/Introducing Manual Show" in NHK. and it said that it's unhealthy if we are too thin too. My mother is too thin, and also hardly go to ChocoZAP. I'm a bit anxious. For healthy, it's important for us to take both calcium and protein. They help our bone mass and protein increase. By the way, I've sometimes continued to cook. I like spaghetti very much despite increasing my weight.

As always, I'm irritated every day, and increase amount to blew some money and junk food. Ome principal reason is "I have atopic disease and my whole body becomes itchy easily, because this season is hay fever and very warm." I've taken the cream of Nivea, but it's still insufficient. Another reason making me irritated is, "The falling down value of stock by Trump's tariffs", But it can't be helped, and what I can do is only that I buy the stock falling down. Other reason is, "My right view has decreased on account of a cataract. " Soon, I'll take diagnosis of ophthalmology. But these reasons has made me irritated, increase the amounts to blew some money and eat, and increase my weight again. I don't care my weight very well, but my president pleased me to make BMI decrease under 30.0. Calculating into weight, it's 86.2kg. On weekends, I'll go to Funaoka Castle Park and take blossom viewing. In that time, I'll bring ...

My weight has increased again, to 87.8kg. Perhaps, because I may skip taking metformin last night.     By the way, the amount of parmodia, prescribed from obesity hospital, has decreased recently. More thinking, after taking both metformin and parmodia twice a day, my weight has remarkably decreased, from 90.6kg to 85.9kg.     But, recently, I had eaten my favorite ramen too much. Soon, both parmodia and metformin tablet will become gone. In that time, what should I do?     In February, my president hoped me to decrease my weight less BMI 30. Calculating into weight, I have to decrease my weight to 86.2kg. Anyway, I have to take both metformin and parmodia until they become gone, to lose my weight.

Perhaps, on Account of eating Famichiki too much, my weight has increased to 87.4kg again.     But I bought two Mega Muffin in Mcdonalds because I ate   too low amount in breakfast.     Oftentimes, I see that my appetite is too strong. But appetite is one of the strongest greed in humans' greeds.     It would be OK if carories of Mega Muffin had been low. After finishing my today's task, I recorded my weight. The result is 86.8kg. Are carories of Mega Muffin low?

My weight has decreased to about 87.2kg. But after taking Bilanor, the anti-allergic medication, the amount of decreasing has descended. My father recommended that I stop taking Bilanor.   But if I don't take Bilanor, all of my skin will become itchy. On Tuesday, I'll go to the allergic hospital. I want my skin to become comfortable.   My goal of my weight is 86.2kg. But today, I became careless, so I've taken two sandwiches, Famichiki, Monster, the energy drink. Tomorrow, will my weight increase again?

My weight has become less than 88.5kg. Because I may take a little lunch, only one donut, yesterday. And I took no liquor yesterday.     I can do lose my weight if I try. I decided to take only one Famichiki in one day. For this method, I must be able to decrease my calorie. Only one Famichiki, I can become full.

Yesterday, I went to my favorite ramen shop and ate my favorite ramen. So, my weight has increased by 91kg.     It seems I become fat when I eat ramen. But that ramen is very delicious. I want to eat every time if possible.     But my parents are likely to become noisy. I can’t suspend my appetite. I don't have self-control power very much. I become angry immediately and am likely to stab or shoot someone. It may be better for me not to care for my weight. Because I have no effective method to relieve my stress, except eating and drinking.

Taking metformin for 7 days, I've lost my weight 0.8kg. Now, it wasn't so bad scary. But my parents' thinking, it may be insufficient.     On friday, I ate my favorite ramen with using Uber Eats, so, a moment, my weight had increased. My weight would decrease more if I hadn't eaten ramen.     By all means, I tend to relieve my stress by eating and drinking liquor. It's difficult for me to change my personality becoming unstable easily. What the method will I relieve my stress more?

The principal reason my weight has increased is that I've eaten too much. After 3 days I've taken metformin, my appetite has slightly decreased. But, eventually, I've not know how to descend my appetite.     After beginning to take metformin, for 3 days, my weight has decreased 0.3kg. If it's as it is, my weight will decrease 3kg for 30 days. But if the method losing my weight become effective, I have to lose the quantity of my meals.     To relieve my stress, I've eaten and drunk liquor too much. I can't my method to relieve my stress if the quantity of my meal decrease. What should I do?

  Since 2 days, I've taken metformin. Today, in dinner, I lost my appetite. Is it effect of metformin?   My weight has declined until 89kg. Is it effect of metformin too?   But I ate dinner too much. I have to take metformin because I've not taken night part of metformin.   Will my weight loss in this way?

  Yesterday, the parcel with metformin received my home.     Finally, I can take the method taking metformin to lose my weight. But will it be effective? By taking GLP-1 Agonist, I could lose weight for 5kg. Without insurance, but the price of metformin was cheaper than GLP-1 Agonist. I don't know whether the side effect will occur and lose my health or not. But I have to do it. Just Do it!

I couldn't lose my weight by meals and exercise, and my weight has remained about 90kg. So I decided to order metformin for losing my weight.     It's not fittable to public insurance, so the price is very expensive. But is it effective for me to lose my weight? If it's effective to lose my weight, I should continue until losing money. My parents are also noisy about my weight.     Metformin has the effect losing our blood sugar by sending the liver more sugar in blood. And It's said that this effect will also lose our weight. But is this theory true? As a pharmacist, I may have to try the method losing my weight by metformin.

  I have a bad habit that I eat and drunk liquor too much to relieve my stress. For this, my weight has increased about 90kg. My weight in today was 89kg.   My mother is recommending the method losing weight by taking metformin.     But this method isn’t fittable to public insurance, so it's very expensive. I can’t pay it at least this month, so what should I do?