SPIRIT's Diary

On last Sunday, in the church, I ate curry as lunch. It was very delicious but spicy. I had become very perspiring. It affected to me, so I cooked again to relieve my stress today. This time was "Mayonnaise yakisoba" It was first time for me to add mayonnaise into yakisoba. But it became nice effect. Both texture and taste became mild. On second thoughts, I prefer mayonnaise. However, I can't stop wasting money for PixAI. What should I do?

Somehow, yesterday, I could skip drinking alcohol. For it, I could get up at 3:30 A.M. I had much time, so I cooked again. This time is "Meat Sauce Spaghetti with Sliced Pork" I added sliced pork, so texture was very unique. But my father said I made this cuisine too much. However, I can be likely to eat both lunch and dinner. To relieve my stress, I've continued to cook. However, I've wasted money for PixAI to relieve my stress every day. It can't be helped, so I decided to sell equity of ITOCHU Corporation. It was too bad. At any rate, Mr. Uichiro Niwa, the former president of ITOCHU Corporation, was great. It's not bad if I'll continue to support the white companies, the good companies to employees such as ITOCHU Corporation.

According to some YouTube videos, both drinking no alcohol and becoming early birds are suitable to health. When I was a pharmaceutical university student, I was a night owl. Particularly, when the next day was holidays, I slept from 3:00 A.M and got up at 10:00 A.M. But now, I've become adult, I have to make my conditions always ordinary. For father's recommending and so on, now, I've gotten up at 4:00 A.M. The time is easy for me to cook to relieve my stress. (But I didn't cook today.)   To get up at 4:00 A.M, I had to sleep earlier, 7:00 P.M. But I become sleepy after eating dinner, it was easy for me to go to bed until 7:00 P.M, after dinner and taking the bath. When I've become 30s, finally, I've become an early bird. However, my craving to alcohol has never stopped despite having to stop alcohol. I drank alcohol for 2 days. Today, I want to skip alcohol. For healthy lifestyle, I want to skip both drinking alcohol and eating Famichiki. But I can't do it...

In Japan, there are holidays from Sept.19th to Sept. 23th. So they are called as "Silver Week" So, both yesterday and today too, I cooked again. The cuisine of yesterday was, "Gyoza" . However, I added wrong amount of water into gyoza. So texture of gyoza were soft and watery. For my father, he could eat them more easily than ordinary gyoza . Today's cuisine was, "Yakisoba". The texture of yakisoba noodle and the taste of sauce were moderate. So both I and my father could eat them too much. To relieve my stress, cooking is important to me. However, for a whopping of these 3 days, I paid money for PixAI too much. German travel is soon, so I have to save much money as possible. What should I do?

I got my requested illustration from Mihoniumu-san(@gupmihoniumu, key(gaigaigai123)) This time was, "Itou Makoto and Kadotani Anzu are sleeping together in the bed, as the lovers." They’re sexy, aren’t they? In X(former Twitter), My peer requested this illustration desperately. I'm running out ideas, so I applied this idea in this time. But now, I have some idea about my willing requested illustrations. "Kyoshinhei/The Giant Warriors with Tsuji Renta's face are destloying Oarai's town(The parody of Nausicaa in The Valley)" "Itsumi Erika and other Kuromorimine' Girls School Students' student are burrying Itou Makoto into the ground because he had flierted with Garupan Commanders." And so on. After making him drawing such illustration, I'll requested illustrations again, about "Harem Protagonists as Hakkenshi/The Eight Dog Warriors" and "Garupan Captain Group as Hakkenshi/The Eight Dog Warriors" , based on Nansou ...

In last week, there was the health check in Thursday. So, in Wednesday, I didn't drink liquor, so liver rest days in last week were 3 times a week. My father recommended me to take no alcohol after I found my reflux esophagitis in the health check. And my father shows me various YouTube videos about alcohol, such like Yukkuri Series about Health. I've been trying to stop drinking alcohol until now. But today too, because of holiday, I've been troubled to my craving to alcohol. I drank Mitsuya Cider with peach taste instead. In Saturday, I drank 2000ml beer in the fair in Koto-dai Park, but in Sunday, I drank no alcohol. I would be able to continue skipping alcohol for 2 days if I don't drink alcohol today. But I've decided, that I definitely drink liquor if my parents quarrel and make my parents' apartment noisy.

Today is very rainy. It makes me a bit depressed. To relieve my stress, I got up at 3:30 A.M, and I cooked again. This time was  "Gyudon/Japanese beef rice". By my father, cabbage was added after my cooking. For it, textures had become very strange. But it was also good. In yesterday's case, I made mayonnaise spaghetti again. I prefer mayonnaise. Mellowness of mayonnaise and texture of spaghetti had been mixed successfully. I want to make mayonnaise spaghetti many times. To relieve my stress, cooking is one important method of many ways. I want to cook more.

Yesterday, I went to the travel agency with my father. And we paid remaining balance for German travel, by credit cards. (By the way, after it, for 40 minutes, I had to walk to my father's favorite restaurant for lunch, it made me very perspiring and irritated. So I drunk liquor in this day.) However, I re-confirmed my household budget and balance when I had returned home, and I found my cash is insufficient for paying credit cards. It's about 70,000 yen insufficient. If it goes on like this, I have to sell my equity more again. In this month too, I paid money for PixAI excessively and also hadn't taken into account for insurance of the travel. Perhaps, they've become bad. For the good of society, I've continued to invest and buy equities, but it's a very mess like this. As soon as possible, I have to stop to pay money for PixAI and liquor. However, my personality is impulsive and not good at putting up. So I consulted Chat GPT about how to overcome my impulsive...

Yesterday too, I paid money for PixAI excessively. It was over 5,000 yen. At this rate, can I pay expense for German Travel? And can I make ends meet? The value of merchandises has continued to rise. ` If I'm not careful, I have to sell equity more with violating regulations of my investment, My deficiency that I can't "waiting" such as saving and bearing buying unneeded merchandises is showing obviously. It's no use crying over spilled milk. Including expense for German travel, what should I do for my next life expense? If it's insufficient, do I have to sell my equity more? For the benefit of all, I've continued to invest for equity, social-lending and so on, but It's putting the cart before the horse. What should I do deal with my impulsive personality and my life expense?

I've continued to cook to relieve my stress.  Yesterday I cooked,   "Fried Rice with Ketchup".  I also got up at 4:00 A.M. today too.  So I cooked,  "Yakisoba". The taste of fried rice with ketchup was very perfect. The sour taste of ketchup and the texture of pork mixed very much. However, the amount of cuisine was a bit much. Yakisoba was a bit bad. I couldn't stir fry carrots very much, so the texture of carrots was very hard. I have to chew carrots many times. But the taste and texture of the noodle of yakisoba was moderate. Yakisoba is useful because my mother who can't eat hard cuisine can eat it. To relieve my stress more effectively, I want to cook more for future.

Today, in DomoAI, I got credits for generating animations. So, I decided to generate animations, of "Harem Protagonists as Hakkenshi" and "Garupan Captain Group as Hakkenshi", based on Nansou Satomi Hakkenden, again. By using Seedance 2.5, This time was I generated each 30s animations. The result was like this. I've not been satisfied these animations because these animations were that people were only walking here. So I added phrase into prompt below, "and drawing their own weapons." The results were below. Eventually, the result was failure. Both of them have occurred hallucination. Their weapons and hairs were a bit different from resources. Almost of them have katanas. Does it mean, that the present AI systems are immature and they can't deal with a whopping 8 people. Of course, I also need to challenge to generate animations more from the present AI systems. Casting of "Harem Protagonists as Hakkenshi" and "Garupan Captain Grou...

I wake up at 4:00 A.M. every day, and continue to cook our breakfast. These are pictures of recent cuisines. I prefer spaghetti the most, but I can't cook it every time. So, today, I cooked pork with the soy sauce. But my father said that the texture of pork was too hard. I grilled pork too much, didn't I? I said, cooking is one of the best ways to relieve my stress. But, for my craving, I often take alcohol. How will I resolve this problem to skip alcohol?

 In pre-article, I introduced Kaishu Katsu's quote, "It's meaningless if we hurry up. Waiting with lying down is our first priority." But, more thinking, I'm not good at waiting. Today too, not having learned my lesson, I paid money for PixAI. There was an animation that I want to make by any means. But, inversely, I can act aggressively. As new customers of our workplace, I've been interested in LGBTQ recently. So, today, II devoted money for one of LGBTQ group and became a supporting member of it. I prefer yuri, but yuri and LGBTQ are different, so I have to learn about LGBTQ more,, such as books。 However, even a bit, I have to learn ability I can do "waiting", such as saving money. I've understood that I want to spend money for the society..

Recently, I've spent impatient days every day. Because I don't have sufficient cash and I can't invest such as equity and social-lending whatever I want. And I'll go to Germany with my father. I don't understand how much we will use money on-site, and I can't predict how much cash will remain. So I don't know amount of money for investing, so it makes me irritated as an investor. And, in November, I'll take colonoscopy. I almost drink liquor every day, so I wonder how much mucosa of digestive tract have been harmed. I also don't know how much expense of this examination. Shouldn't I become impatient? Kaishu Katsu said, "It's meaningless if we hurry up. Waiting with lying down is our first priority." Is this saying true? Someday, my cash for investing will collect, so shouldn't I be impatient? Anyway, at first, I have to save money more. Of course, paying for PixAI is strictly inhibited. To contribute the society, I want to resta...

Without taking alcohol yesterday, but I got up at 4:00 A.M. So I cooked again. This time was  "The salted pork, gyoza and broccoli." Surprisingly, pork and gyoza was matched very well. More thinking, because gyoza contains pork. And I added broccoli, so this cuisine was nutritious in this time. I want to add various vegetables which I make eat easier. Because it becomes more nutritious. I've enjoyed cooking, on other hand, I suspend wasting money for PixAI, as under 10,000 yen. It's effectively saving money. I want to invest equity more, so I have to return and collect more cash.

Today is fiercely rainy. I got up 4:00 A.M., so to resolve my depressive emotion, I cooked again  This time was, "The pork saute with soy sauce" I rarely eat pork. So I'm happy to eat pork since long time. Soy sauce made pork a bit spicy but delicious. This cuisine made my father pleased too. But my getting up time is too early, so my mother complained me in Saturday. It's fun for me to cook my own pace when around nobody But I want to continue to cook. Because I can resolve my stress by it effectively.

 The subtitle of this article is a play on “Gouki’s Choice,” the title of an episode of Seijuu Sentai Gingaman. (Incidentally, Gouki is Ginga Blue, played by a young Shoei.) Yesterday, despite myself, I ended up paying for PixAI yet again. So far this month, I’ve spent just under ¥5,000 on PixAI. If possible, I want to keep it at that and avoid spending any more. Incidentally, I make my Hakkenden-related animations with a different AI animation system called DomoAI (https://www.domoai.app/). What I really want to make is “an animation in which the Eight Dog Warriors fight fiercely,” but I’m struggling even to generate “an animation in which the Eight Dog Warriors walk side by side,” so I need to finish that first. That said, I still haven’t accumulated enough credits for it, and perhaps not enough time has passed yet, because I haven’t received any of the periodic credits either. Since I’m managing to hold back in that area, perhaps that means I am capable of exercising self-restra...

I got up at 3:30 A.M. So I cooked again. This time was, "The chicken nugget and mayonnaise spaghetti". Because I love mayonnaise. My father said that vegetables are insufficient, so he added many broccoli and carrots into spaghetti. It may be nutritious. Cooking is one method to relieve my stress. But, even now, I'm likely to pay money for PixAI excessively. My real dream is that I watch various things of Japan and the world. Which is my choice?

Yesterday, while I'm thinking about how to live in German travel, without introspection, I paid 700 yen for PixAI again.  To take back it, I collected all interest money, of fixed deposit for German Travel.  I spent for it much time, but the result is 350 yen. In Funds(https://funds.jp/), the homepage of social-lending(crowdfunding)), we can invest 1 yen at a time, so I invested this money for Funds. It's also important for me to get benefit, but will my investing money make society useful? I said, that it's likely to in December that I can restart to invest of equity. But, about Funds that we can invest 1 yen at a time, it's more useful than buying equity in Paypay Securities. I may should use Funds more.

 Recently, I can’t sleep very well. Because I may take alcohol too much. Recently, I got a medication for insomnia. When taking the medication, I could sleep for first some hours. But after it, I couldn’t sleep anymore. On second tnought, it seems that alcohol is no good for good sleeping. Cani I have only way that I quit taking alcohol completely? This is the sleeping record on September 1st, without taking alcohol. Is it insufficient? Because I became sleepy about 13:30. Anyway, today is work from home, I was very lucky. Alcohol always makes me relaxed and fun, but make my sleeping worse. At any rate, is there no way except stopping taking alcohol completely, to make sleeping better?