SPIRIT's Diary

In Japan, there are holidays from Sept.19th to Sept. 23th. So they are called as "Silver Week" So, both yesterday and today too, I cooked again. The cuisine of yesterday was, "Gyoza" . However, I added wrong amount of water into gyoza. So texture of gyoza were soft and watery. For my father, he could eat them more easily than ordinary gyoza . Today's cuisine was, "Yakisoba". The texture of yakisoba noodle and the taste of sauce were moderate. So both I and my father could eat them too much. To relieve my stress, cooking is important to me. However, for a whopping of these 3 days, I paid money for PixAI too much. German travel is soon, so I have to save much money as possible. What should I do?

“I realized that I'm a hime-danshi—that is, someone whose heart races for yuri more than most people.” Once I realized that, I somehow thought I had found a breakthrough that might keep me from overspending on PixAI. And yet yesterday, I went and overspent on PixAI again. I haven't learned my lesson at all. On top of that, I heard from the travel agency yesterday, and perhaps because of the recent turmoil in the Middle East, I found out that the fuel-related charges and travel costs will be higher than I expected. At this rate, in the worst-case scenario, I might have to sell even more of my stocks. (As for social lending [crowdfunding], I can't liquidate it until a certain period of time has passed.) The AI animation I had PixAI generate after, once again, overspending on it was: “Yuri between Kaoru Kamiya and Megumi Takani from Rurouni Kenshin.” This one, too, was something I came up with “just going with the flow,” and had generated “just going with the flow,” I guess. (...

I have always told myself, “Politics and the economy are not things I can do anything about by myself. All I can do is focus on what I am capable of doing right now.” And yet, look at the mess I have made of things this month. “I couldn’t stop myself from overspending on PixAI, nor could I control the money I wasted on overeating and excessive drinking. In the end, I even had to sell some of my stocks just to cover my credit card payments. That goes against the principles of dollar-cost averaging, and it also goes against my own belief in contributing to society through investment. I’m really disappointed in myself.” Recently, I have often been calming myself down by listening to The Song of Hakaider while carefully looking at the group illustrations I commissioned from that artist: “The Hakkenshi of the Harem Protagonists” and “The Hakkenshi of the Girls und Panzer Captains.” (I mean the versions in which each of them is showing their spirit bead.) Apparently, though, even that is not...

I got up at 4:30 A.M. So I decided to cook again. This time was, “The Sausage and Salmon” The combination of sausage and salmon may be mismatch. However, I didn’t expect, but it was very delicious! It seemed that the light taste of sausage and salmon mixed successfully. That's also interesting combination. By selling a part of my equities, I made cash for paying credit cards. But it's still insufficient. For a while, I can't spend money for eating and drinking sufficiently. However, it's also better than the past.

In the end, I couldn’t rein in my excessive spending on PixAI or the money I was wasting on alcohol, so I reluctantly decided to sell some of my shares. Since they’re worth more than I originally paid, I suppose it counts as taking profits. (I didn’t buy them through a NISA account, so some of the proceeds will go toward taxes.) For the moment, I can rest easy because I’ve kept the money for my trip to Germany in a time deposit. Still, I can’t let my guard down when there’s no telling how much fuel prices may rise. I was born during Japan’s economic bubble, in a country that had remained at peace since the Pacific War. Even now, as the number of working poor continues to rise in Japan, people like us still maintain a reasonably high standard of living. I ought to give back as much of that good fortune as I can, but my own weaknesses make it difficult. Even if I tried to give back through physical labor, my mental endurance is far below that of most people. (If I were told to clear rubb...

I got up at 4:30 A.M. So I cooked again to releive my stress. This time was "The dressed salad of fried chickens and sausage" I also added mayonnaise and broccoli. So, as always, the taste was like melting. The taste of fried chickens was good. I've continued to spend my depressed days because I had wasted money for PixAI, liquor and so on. But by cooking, I could make my stress relieve a bit. For wasting money, I'll pay money by selling equities of Canon.

Yesterday, I met peers of developmental disorder. But when returning home, I wasted money again, for both paying PixAI and buying liquor. So I became very depressed. I'm always thinking, I'm thinking that can I do something about these much wasting? Honestly, animations generated by PixAI are fun. Today, it just hit me. I often go to art museums, such as Miyagi Art Museum. But it's been rare that i appreciate arts, except Okamoto Taro, Pablo Picasso's opuses and so on. I go to other arts at once after I see one art I should watch arts more closely. I'm requesting illustrations to one illustrator by paying money. To relieve my stress without paying money, I have to watch his illustrations more closely. I love Nansou Satomi Hakkenden, and made him illustrate Hakkenden-related illustrations. I have to watch more closely. To relieve my stress, I changed wallpapers of my iPhone and PC. Of cource, the wallpaper was Hakkenden-related illustrations. I'm volatile and hot...