SPIRIT's Diary

I ate Billy Ramen, my favorite ramen, too much yesterday, so my weight has been likely to become 92kg. Changing into BMI, it's 31.9. It's a bit NG. I've not been careful about my weight. And I've skipped to take Alli, the inhibitor of absorption of fat. So it may be naturally for increasing my weight. I want to make my joyful life even if my life is short. So, it's not careful about my weight. But how's that? Recently, my blood pressure has continued to hypertension. It's also naturally, because the blood pressure increases if we're fat. I can drink only sweet drinks because my taste has changed. With it, I've taken sugar too much, it's also made me increase my weight. Should I reduce my weight?

I've become passive because I've felt my death too much. Counselors said, "You've lived aggressively until now, so it's your big weapon." So, it's NG.     I have to become aggressive again and do anymore. But what should I do? Recently, I only drunk liquor and felt relaxed time, after I finished today's task. I hate sweating, so I should spend money for society, shouldn't I?   What will I begin? At first, should I reduce taking caffeine and begin meditation again?

This is a recent record of drinking alcohol. Recently, I had drunk Shochu much, but honestly, I had drunk Shochu forcibly. Recently, my taste has changed. So I can't drink except tea, juice, drink and Chu-hai. I'm not allowed to drink caffeine from my parents, but I also often drink tea now. When I take tea or take GLP-1 agonist, I feel chest pains after a few hours. As I've thought, is my heart worse? My father told, that I'll become fat if I take sugar too much. But I can only drink juice, Chu-hai and so on. What should I do?

Today, I cooked again. I made egg sandwiches. My father praised me that the color of sandwiches was good. I often eat egg sandwiches from Family Mart. But it may be better for me to make them by own. I added mayonnaise to sandwiches, so the taste was smooth. These smooth tastes fitted to me very well. But I used 4 eggs, so it may be too many.

My weight has increased to 91.3kg. So I started to take GLP-1 agonist again. Originally, it's the medication for diabetes, but effective to lose weight. My mother said, "Your chest pain on Oct. 11th was for taking caffeine too much, not for GLP-1 agonist. You should take GLP-1 agonist again and decrease to take caffeine." But is it true? Anyway, I have to receive a letter of reference in the hospital of SAS, and go to bigger hospital to take examination for more detail. What did cause my chest pain?

I couldn't come up with what I want to write this blog, so I went out 2 entire days. And I ate sushi and a mackerel, and my weight has increased near 91kg again. More thinking about it, I've not walk sufficiently recently because we've been scared for encountering bears. Recently, appearance of bear has been much time in Miyagi too. And, my taste has changed, and I couldn't receive the taste of beer. And I want to drink sweet juice fiercely, so I often drink chu-hai and sweet juice. So my weight may increase. I don't care of my appearance and I'm prepared for my early death. But I'm likely not to fit my cloth, so I have to lose my weight.

I got a requested illustration from Mr. Mihoniumu(@gupmihoniumu, key(gaigaigai123)) again. This time is, "Turtle Team as Mito Komon." The roles are below: Kadotani Anzu as Tokugawa Mitsukuni Koyama Yuzu as Sasa Sukesaburo Kawashima Momo as Atsumi Kakunoshin Oarai is near to Mito, so this request is also very good. I also decided to request illustrations, "Hakkenshi's series" again.

After long time, I made French toast. It's useful because my mother having weak colon can eat. It was soft and sweet. A long time ago, Mr. Morino Kumahachi, the cook, introduced this cuisine and Yukijirushi Slice Cheese. Where and what is he doing now? I want to make French toast for future because we can eat easily.

My recent record drinking liquor is below: My father recommended me that I should make 3 non-drinking alcohol days a week. I've complied it, but I drunk much liquor when I decided to drink liquor. In 2ch thread, there is people occurring myocardial infarction on account of drinking too much liquor. I should be more careful because I almost drink much more liquor. Recently, I've felt been aware of my death time, because I had felt chest pain for 20 minutes and I had drunk too much liquor. Or, God was likely to stroke and weaken my heart because I had often said, that I'm likely to kill someone if my stress increased by losing weight. (Just in case, I'm a Protestant.) It seems that I'll die before I kill someone. I'm continuing to think about how I live my rest life. I want to go to Europe, but when and how will I go to it?

Yesterday, I went to church and Sunpia No Yu/Sunpia's Hot Spring. But, now too, I feel uncomfortable when I drink Monster or Tokucha. Has my heart become worse truly? Or temporary side effect of GLP-1 agonist? If my heart has become worse, it's that my lifespan is likely to be short. I said I have nothing to regret because I could do various actions and I could go to various place, including foreign country. But if I had more greed, I wanted to go to Europe. It may be early, but should I plan for the end of life? I don't know what I have to do at first. I have lived my life with "My Way". But I can become happier for future. I have to live vigorously.

Same to "Itou Makoto and Nishizumi Miho as ''Inuzuka Shino" ,   I decided to made generate animations, "Actions of Ichijou Raku and Nishi Kinuyo as 'Inuyama Dosetsu'" , in Sora 2 and Image Generation (former PixAI).   Animations in Sora 2 Ichijou Raku as Inuyama Dosetsu     Nishi Kinuyo as Inuyama Dosetsu     Their voice was cool, but their stature was a bit strange, wasn't them?       Animations in Image Generation (former PixAI) Ichijou Raku as Inuyama Dosetsu     Nishi Kinuyo as Inuyama Dosetsu     Maybe, by occuring hallucinations, the shape of tip of staff has changed. But, as always, animations are smooth.     Can I generate animations about other members? Casting of  "Harem Protagonists as Hakkenshi"  and  "Garupan Captain Group as Hakkenshi"  is below. Harem Protagonists as Hakkenshi 仁(Jin)/benevolent: Inue Shinbei: Kasugano Haruka(Yosuga N...

Today, I went to the psychiatry and took counseling. I informed the counselor of my chest pain on Oct. 11th. The counselor said, "It was OK for you to find the reason of your chest pain. With continuing, you should monitor your chest with skipping GLP-1 agonist." I became a bit relaxed to hear his saying. The counselor also said,  "Your present task is very difficult, but inversely, you can intend to resolve such difficult task. With deciding the deadline, it's important for you to take the task with your pace." After hearing his saying, I became a bit more relaxed. In conclusion, it's important for me to take my task with my pace. I have to collect more information of my task. With skipping GLP-1 agonist, I can be likely to extend my lifeline, so I have to think more how to spend my rest lifeline. In short term, I want to go to Gogh Museum in Ueno.

I've forgotten, " 'Illustrations of Harem Protagonists and Garupan Captain Group as Hakkenshi' can use as resources in both Sora 2 and Image Generation (former PixAI)". So I decided to use "Itou Makoto and Nishizumi Miho as ''Inuzuka Shino'" in Sora 2 and Image Generation. Animations in Sora 2 Itou Makoto as Inuzuka Shino Nishizumi Miho as Inuzuka Shino As usual, it's thankful for me to put voice and sound suitable to the animations. But movements were jerky-motion. Animation in Image Generation Itou Makoto as Inuzuka Shino Nishizumi Miho as Inuzuka Shino Animations were smoother than theirs in Sora 2, but I'm on my mind that katanas in animation sometimes become two. In other member cases too, can I make animations of actions in both Sora 2 and Image Generations? Casting of  "Harem Protagonists as Hakkenshi"  and  "Garupan Captain Group as Hakkenshi"  is below. Harem Protagonists as Hakkenshi 仁(Jin)/benevolent: I...

I went to obesity clinic, and informed that I felt fierce chest pain on Oct. 11th. I also took X-ray and electric cardiography. But both results were normal. I had neither angina pectoris nor myocardial infarction. The doctor said that I should monitor chest pain for future. I'd been prepared for my early death for heart disease, but it seemed I was hasty. However, I have to think about both "until now" and "from now", for future. I've been happy enough because I could do almost doing and go to various places, including Singapore, Hong Kong and so on. Because of the wall of fact, many things didn't go well for me, such as the pharmacist in the pharmacy. My life has been not bad, but I can make my life better more effort I do. In short term, I'll go to Ueno and watch Gogh Exhibition in Tokyo Metropolitan Museum. It's important for me to make good life. I don't want to become like King Soga in Fire Bird Yamato Edition by Tezuka Osamu.

Sora 2, the anime generator of Chat GPT, has made splash. But we can't generate NSFW animations. When I was thinking how I can use it, I remembered, that I've got illustrations, "The series of Duel of Horyukaku based on Nansou Satomi Hakkenden" drawn by Mihoniumu-san(@gupmihoniumu, key(gaigaigai123)). So, from them, I decided to generate animations by Sora 2. I was amazed because suitable sound and voice added these animations. (By the way, English voices are spoken if we write English in prompt, and Japanese voices are spoken if we write Japanese.) But, unfortunately, the animations were still jerky motions. And we can't generate except 2 type scale. After long time, I decided to use anime generator of Image Generation (former PixAI). AI Model has upgraded to V3.0 Flash. Of course, sound and voice are neither, but animations have become more smoothly, and drawing wasn't collapse very well. Improvement of AI Model was more incredible than I expected. Casting o...

I felt chest pain for 20 minutes when I met the peers of developmental handicapped yesterday. I felt also right jaw pain about 3 minutes. I had been anxious to it, so I went to hospital today.     I took many examinations, such as X-ray, blood test, ECHO and electro cardiography. But all result is normal. I've thought I have angina pectoris. From electrocardiography, my heart didn't occur myocardial infarction. However, the doctor said there aren't no possibilities that I have angina pectoris. But, in bigger hospital, I should take examination, the doctor said.     By the prescription, I bought nitroglycerin making the cardiovascular extending. I took nitroglycerin in the pharmacy because I had a bit chest pain, and felt my heart cooler.     When I took the lunch, I had felt "the shadow of my death" at first, because I'm likely to have the heart disease. I thought, "For what, have I lived until now?" I've th...

When I was searching AI anime generating system, I found LitMedia. (https://www.litmedia.ai/ai-video-generator/) I'd become interested in LitMedia, so I registered and got Credit. By using Credit, I generated animations, and the animations are more dynamic than Domo AI's Particularly, camera angle such as zoom in, zoom out and so on are amazing! As the trying, I generated an animation that Katsura Kotonoha in School Days is walking. Over and over, I feel AI animations are amazing.

It's long time no see. I returned from OSAKA EXPO 2025 yesterday. But I've felt my decreasing physical strength and resilience rather than fun. My father was more vigorous than me, and he stepped forward faster. About me, in third day, I've felt tiredness and wound and been likely to return the hotel earlier. But, by my father's recommendation, I stayed EXPO and watch the drone show. It was very beautiful. I went to EXPO because I had felt a picture is worth a thousand words, but honestly, I had underestimated it. However, in EXPO, there were many and many people. I had to appreciate my father. If my father doesn't accompany me, I would bring neither portable chair and water bottle. So it would be more miserable. All pavilions were so crowded, our main place to go was Commons Pavilions. But I interpreted the words of my father and curators, such as Georgians, Slovakians and so on. My English words made foreigners understood, so I got the best experience. I have mise...

I often listen this music, " Boku No Nikki-Chou/My Diary" from Minna No Uta/Everyone's Song. Like this song, will I continued to write this blog, as the diary? By the way, yesterday, I continued to be awake by 0:00 A.M. to get reservation of first-come-first-served basis pavilions of EXPO 2025. But, access is congested, so we couldn't no reservations. Anyway, the travel for EXPO 2025 is soon. I'm thinking where we should go to pavilions. In the worst cases, we'll be able to go to only commons pavilions. But, in this case, I want to speak English, and communicate curators in pavilions more. I should have more confidence, because I've outgo English in this blog and SNS, such as experimental English outgoing and spoken English with foreigners in my church. By the way, this travel is accompanied with my father. Like Thailand travel, will I quarrel with my father and strike each other? It's a bit worrying. However, Thailand's travel has become my turnin...

I have sleep apnea syndrome, so I went to Sleep Clinic today. Recently, I've eaten and drunk liquor too much, so my weight and blood tension has increased again. I said the doctor that I've had much stress, such as emotions that I hadn't done job very well, writing English diary and so on. So the doctor says, "You've overdone very much." Mr. Hiroyuki said, "The era doing own best have been over, we should live easily." But, in my case, how? I've chosen English as the tool for my surviving. So, I've wanted to use English more to learn English more. In the past case of praying with English in my church, only I joined this case, from many Japanese. Over and over, I've felt, that Japanese society is, "The nail that sticks out gets hammered down" ”A person with talent usually hides their best abilities ” "Silence keeps you safe." But, in my case, it's been NG. Because, "I don't want to be defeated my peer who w...