I've Become Passive Because I've Felt My Death Too Much.

I've become passive because I've felt my death too much.

Counselors said,

"You've lived aggressively until now, so it's your big weapon."

So, it's NG.

 

 

I have to become aggressive again and do anymore.

But what should I do?

Recently, I only drunk liquor and felt relaxed time, after I finished today's task.

I hate sweating, so I should spend money for society, shouldn't I?

 


What will I begin?

At first, should I reduce taking caffeine and begin meditation again?

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