I've overdone it, haven't I?

I have sleep apnea syndrome, so I went to Sleep Clinic today.

Recently, I've eaten and drunk liquor too much, so my weight and blood tension has increased again.

I said the doctor that I've had much stress, such as emotions that I hadn't done job very well, writing English diary and so on.

So the doctor says,

"You've overdone very much."

Mr. Hiroyuki said,

"The era doing own best have been over, we should live easily."

But, in my case, how?

I've chosen English as the tool for my surviving.

So, I've wanted to use English more to learn English more.

In the past case of praying with English in my church, only I joined this case, from many Japanese.

Over and over, I've felt, that Japanese society is,

"The nail that sticks out gets hammered down"

”A person with talent usually hides their best abilities ”

"Silence keeps you safe."

But, in my case, it's been NG.

Because,

"I don't want to be defeated my peer who work in JICA."

"It's likewise that we're struggling to learn second language. (in my case, struggling to learn English. In foreigners' case, struggling to learn Japanese)"

"All of foreigners are from America. So they have the culture, "they need to become ''the escaping nail" more than 'the sticking out nail'", and ”A person with talent usually shows their best ability ”.

Inversely, I've been still hard-passionist like Yoshida Shoin yet.

Even if Mr. Hiroyuki says, "we should live easily", I want to survive in this new era, and I want to watch various things in Japan and the world.

For it, I have to learn English more.