SPIRIT's Diary

 Recently, I can’t sleep very well. Because I may take alcohol too much. Recently, I got a medication for insomnia. When taking the medication, I could sleep for first some hours. But after it, I couldn’t sleep anymore. On second tnought, it seems that alcohol is no good for good sleeping. Cani I have only way that I quit taking alcohol completely? This is the sleeping record on September 1st, without taking alcohol. Is it insufficient? Because I became sleepy about 13:30. Anyway, today is work from home, I was very lucky. Alcohol always makes me relaxed and fun, but make my sleeping worse. At any rate, is there no way except stopping taking alcohol completely, to make sleeping better?

On Saturday, I went to see my psychiatric counselor and talked with them about my excessive spending on PixAI. Then on Sunday, perhaps because it was the end of the month, my regular allotment of PixAI credits came in. By Monday, I had used them all up, but I did not buy any additional credits. The question is whether I can keep this up. One important key to my excessive spending on PixAI is this fact about myself: "I am a devoted hime-danshi - a male fan of yuri - and yuri excites me more than it does most people." When I opened up to my counselor about this, they advised me: "Couldn't you go to a store and buy books like that instead?" I sometimes find digital copies of that kind of doujinshi (the so-called "thin books") online, but they still do not quite satisfy me. Anyway, once my regular credits came in, I resumed generating "a yuri anime featuring Yukime and Ritsuko Takahashi from Hell Teacher Nube," and I also resumed generating ...

“I realized that I'm a hime-danshi—that is, someone whose heart races for yuri more than most people.” Once I realized that, I somehow thought I had found a breakthrough that might keep me from overspending on PixAI. And yet yesterday, I went and overspent on PixAI again. I haven't learned my lesson at all. On top of that, I heard from the travel agency yesterday, and perhaps because of the recent turmoil in the Middle East, I found out that the fuel-related charges and travel costs will be higher than I expected. At this rate, in the worst-case scenario, I might have to sell even more of my stocks. (As for social lending [crowdfunding], I can't liquidate it until a certain period of time has passed.) The AI animation I had PixAI generate after, once again, overspending on it was: “Yuri between Kaoru Kamiya and Megumi Takani from Rurouni Kenshin.” This one, too, was something I came up with “just going with the flow,” and had generated “just going with the flow,” I guess. (...

I got a requested illustration from Mihoniumu-san(@gupmihoniumu, key(gaigaigai123)) This time was, "Itou Makoto and Kay are sleeping in the bed." Kay: Makoto...I love you. Makoto: I love you too. Actually, from this illustration, I made two animations by using PixAI and PowerDirector. However, drawing is very explicit, so I hesitate to publish in this blog. I'm wondering how I use the 2 animations. At any rate, both PixAI and Powerdirector make me surprised. We can many things by using both of them.

Lately, I've really been slacking off at work. The progress on my reports about diseases and new drugs has also been much slower than it used to be. I also want to attract more foreign tourists to our pharmacy, but lately I haven't been writing reports about how to serve them or about English conversation for customer service either. I can't keep going like this. I actually want to attract LGBTQ customers to our pharmacy as well. The problem is that there aren't any LGBTQ people around me, and although I myself have a developmental disability, my sexual orientation is straight. (The term "normal" can be discriminatory.) And as I wrote up to this point, I suddenly remembered something I had completely forgotten: I'm a huge hime-danshi. People who know the term will already be familiar with it,  but a hime-danshi is a man who likes yuri. Here, "yuri" does not mean the lily flower; it refers to imagined romantic or same-sex relationships between wom...

As a hobby and to relieve my stress, I continue to cook. Yesterday's breakfast was "The dipping noodles with tempura flakes and pork saute". Tddaay’s breakfast was "The sausage salad". It wasn't bad the sausage salad. But the dipping noodles with tempura flakes and pork saute was much more delicious than it. Texture of tempura flakes and pork had been mixed very well. And soup of dipping noodle was a bit deep but good. We should have added some water into the soup. I always cook spaghetti-related cuisines. But if so, I'm not very satisfied. Once in a while, I want to increase repertories of cuisine, by making such cuisines.

In this Friday, I cooked both breakfast and dinner. Breakfast was, "Mayonnaise spaghetti salad" And dinner was, "Soy-sauced pork saute". Both of them ware very delicious. The melting texture of mayonnaise was good. And the crispy texture of pork was good accent. Soy sauce added to pork was also very good. It was the best breakfast and dinner. Because of relieving my stress by cooking, I'm likely to remain a little cash. Tentatively, it's good to me to remain my cash until September For now, it's a relief that it looks like I'll be able to hold onto some cash until September.

Today too, I got up at 4:30 A.M. Ordinarlly, my father makes breakfast, but he only miso soup and mozuku. Particularly, the taste of mozuku and vinegar is terrible to me and drink it with stopping my breath. It's better for me to cook breakfast by myself. In this time, I cooked "Oyakodon" In the result, my father said soup of oyakodon was a bit strong taste. It seemed that the amount of dipping sauce was a bit much. But it wasn't very bad. The texture of chicken thighs was soft and the taste of eggs was mild. It was successful!! Rice bowl series such as oyakodon are always filling. I want to make rice bowl series more.

I have always told myself, “Politics and the economy are not things I can do anything about by myself. All I can do is focus on what I am capable of doing right now.” And yet, look at the mess I have made of things this month. “I couldn’t stop myself from overspending on PixAI, nor could I control the money I wasted on overeating and excessive drinking. In the end, I even had to sell some of my stocks just to cover my credit card payments. That goes against the principles of dollar-cost averaging, and it also goes against my own belief in contributing to society through investment. I’m really disappointed in myself.” Recently, I have often been calming myself down by listening to The Song of Hakaider while carefully looking at the group illustrations I commissioned from that artist: “The Hakkenshi of the Harem Protagonists” and “The Hakkenshi of the Girls und Panzer Captains.” (I mean the versions in which each of them is showing their spirit bead.) Apparently, though, even that is not...

I got up at 4:30 A.M. So I decided to cook again. This time was, “The Sausage and Salmon” The combination of sausage and salmon may be mismatch. However, I didn’t expect, but it was very delicious! It seemed that the light taste of sausage and salmon mixed successfully. That's also interesting combination. By selling a part of my equities, I made cash for paying credit cards. But it's still insufficient. For a while, I can't spend money for eating and drinking sufficiently. However, it's also better than the past.

By using Domo AI and Seedance 2.5, I tried to generate AI animations, "Harem Protagonists as Hakkenshi" and "Garupan Captain Group as Hakkenshi" , based on Nansou Satomi Hakkenden. It's useful because we can generate 30 seconds video by Seedance 2.5/ My trying animation is "Hakkenshi/The Eight Dog Warriors are walking to here shoulder by shoulder." Thumbnails are below: Their weapon is a bit different. Anyway, at first, I generated 2 animations of 16s It wasn't very bad. However, it looks the protagonists are only Inue Shinbei Group (Kasugano Harukka and Shimada Arisu) And their wepons are a bit different (For example, Anchovy's Inukai Genpachi's jitte has become gone). And I tried to 30 seconds versions of each group. As I expected, the details were different from original, (such as Yuuki Rito's Inusaka Keno's weapon, Itou Makoto's Inuzuka Shino's hear and so on.) About Garupan Captain Group as Hakkenshi too, the clothes o...

In the end, I couldn’t rein in my excessive spending on PixAI or the money I was wasting on alcohol, so I reluctantly decided to sell some of my shares. Since they’re worth more than I originally paid, I suppose it counts as taking profits. (I didn’t buy them through a NISA account, so some of the proceeds will go toward taxes.) For the moment, I can rest easy because I’ve kept the money for my trip to Germany in a time deposit. Still, I can’t let my guard down when there’s no telling how much fuel prices may rise. I was born during Japan’s economic bubble, in a country that had remained at peace since the Pacific War. Even now, as the number of working poor continues to rise in Japan, people like us still maintain a reasonably high standard of living. I ought to give back as much of that good fortune as I can, but my own weaknesses make it difficult. Even if I tried to give back through physical labor, my mental endurance is far below that of most people. (If I were told to clear rubb...

Ever since it was published in the late Edo period, Kyokutei Bakin’s (Takizawa Bakin’s) Nansō Satomi Hakkenden (hereafter Hakkenden) has been widely read by people of all ages and genders. A major turning point came in 1886 (Meiji 18), when Tsubouchi Shōyō, who at the time was president of Tokyo Imperial University (now the University of Tokyo), published Shōsetsu Shinzui (The Essence of the Novel). In this work, Shōyō advocated realism in fiction, arguing that “novels should focus on depicting human psychology.” At the same time, he went so far as to argue that didactic tales of rewarding good and punishing evil, such as Hakkenden, were outdated. From that point onward, the foundations of the modern Japanese novel in the Meiji era—including Romanticism and Naturalism—are said to have taken root, while Hakkenden came to be regarded as old-fashioned and gradually ceased to be widely read. As a fan of Hakkenden, I have complicated feelings about Shōsetsu Shinzui. On the one hand, I feel ...

I got up at 4:30 A.M. So I cooked again to releive my stress. This time was "The dressed salad of fried chickens and sausage" I also added mayonnaise and broccoli. So, as always, the taste was like melting. The taste of fried chickens was good. I've continued to spend my depressed days because I had wasted money for PixAI, liquor and so on. But by cooking, I could make my stress relieve a bit. For wasting money, I'll pay money by selling equities of Canon.

I got up at 4:30 A.M. again. So I cooked again. I wanted to make yakisoba, but noodle was nothing. So I decided to cook fried vegetables. The taste was light flavor. I wanted to add pork more. But such cuisine is not bad. And I have to lose my weight. As always, I'm feeling like worn out both physically and emotionally. I want to deal with it, but I've not come up the good method. Should I continue to cook I like? I often expect too much of myself, so I should be OK when I could just finish cooking.

Yesterday, I met peers of developmental disorder. But when returning home, I wasted money again, for both paying PixAI and buying liquor. So I became very depressed. I'm always thinking, I'm thinking that can I do something about these much wasting? Honestly, animations generated by PixAI are fun. Today, it just hit me. I often go to art museums, such as Miyagi Art Museum. But it's been rare that i appreciate arts, except Okamoto Taro, Pablo Picasso's opuses and so on. I go to other arts at once after I see one art I should watch arts more closely. I'm requesting illustrations to one illustrator by paying money. To relieve my stress without paying money, I have to watch his illustrations more closely. I love Nansou Satomi Hakkenden, and made him illustrate Hakkenden-related illustrations. I have to watch more closely. To relieve my stress, I changed wallpapers of my iPhone and PC. Of cource, the wallpaper was Hakkenden-related illustrations. I'm volatile and hot...

I'm very depressed, because yesterday too, I wasted money for PixAI and snacks too much. So to relieve this stress, I cooked again. This time was,  "Black Fried Rice with salmon". I added salmon, ketchup and mayonnaise into black rice. So it balanced both chewy texture of black rice and the taste of melting of mayonnaise I made it as breakfast, so I could make my father pleased. The filling was also sufficient. Somehow, I want to relieve my stress by cooking, reduce money for PixAI and liquor and invest more money for equities.

“Oshikatsu”—One of the Keywords in Today’s Japanese Market For a long time, I thought that oshikatsu—activities devoted to supporting one’s favorite person, character, or work—had nothing to do with me. That was because I rarely felt particularly passionate about a specific celebrity or fictional character. Apparently, however, there is a difference between simply being a fan and engaging in oshikatsu: While fans tend to support something passively, people engaged in oshikatsu actively try to spread awareness of their favorite subject’s appeal and activities through social media and other channels. In that case, since I want to introduce Nansō Satomi Hakkenden to people overseas, perhaps what I am doing can be described as “Hakkenden oshikatsu.” ChatGPT seems to agree. My ultimate goals, however, are to attract more international tourists to Tateyama in Chiba Prefecture and to use that as a stepping stone toward making Japan a major tourism-oriented country. When I asked ChatGPT about ...

I've forgotten to contract with LitVideo, another animation generating systems. LitVideo has Seedance 2.0 VIP, one latest anime generating system. So I tried to make animations, " 'Harem Protagonists as Hakkenshi' and 'Garupan Captain Group as Hakkenshi' are walking to here." Reference Illustrations were two below; The Result was, About Harem Protagonists as Hakkenshi: All of 8 people appeared, but their weapons were a bit different from original. About Garupan Captain Group as Hakkenshi: only 5 people appeared. It seems, that even about Seedance 2.0 VIP, the system is immature to show 8 people with correct height and costumes. However, I expect evolution AI anime generating system. Actually, I want to watch animations, that Harem Protagonists and Garupan Captain Group, as Hakkenshi/The Eight Dog Warriors, are battling to enemies iercely with covered in blood. Casting of "Harem Protagonists as Hakkenshi" and "Garupan Captain Group as Hakke...