Extremely Unstable!-2

I've been mentally unstable and can't control my emotion.

So, this has been the biggest disorder to reduce my weight and my amount of drinking alcohol.

When I was working in pharmacy, the evaluate of my self-control ability was also the lowest in my abilities.

Actually, twice, I bored a hole in the restroom of my workplace.

It has been never changed until now.

I work in the workplace which understand my disorder, and live in some high lifestyle and some own assets.

But, otherwise, I couldn't control my emotion, I would have slayed others and go to jail.

Was my "Oya-Gacha/Parents-lots" good...?

The relation of my parents was very bad, and I'd been taken physical punishments from my mother...

Anyway, I think money is the tool to improve myself and contribute the society, not evil.

I need some money to maintain my present lifestyle and my assets.

In previous time, I said, "Earning money itself is not evil, isn't it."

Some people would say, "You become defiant, don't you?!"

But, if it's so, it's OK to me.

As Mr. Patrick Harlan said, I say, "I just use money to make remember and experience."