SPIRIT's Diary

On Saturday, I went to see my psychiatric counselor and talked with them about my excessive spending on PixAI. Then on Sunday, perhaps because it was the end of the month, my regular allotment of PixAI credits came in. By Monday, I had used them all up, but I did not buy any additional credits. The question is whether I can keep this up. One important key to my excessive spending on PixAI is this fact about myself: "I am a devoted hime-danshi - a male fan of yuri - and yuri excites me more than it does most people." When I opened up to my counselor about this, they advised me: "Couldn't you go to a store and buy books like that instead?" I sometimes find digital copies of that kind of doujinshi (the so-called "thin books") online, but they still do not quite satisfy me. Anyway, once my regular credits came in, I resumed generating "a yuri anime featuring Yukime and Ritsuko Takahashi from Hell Teacher Nube," and I also resumed generating ...

Lately, I've really been slacking off at work. The progress on my reports about diseases and new drugs has also been much slower than it used to be. I also want to attract more foreign tourists to our pharmacy, but lately I haven't been writing reports about how to serve them or about English conversation for customer service either. I can't keep going like this. I actually want to attract LGBTQ customers to our pharmacy as well. The problem is that there aren't any LGBTQ people around me, and although I myself have a developmental disability, my sexual orientation is straight. (The term "normal" can be discriminatory.) And as I wrote up to this point, I suddenly remembered something I had completely forgotten: I'm a huge hime-danshi. People who know the term will already be familiar with it,  but a hime-danshi is a man who likes yuri. Here, "yuri" does not mean the lily flower; it refers to imagined romantic or same-sex relationships between wom...