SPIRIT's Diary

There is a inaniwa udon shop, named Takisawaya, nearby Tagajo Library. It's for 2 minutes from JR Tagajo Station. I went to Takisawaya, while at it returning a rental book. I ordered both Inaniwa Udon and tempuras. Both of them were chewy, and smooth going down. It's 1,500 yen. The physician in the obesity clinic said you should skip drinking alcohol, but I drunk sake in Takisawaya. It was sweet and delicious. I think, it's no loss for foreigners to go to it and eat inaniwa udon once.

 Anti-Vaccine People said,  "Vaccine is only the tool to get money for companies." I heard it and thought, "Is getting money itself evil?" Kanamori Sayaka in Keep Your Hands Off Eizouken said, "To have responsibility to our own tasks, we get money. Money is for assuring quality of asked job. By getting money, we have duties to assure the quality of task. Tell me, which is just, whether we get responsibility to get money or we don't get responsibility not to get money." In other saying, "By getting money, the job has responsibility first, otherwise, the job becomes loose absolutely." In previous days, I also said, "Money is neither clean nor dirty." "Investors not careful of deposit in bank very well is safer than poverty people saying 'clear and poor.'" "Rich people doesn't do mistake." If we have sufficient money, we can study sufficiently. We can reply the gift to cared supervisors sufficiently. By ...

In my three-ways interview in yesterday, I heard that the Pharmaceutical Affairs Law revised on May 14th 2025 from my president. It seems Japanese lawmakers is struggling to make citizens learn emotions of self-care. In Japanese case, medical care is national health insurance and patients' burden is about 10-30%. It's convenient to patients, but it needs much medical expenses, particularly drug costs. And presence of pharmacists is a far weaker than physicians. So, to reduce drug costs, Japanese lawmakers is struggling to make citizens learn emotion of Self-Medications and Self-care. I receive medications of Anti-allergy Anti-atopic disease(steroids) Antihypertensives Alcohol Deterrent and so on. But I had thought it's OK of OTC, not prescription drugs about anti-allergic and anti-atopic drugs. So, yesterday, I bought OTC of anti-allergic and anti-atopic drugs. But, only anti-allergic drugs and anti-atopic ointment for 28 days, it needs over 5,000 yens. Under insurance, pre...

In Japan, there is one medication named Alli, which reduce metabolism and absorption of fat. The medication is categorized as BTC(Behind The Counter), because we can't buy without permission of pharmacists. In Japan, before we buy Alli, we need to record our own weight, waist circumference and percent body fat for 30 days. I want Alli to lose my weight, so I've recorded them for 5 days. But it's very troubling to record them. I have to continue the records for 30 days to get Alli. In Japan, Alli is almost dealt in Nihon Chouzai. Many stores of Nihon Chouzai are located in the center of Sendai city. They're very accessible, but anyway, I have to continue the record of my weight, and so on.

I began to study Financial Planner 3th Grade. It's OK for me if I make my sense of money ordinary by it. But there are many difficult phrases and calculation, such as Future Value Factor, Present Worth Factor and so on. And it's also difficult to calculate by them. In this way, can I pass the examination or not? Originally, I think money is neither clean nor dirty. But  I want my money to use for my desire and contribution to society. I've recorded my revenue and expenditure in Excel. But is it insufficient to this? My emotion has been unstable, and I can't control sufficiently. Can't I stop wasting money for eating and drinking liquor? I think it doesn't relationship between qualification of FP 3th Grade and controlling of my emotion. But will it go well if I can get qualification of FP 3th Grade?

Tomorrow will be the three-way interview. But, I couldn't accomplish my goal that I reduce my BMI less than 30.0. Without becoming inflammable and mad, I'm continuing to deal with my task calmly. But I'm a bit frustrated because my suggestion that we should put down English in our pharmacies more doesn't adopt. In fact, it's OK for me to only continue to work calmly. My president said the operating profit of our company has increased more than she expected for 2 years. Therefore, my bonus payroll in this year was more than last years. But until when will it continue? Amazon Pharmacy has advanced in Japan and is there the possibility that prescriptions in our pharmacies will be devoured to Amazon? Someone said we should be careful for the service after customers come in more than the service before they come in. But I'm not good to care meticulous service after customers enter. More customers before entering our pharmacies should increase by ourselves. By the way...

Hakkenden is the story, that Hakkenshi, eight justice samurai, destroy evils and revitalize Satomi Clan. But some people says that villains in Hakkenden are more fascinated than heroes in Hakkenden. In this point, it's similar to Disney Villains. Many people prefer Disney Villains to Disney Hero and Princess. In common points, of villains in Hakkenden and Disney Villains, ・Commonly, they're loyal to their own greed. ・Some has "fascination of darkness" because they're thoroughly evil.(Funamushi in Hakkenden, Scar in Lion King and so on) ・The other has "cute fascination" because they're somehow stupid and can't be hated thoroughly.(Aboshi Samoziro in Hakkenden, Captain Hook in Peter Pan and so on) By the way, Aboshi Samoziro in anime "The Hakkenden" rather has fascination of darkness. I think Mother Gothel in Tangled has "cute fascination" rather than "fascination of darkness". People can't live thinking only good ...

In the morning, I've been lost in thought about my future and skipped walking. Nevertheless, I made spaghetti as breakfast.     In previous time, I said supervisors rushing desperately is the past because strict hierarchy in workplace has collapsed by globalization and IT-zation. I have desperate personality but short-tempered, so I'm not suitable to a supervisor. But then, what should I do? Is it the best for me to just get by somehow by while not to lose your temper or get violent with people? It's waste of talent if I can't find any place able to use the qualification of pharmacist and TOEIC 840 score even if I have them. How is my future in my present workplace? Soon, I'll take three-way interview, but if the worst case, is there possibility that I'll be fired from my president?     Anyway, it's no way except continuing to invest and use English, about me. I want to get qualification of Financial Planner 3th Grade.

As scheduled, I went to the obesity hospital. But the doctor said, "My main remedy is alimentary therapy, and medication is supporting part." I inform him that I could lose my weight by using Parmodia, the anti- triglyceride medication. then, the doctor said, "Anyway, I can't prescript any medications unless I see your blood tests. Please reserve the blood test day." So, I reserved the blood test in next Thursday. But I was downhearted. Is it difficult for me to lose my weight unless my unstable personality as the developmental disorder change? And I went to Ootoya, the restaurant, and ate tha nanban chicken. I felt it was fatty but delicious. Soon, I'll take the three-ways interview. I have to apologize to my president that I couldn't lose my BMI less than 30.0. I want to take Alli, the anti-obesity drug, but for it, I have to record the lifestyle for 1 month from today. Is it that all is over?

My quotas are, 1. In English studying, I should write English in this blog or X(former twitter), or make video of my English speaking for 30 seconds. 2. In work, I should make one goal each one day, and finish it within this day. 3. About alcohol, I should drink nothing or 40g most (5% beer 1000ml). 4. About wasting to eat and drink, I should spend less than 500 yen each one day. But these quotas have become a mere shell of completely, except studying English. I had drunk 9% Chu-hai again and wasted more 1,000 yens to eat and drink. But, I can no more control my emotion and my appetite, so I'll go to an obesity hospital. I said before, that I'll fail if relying on only my passion and guts. But I can't believe I've failed to accomplish my quotas only one-half month. Should I revise my quotas? If I can control my emotion and appetite, I won't need to waste money to eat and drink liquor. But, somehow, it's no use. Is it only way that I give up with good grace?

My weight has become over 92 kg. By own, I can't control all of my weight, appetite and emotion, so I decided to consult obesity clinic.     On second thoughts, I'm a developmental disorder and my emotion is unstable by all means. In this case, I've continued to my career as a pharmacist and an investor.       Dragon sakura 2 said, "To make good peers, we should go to Tokyo University." But about my peer of developmental disorders, "Without working, he's stayed at home." "Except working in Pre-employment transition centers B type, he always goes to game centers and restaurant." "He had been a hikikomori since long periods, but he's gone to an Employment Support Center recently." And most of them are very fat. Thinking about it, I've been desperate and lived like a chariot horse. Instead, I can't control both my emotion and my appetite, and I'm easily agitated and inflammable.    ...

I made Mihoniumu-san(@gupmihoniumu, key(gaigaigai123)) draw a picture. This time is, "Makoto, Chiyo and Arisu are imbibing the taste for threesome." Chiyo: It felt good...Makoto, please say hello to us for future. Makoto: Chiyo-san...you're the biggest part of me. Arisu too. Arisu: Makoto-san… This illustration is very good because it makes me chuckling. Recently, I'm like neurosis because my atopic disease has become very bad and I've been a bit insomnia. This illustration will make like vitamins for me. Recently, my productivity at my work has been the worst, so I have to vitalize by this illustration.

Mr. Horiba Masao, the founder of Horiba Manufacture, said, "You should use '4 selves', separately." Thinking about myself, there are many selves, such as "myself as the one in my company", "myself as a client to that illustrator", "myself as the one of my church". I can't choose the true myself across them. But, I think that, "'As myself in my company', I somehow understand pharmaceutical knowledge and English a bit more than others, and inform strategy and information of my president." and "'As the client of that illustrator', I love School Days same to him, and promote his illustrations to foreign, by using English and requesting illustrations about the romance, of Itou Makoto and Garupan captains, and Hakkenshi series." and "'As the one of my church', I communicate foreigners with English and join the Chorus Group and sing songs." I can't abandon any of selves. But my real p...

Recently, I've not thought I want to go abroad. For myself, I'm alarming. Vaguely, I want to go to Shanghai. Why? Perhaps, because my opportunity using English has increased exceptionally in Japan, such as my blog and my church. It's also OK for that, but how about my dream that I watch various things in Japan and foreign. Will I be satisfied to so when I will be about to die? Perhaps, the reason I want to go abroad may be that I want to use English anyway. In Japan, the opportunity using English is a far few, so most Japanese can't learn English very well. Both inbound tourists and foreign laborers will increase, so we should learn English more by using it. Should I confirm my dream again? Of course, I shouldn't make my pharmaceutical knowledge and English ability decrease.

My mother has recommended me to take Financial Planner 3th Grade. Then, what should I do? Of course, my sense of money is loose. It's OK for me if I get normal sense of money by getting qualification of FP 3th Grade. But can I get normal sense of money? In other case, she's recommended me to learn Chinese. Because, in Close Up Gendai in NHK, Chinese residents in Japan have increased. I have gotten qualification of HSK2, but I'm troubled to study HSK3, so I had given up tentatively. Now, I can somehow manage to use English, but it will be the best for me to be able to speak and write Chinese. My vision has been still abstract. But it's OK for me to be able to improve foreign language by talking to foreigners, and invite foreigners to my pharmacies. It's important of both sense of money and linguistic skills. What should I do?

Today and tomorrow, my parents will be in Chiba. So, I'm only one in home, without interfered from my parents. Today, I went to the psychiatry to take counseling and get medication such as Concerta. Recently, I drunk 9% Chu-hai again, so I consulted the counselor about it. "Can you change 7% Chu-hai?" he answered. Anyway, today and tomorrow, I decided to skip alcohol. For future, I'll think about it in this time. If always, I go to the spa such as Sunpia Onsen, but today, I returned home earlier and I took laundry my futon. Because, recently, my back and chest have terrible atopic disease, and they are always itchy. I thought my futon had been fulfilled with allergen such as ticks. Without interference from my parents, I took one quiet day with my favorite ramen. Always, I have craving to liquor but I must bear today. Today was Sendai Aoba Festival but it was not affordable for me to watch because it was rainy.

There was an elementary school student, who can speak English about the catastrophe in Hiroshima of atomic bomb. So, I thought I can't be defeated from him. And some Japanese medications such as Netsu-sama seat/Be KOOOL has been introduced by Chinese. So I want to make Japanese pharmacies suitable to foreigners more. Anyway, inbound tourists and foreign laborers will increase more for future. But some pharmacies in Japan can use only cash. It's inconvenient for foreigners. many foreigners use credit cards and code payment. On 2024, in Japan, the cashless payment ratio is 42.8% [METI, 2025] It's insufficient to me. Foreign laborers in Japan have to join the health insurance, same to Japanese laborers. [マイナビ, 2024] But, on account of the wall of language and so on, some foreign labor can pay premiums for health insurance. If with interfering of Japanese who can use English very well, it will be helpful to them. It would be better for me that Japanese TOEIC score will ascend, ...

I'm suitable follower rather than leader. I'm specialize in pharmaceutical knowledge and English a little, but my self-control ability and popularity is nothing at all. In other hand, I'm generous to foreigners and I'm OK to voting rights for foreign residents if they want to incorporate opinions of minority. Because I may want to go to see Japan and abroad. As writing previously, what I can do is only logistical support. From this view, I should think about my present doing, such as investing stock, my present work and so on. Usually, I'm privileged. I should take the risk and give someone more aggressively. But today's Sleep Apnea Syndrome outpatient service, I got first hypertension drug. I can't control my emotion and appetite, so my taking medication will increase for future. In short term, I have to use dividend in June for investing stocks. But, I have to leave the cash for the travel of Tateyama and the cataract surgery. Anyway, I've understood I...

I got up early, 4:00 A.M. So I made the spaghetti salad again. Because spaghetti salad can take mayonnaise and vegetables. I can eat broccoli easily. Cooking is the best method to relieve my stress. But I see that my cuisine is repetitive, such as spaghetti and pork. What cuisine should I make?

I got 3 ANA Shareholder Discount Voucher. But in July, I'll take surgery of a cataract, so I'm not likely to use airplanes, including going abroad. So I decided to sell ticket reseller them. However, selling value was only 400 yen each voucher. The same shareholder discount vouchers were sold as 1,500 yen. Anyway, this difference will become the profit of the ticket reseller. So, I got 1,200 yen, and decided to use it for buying Kao's stocks. Dragon Sakura's quote, "Weak persons are always exploited: They're also exploited when buying something and they're also exploited when selling something." is true. I must become stronger, as the investor and the pharmacist. Anyway, I have to use the rest cash for investing and make use of money effectively.

Yesterday was Mother's Day. I bought a preserved flower for my mother, but I didn't understand whether my mother would have joy or not. So, I ran away for liquor. Before it, I drunk 500ml non-alcohol beer, but it was not effective . So, today, I didn't sleep very well, I'm very sleepy now. I drunk Monster, the energy drink. I've not been able to escape alcohol very much. Tomorrow, I'll go to alcoholic hospital. What should I say to the doctor?

In three-way meeting of previous day, I recommended, "We should increase putting down English in our pharmacy for inbound tourists, shouldn't we?" But my president rejected, "If we do so, the amount of information will be too much, and patients will be confused. " I was very disappointed. In my favorite pharmacy, I recommended same recommendation a bit, but the pharmacy hasn't act yet. I'm also very disappointed to it. Do these mean that hospitals and pharmacies in Japan are closed-society and conservative? Inbounds tourists has increased in Japan, and some medications such as "Netsusama-Seat(熱さまシート)/Be KOOOL" have been introduced as "Shin-Yaku（神薬）/the god medications" in China. However, if just waiting, foreign customers will never increase. And our pharmacy is very small, it's not affordable to buy prescription robots. Anyway, I want to make foreign customers increase. For it, we have to compromise to foreigners by increasing En...

To lose my weight, I've become limited not to eat noodle-related cuisine. But spaghetti is very delicious. The noodle-related cuisine is versatile, I've made various spaghetti-related cuisine. Particularly, it's very delicious when I mix spaghetti and cheese. The taste is smooth texture. For future, I can only brown rice as the staple food. But what should I cook with brown rice?

Today, I got bonus payroll. But what should I use it? Should I invest stocks such as Ajinomoto more, or should I take a collection for my favorite church? Thinking about it, eventually, I decided to use 60% for investment and take a collection for my favolite church 40%. I'm living by own, but I've paid money for various thing. I've understood finally since I've lived 38 years, "What I can do is only logistical support." It's also the logistical support that I buy stocks such as Ajinomoto and that I inform my president of medical information and disease. But can I use my ability, such as pharmaceutical knowledge, English and so on, more effectively? I'm a bit troubled for communicating foreigners in my church with English. Anyway, I should use pharmaceutical knowledge and English more, and should become used them.

About both my weight and drinking alcohol, I've become that the wheel comes full circle. My weight has come back to more than 90kg, and I had taken 9% Chu-hai and often vomited. On Second thoughts, is it impossible for me to decrease my weight? Eating is the best effective method to relieve my stress. About alcohol, I found many Abilify to be taken as needed, so I decide to take it instead drinking alcohol. Actually, I become relaxed if taking Abilify to be taken as needed. If Abilify to be taken as needed become none, I think again in this time.

In Japan too, hate speech is the problem. In the case of Japan, the object is Korean in Japan, Korean and Chinese, foreigners and so on. Japan has a long history of conflict with Korean and Chinese. It may be similar to a conflict history of Greece and Turkey. Whether participants of hate speech have been terrible from foreigners or not? Or whether they went abroad and became the victims of crime or not? In my case, I have 840 TOEIC score, and in my favorite church, there are some foreign Christians. I'm a bit troubled to communicate them with English, but they're not bad persons. Of course, I'm a development disorder, with Asperger and ADHD. It's common that foreigners in Japan and developmental disorders are minority. Can't Japan also incorporate the view of foreigners in Japan and developmental disorders? Having both good point and bad point, Japanese education is positioning side by side and want us as "normal" and "neutral". But now, it'...

From May 3rd to 5th, in Tagajo Cultural Center, there was one exhibition, "Nyatten/Meow Exhibition". I went to Nyatten with my mother on May 5th. Various goods related cats were sold. But I was the most shocked to the information that over 2000 abandoned cats are disposed with dioxide carbon gas every year, not mercy killing. In the case of Japan, the raw restriction keeping pets is loose. Ms. Sugimoto Aya, the leader of Eva( https://www.youtube.com/@Eva-bo9pd ), PIIF of protecting animals pointed out it strictly in her presentation. In Japan, many malicious animals breeding facility and pet cafes, but their punishment is loose now. Eva is activating signature campaign to make punishment stricter. But I think there are many harassments to Eva, particularly from malicious animal breeding facility dominated yakuzas directly. About myself, when I was an elementary school student, I kept two bengalese finch. But eventually, I didn't care for them little, so I made them die. S...

"In human like lifestyle", I'm sinking into the garbage. "In human like lifestyle", I'm working like slave by nasty persons about my unwilling work. "In human like lifestyle", I'm masturbating with Ona-Hole by picking up the free porno pictures in the internet. Dammit! (By Itahashi Kiyoshi in Ushijima: The Loan Shark) This is one quote in Ushijima: The Loan shark. About myself, my work isn't my unwilling task, and my president is very kind. But, recently, I've not been able to accomplish my quotas. I've wasted over 1000 yen to eat and drink liquor. And I had drunk chu-hai again. "To increase my productivity and continue to work, I'll lose my weight and skip drinking alcohol." If I think so, I should have made my mind relieve On second thoughts, I'm easily agitated and inflammable. I'm very short-tempered and have few coordination. My personality is like “the savage beast” or “the tamed viper”. In other words, I...

This song is very beautiful. This music makes me relaxed Lonely, I'm Mr. Lonely （孤独だ、とても孤独だ） I have nobody for my own （僕のものになっている人は誰もいない） I am so lonely, I'm Mr. Lonely （孤独だ、とても孤独だ） Wish I had someone to call on the phone （誰か電話に出る人がいることを望む） Now I'm a soldier, a lonely soldier （今、僕は兵士だ、孤独な兵士だ） Away from home through no wish of my own （なんの希望もないまま僕は家から出ている） That's why I'm lonely, I'm Mr. Lonely （だから僕は孤独だ、孤独だ） I wish that I could go back home （できるなら家に帰りたい） Letters, never a letter （手紙は何もない） I get no letters in the mail （郵便ポストに1枚の手紙もない） I've been forgotten, yes, forgotten （忘れ去られたんだな、僕は） Oh, how I wonder, how is it I failed （どうしてこうなったのか知りたい） Now I'm a soldier, a lonely soldier （今、僕は兵士だ、孤独な兵士だ） Away from home through no wish of my own （なんの希望もないまま家から出ている） That's why I'm lonely, I'm Mr. Lonely （だから僕は孤独だ、孤独だ） I wish that I could go back home （できるなら家に帰りたい）

I've continued to cook spaghetti-related cuisine. Today, I made mayonnaise spaghetti salad. My mother made hijiki salad too much, so I added it into spaghetti. And, after a long time, I made tarako spaghetti. It was very spicy, but delicious. Cooking is the best method to relieve my stress.

I bought stock of SoftBank Group with 2000 yens. Paypay Securities is useful because we can buy stocks by 1000 yens. My habit is that I buy certain stocks with same amount on certain days every month. And I've been impatient for waiting the day. Thoroughly, I find my personality is far more hot-blooded than others. In Western, "Investment is the animal-spirits, not the gamble." In other words, investment is both ambition and passionate. I want to believe this quote. And, 1. Dragon Sakura 2's quote, "It's the sin that we don't make them challenge." 2. My personality is far more hot-blooded than others. So, it's fit to me that investment is the animal-spirits. It's also important for me to increase my revenue. But I want to make my favorite company prosperous, such as Ajinomoto. My tools for surviving are decided as pharmaceutics, English and investment.