SPIRIT's Diary

It hasn't gone well for me about "10 second rule", which is that I bear when it occurs my impulse to eat and drink. But For 2 days, I've skipped alcohol. Over and over, I've understood my weakest point is self-control ability. When I think more, my supervisor pointed out me that my self-control ability is weak and I become easily irritated when I was a pharmacist in the pharmacy. I couldn't overcome it, I've become distraught when the pharmacy was crowded, and had to quit from the pharmacy. Until now, this weak point has never changed, or it seems it has become worse. I couldn't be patient to eat and drink. It's that my personality is ferocious, isn't it? From next month, my payroll will raise and I'll get about 190,000 yens every month. But the value in Japan is also raising. Can I bear even if most of my assets are securities and social-lending. I can't control my impulse, like Dr. Jekyll. When my parents passed away, what should I do...

Yesterday, I skipped taking alcohol and bear with non-alcoholic beer. So I could sleep very well, so I've become relaxed since this morning. But, in other hand, my father didn't look vigorous. So we skipped walking in the morning. Because it's also too hot. I'm contributing to make text of pharmaceutical English conversation in my job now. My president accepted my idea and published English texts I made in my company. It's very good if it will continue and our pharmacy will be able to take in more inbounds. Foreigners in Japan is increasing and will become a lion share.

Yesterday, there is a festival of 24 Hour TV in Kotodai Park. So I went to Kotodai Park, and drunk beer too much. I drew a blank in the night of yesterday and I vomited three times in today's morning. I can't forget the fluffy feeling when I drink the liquor. It's no good, so I took cyanamide, the inhibitor of alcohol metabolism. I have to take good care of my brain more. It's strange to say this, the brain of bilingual is activating more than monolingual. I can speak English to some extent, so I have to take good care of my brain.

It's said JICA is flamed now. One of my peers in my church works in JICA, so I wanted talked about it with her, but I couldn't do it. She can speak with foreign peer of my church very well and shiny. I want to become like her. From my experience, the best way to improve English ability is using English thoroughly. As Dragon Sakura 2 pointed out, most of Japanese don't use English, so they can't improve English. I've also learned English by writing English in this blog and SNS, such as Experimental English Outgoing. In EXPO 2025, English is written in exhibition. I think, that we shouldn't care of be called "Americanized". Because we can learn language by using it. I want to learn English more, and inform Japanese culture of foreigners, such as Hakkenden.

I have a dream, that I want to watch various things in Japan and the world. But now, I'm likely to give up it. it hasn't gone well about saving money and "10 second rule", which is that I bear for 10 seconds when I have my impulse to eat and drink. I can bear for 10 seconds, but after it, I wasted money to eat and drink, such as Famichiki. And I have no methods except earning money effectively, such as making most of my assets the securities and social lending. is what I'm petulant at all the characteristic as my developmental disorder? In the short term, I have to go to Osaka and watch Osaka EXPO 2025. My father decided to accompany me, and today, we're planning to make schedule about EXPO 2025. I want to watch Italian Pavilion at first, but it's likely to crowded, so I want to Singapore Pavilion and German Pavilion instead. I'm planning enter the west gate in 1st and 3rd day, and the east gate in 2nd and 4th day. I want to watch pavilion near to ente...

This song is advertising song of "Takefuji （日本語：武富士） ", which occurred scandal. Recently, I've not heard of Takefuji. What has Takefuji become? Everybody jumping （みんなとべ） Jumping （とべ） Jumping （とべ） Jump....let's go! （とべ、いくぞ）     It's got to be your love （あなたの愛になった） The only love I call （私が呼ぶ愛だけが） And you're （そしてあなたは） You are the angel of my life （私の人生の天使なのだ）     It's got to be my heart （私の心になった） Being beside you all night long, and oh （あなたが 1 日夜を明かして私のそばにいたことは） I wanna be closer to you, my love （あなたともっと近づきたい） Until the day I die （私が死ぬその日までずっと） I'll be your everything （私はあなたのすべてになるんだ） Hey, whoa oh whoa oh-oh (whoa oh whoa oh-oh) （ああ、うれしい） Whoa oh oh oh!     Let's go! （いくぞ！） Won't you take my hand （どうして私の手を取らないのか） And I will be your man （私はあなたの男なのに） So tonight will come （今夜は） Dance the night away （一緒に踊る夜なのに）     One and one is two （ 1 人と 1 人で 2 人） Don't you be so cruel （どうか冷酷にならないでくれ） Synchronized love is what we've got to do （私と一緒になること...

Since long time, I haven't studied Financial Planner 3rd Grade while I'm too busy of doing DomoAI and PixAI. And it hasn't gone well of "my 10 seconds rule" for suspending my impulse to eat and drink liquor. I drunk liquor for 2 days. It's good experience that I learned DomoAI and PixAI. And I learned that we can make fake videos easily now. But I can't take examination of FP 3th Grade in September. More thinking, I found my personality is impulsive and instinctive. I act suddenly and easily. If my personality won't change for future, I may have to give up my dream that I watch various things in Japan and the world. Because I waste money to eat and drink and can't make money for travel. Well, I have impulsive and instinctive personality and it hasn't gone well for saving money. So I've taken most of my assets to securities and social lending, and I intend to earn money effectively. Yesterday, I received my renewal notice about my job earlie...