SPIRIT's Diary

In Japan, there are holidays from Sept.19th to Sept. 23th. So they are called as "Silver Week" So, both yesterday and today too, I cooked again. The cuisine of yesterday was, "Gyoza" . However, I added wrong amount of water into gyoza. So texture of gyoza were soft and watery. For my father, he could eat them more easily than ordinary gyoza . Today's cuisine was, "Yakisoba". The texture of yakisoba noodle and the taste of sauce were moderate. So both I and my father could eat them too much. To relieve my stress, cooking is important to me. However, for a whopping of these 3 days, I paid money for PixAI too much. German travel is soon, so I have to save much money as possible. What should I do?

Yesterday, I went to the travel agency with my father. And we paid remaining balance for German travel, by credit cards. (By the way, after it, for 40 minutes, I had to walk to my father's favorite restaurant for lunch, it made me very perspiring and irritated. So I drunk liquor in this day.) However, I re-confirmed my household budget and balance when I had returned home, and I found my cash is insufficient for paying credit cards. It's about 70,000 yen insufficient. If it goes on like this, I have to sell my equity more again. In this month too, I paid money for PixAI excessively and also hadn't taken into account for insurance of the travel. Perhaps, they've become bad. For the good of society, I've continued to invest and buy equities, but it's a very mess like this. As soon as possible, I have to stop to pay money for PixAI and liquor. However, my personality is impulsive and not good at putting up. So I consulted Chat GPT about how to overcome my impulsive...

 In pre-article, I introduced Kaishu Katsu's quote, "It's meaningless if we hurry up. Waiting with lying down is our first priority." But, more thinking, I'm not good at waiting. Today too, not having learned my lesson, I paid money for PixAI. There was an animation that I want to make by any means. But, inversely, I can act aggressively. As new customers of our workplace, I've been interested in LGBTQ recently. So, today, II devoted money for one of LGBTQ group and became a supporting member of it. I prefer yuri, but yuri and LGBTQ are different, so I have to learn about LGBTQ more,, such as books。 However, even a bit, I have to learn ability I can do "waiting", such as saving money. I've understood that I want to spend money for the society..

On Saturday, I went to see my psychiatric counselor and talked with them about my excessive spending on PixAI. Then on Sunday, perhaps because it was the end of the month, my regular allotment of PixAI credits came in. By Monday, I had used them all up, but I did not buy any additional credits. The question is whether I can keep this up. One important key to my excessive spending on PixAI is this fact about myself: "I am a devoted hime-danshi - a male fan of yuri - and yuri excites me more than it does most people." When I opened up to my counselor about this, they advised me: "Couldn't you go to a store and buy books like that instead?" I sometimes find digital copies of that kind of doujinshi (the so-called "thin books") online, but they still do not quite satisfy me. Anyway, once my regular credits came in, I resumed generating "a yuri anime featuring Yukime and Ritsuko Takahashi from Hell Teacher Nube," and I also resumed generating ...