SPIRIT's Diary

I ate Billy Ramen, my favorite ramen, too much yesterday, so my weight has been likely to become 92kg. Changing into BMI, it's 31.9. It's a bit NG. I've not been careful about my weight. And I've skipped to take Alli, the inhibitor of absorption of fat. So it may be naturally for increasing my weight. I want to make my joyful life even if my life is short. So, it's not careful about my weight. But how's that? Recently, my blood pressure has continued to hypertension. It's also naturally, because the blood pressure increases if we're fat. I can drink only sweet drinks because my taste has changed. With it, I've taken sugar too much, it's also made me increase my weight. Should I reduce my weight?

I've become passive because I've felt my death too much. Counselors said, "You've lived aggressively until now, so it's your big weapon." So, it's NG.     I have to become aggressive again and do anymore. But what should I do? Recently, I only drunk liquor and felt relaxed time, after I finished today's task. I hate sweating, so I should spend money for society, shouldn't I?   What will I begin? At first, should I reduce taking caffeine and begin meditation again?

This is a recent record of drinking alcohol. Recently, I had drunk Shochu much, but honestly, I had drunk Shochu forcibly. Recently, my taste has changed. So I can't drink except tea, juice, drink and Chu-hai. I'm not allowed to drink caffeine from my parents, but I also often drink tea now. When I take tea or take GLP-1 agonist, I feel chest pains after a few hours. As I've thought, is my heart worse? My father told, that I'll become fat if I take sugar too much. But I can only drink juice, Chu-hai and so on. What should I do?

Today, I cooked again. I made egg sandwiches. My father praised me that the color of sandwiches was good. I often eat egg sandwiches from Family Mart. But it may be better for me to make them by own. I added mayonnaise to sandwiches, so the taste was smooth. These smooth tastes fitted to me very well. But I used 4 eggs, so it may be too many.

My weight has increased to 91.3kg. So I started to take GLP-1 agonist again. Originally, it's the medication for diabetes, but effective to lose weight. My mother said, "Your chest pain on Oct. 11th was for taking caffeine too much, not for GLP-1 agonist. You should take GLP-1 agonist again and decrease to take caffeine." But is it true? Anyway, I have to receive a letter of reference in the hospital of SAS, and go to bigger hospital to take examination for more detail. What did cause my chest pain?

I couldn't come up with what I want to write this blog, so I went out 2 entire days. And I ate sushi and a mackerel, and my weight has increased near 91kg again. More thinking about it, I've not walk sufficiently recently because we've been scared for encountering bears. Recently, appearance of bear has been much time in Miyagi too. And, my taste has changed, and I couldn't receive the taste of beer. And I want to drink sweet juice fiercely, so I often drink chu-hai and sweet juice. So my weight may increase. I don't care of my appearance and I'm prepared for my early death. But I'm likely not to fit my cloth, so I have to lose my weight.

I got a requested illustration from Mr. Mihoniumu(@gupmihoniumu, key(gaigaigai123)) again. This time is, "Turtle Team as Mito Komon." The roles are below: Kadotani Anzu as Tokugawa Mitsukuni Koyama Yuzu as Sasa Sukesaburo Kawashima Momo as Atsumi Kakunoshin Oarai is near to Mito, so this request is also very good. I also decided to request illustrations, "Hakkenshi's series" again.